Berkeley is a Riot

Berkeley has frequently been in the news lately. Just since the election of Donald Trump, there have been at least four big, nasty, and violent riots in our streets. The latest one was just last Saturday in downtown Berkeley, with numerous people arrested and injured.

Now hearing about all this anarchy, you may think that Berkeley is a crazy, uncivilized place, where mob rule reigns. You might also wonder if the residents are hypocrites, shutting down free speech, while lauding their reputation as starting the so-called free speech movement.

On both points, you would be right.

Berkeley is, in fact, an uncivilized place, and it’s getting worse every day. There are “homeless encampments,” all over the place, and violence is ever-present — both political and criminal. Not only is this a chaotic place to live, but what may be even more disturbing is that most people around here don’t seem to notice or care.

Most of the residents think that everything is normal, including the filth and drugs and sexual violence in the encampments; the frequent shootings by low-life thugs on a few mile stretch of interstate 80; and college students being beaten up for merely attending a campus event. Not only do many people think that all is well, but many voice their support of the rioting.

Now, this has always been a radical place. But the anarchy has increased significantly since Trump has been elected. Most of the violence is being conducted by paid operatives. But many residents applaud the mayhem. I think that this is partly because of their simmering rage and frustration about the election.

And there is an even more frightening undertone here — an us-versus-them mentality that has taken over the minds of so many around Berkeley, Oakland, etc. Either you’re with us, or you’re against us. Either you are l00% percent in favor of the riots or you are public enemy number one.

Take this conversation that I had with an acquaintance a couple of days ago, an otherwise pleasant, professional woman:

Me: I heard that there were more riots on Saturday in downtown Berkeley. That is just crazy.

She: Well, no wonder: people were spewing hate speech there.

Me: Really? What were they saying?

She: I don’t know, but I heard on KPFA {note: our local, radical radio station] that there were right wingers there who were saying hateful things.

Me: Like what? What did they say?

She: (getting annoyed) I told you, I don’t remember, but I’m sure that it was hate speech.

Me: Well, I just wish all of this fighting would stop — on both sides. I really find it stressful to live this way. I just want to be able to go over to Safeway or Trader Joe’s or wherever without having to worry about riots.

She: (Going into some hypnotic trance and glaring at me) Well if you believe that, you’re the enemy.

This was an actual conversation. I said a hasty goodbye and took off. I mean, what can you say to counter this irrational, paranoid thinking? 

I’ve been here for over 30 years and have never seen anything like it. When Bush the first was President and then W, there was barely a peep out of the populace. Sure, people were angry. But riots in the street? No.

I do recall one protest, which was a large, well-organized march down University Avenue to oppose the Iraqi War. But while the march was passionate, there wasn’t any violence or rioting.

But after President Obama took office, we started having frequent riots here, there, and everywhere —- for instance, the Facebook-organized occupations. These were mostly in downtown Oakland. Maybe that was a practice run. Now the puppeteers who control the brainwashed masses prefer whipping up social chaos in the supposedly iconic Berkeley.

Of course, no one cares about the problems all of this is causing ordinary residents. On Saturday, the Berkeley downtown BART station had to be closed. This isn’t Manhattan, with subway stations on every couple of blocks. The closest BART station to downtown is several miles away. And people who live and work in downtown Berkeley were, I’m sure, frightened and disrupted by the violence, helicopters, blocked streets, and the like.

None of this frequent rioting is coincidental or spontaneous: the American Left is using the same destructive tactics that it perfected back in the day. And given the ease of using the Internet for coordination, it will be a long while (if ever) before any of this stops.

In the meantime, the average Jane or Joe, like me, can’t simply go over to Whole Foods without taking his life in his hands. And no one seems to notice or care.

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Disappointed in Berkeley

Apparently, President Trump ordered bombing of Syria because the leader there had gassed his own people. Now where have we heard that one before?

The next thing we know, there will be accusations of Weapons of Mass Destruction in Syria. I mean, how dumb do these politicians think we are? Very dumb and easily manipulated, I guess.

And then I suppose we are. I sure have believed that Trump was a different type of politician, independent and not easily swayed by the neo-cons who have been pushing one horrible war after another in the Middle East.

Decades ago, the Arabs in the Middle East were our friends. As a child, I remember my parents enjoying a fabulous vacation in Egypt. Now that nation is torn up, as is Iraq, Libya, Syria, etc. etc.

Trump ran on a policy of putting America’s needs first. It is hard to imagine how this unprovoked bombing — based on dubious intelligence — was a good idea or put America first. The major hawk, Senator McCain, is thrilled. But here in Berkeley, I am disappointed, to say the least.

I have a Berkeley friend, a conservative, who never trusted Trump. My friend believes that the Democrats and Republicans are all the same, that is, willing shills of the bankers, the Federal Reserve and all of the players in the New World Order. I disagreed with him in the past, but now I’m wondering if he is right

If I had known then what I know now, would I have still voted for Trump? Yes, because the Clintons are a known quantity and deeply enmeshed in the NWO and all of the other nefarious forces out there. Is Trump? Maybe, probably. He may have been too good to be true.

The lesson for me — and for all of us? Don’t put one’s trust in a human leader. There is just too much corruption, too much money, and too much power in this world. And, as my friend had told me, no one is going to be elected President unless that person dances to the beat of the Powers that Be.

The only 100% trustworthy Force in this world is God. And given the events of the last 24 hours, and the terrifying potential of WW III, none of us have a moment to waste to get our acts together and start living our lives for Him.

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The No-Free-Speech Movement

“Censorship is the hallmark of an authoritarian regime.” Supreme Court Justice Potter Stewart, 1966

“Whoever would overthrow the liberty of a nation must begin by subduing the freeness of speech.” — Benjamin Franklin

“Restriction of free thought and free speech is the most dangerous of all subversions. It is the one un-American act that could most easily defeat us.” — Supreme Court Justice William O. Douglas

“I am a student. Please do not fold, spindle, or mutilate me.”
– Slogan of the Free Speech Movement, 1964.

A campus group at the University of California, Berkeley, invited a conservative speaker to give a talk. How did Berkeley react, the legendary home of the Free Speech Movement?

Given that the talk had been planned long in advance, did opponents get a permit to assemble legally and to protest? Or, if not, did they at least share their displeasure through a peaceful demonstration, with signs and chanted slogans?

Not a chance.

What happened is much, much darker. Thousands of people gathered, and many of them threw rocks and other dangerous objects at the police. Some rioters beat and pepper-sprayed students trying to attend the talk, several of whom had to be hospitalized. The mobs forced the emergency evacuation of the speaker and destroyed property: cars were overturned, windows broken, fires set, and stores vandalized.

Though I’ve been here since the l980s, the attacks on people and property have skyrocketed in the last 8 years. We’ve had the Occupations, with the seizing of freeways and city streets and mob rampages through the streets. Since the November election, we’ve also had other riots, with more destruction and injuries, all at an obscene amount of cost to the cities.

But this latest riot at the UC Berkeley campus and downtown Berkeley was even more sinister. This is because students trying to attend the talk were targeted for violence.

Those targeted had the audacity to want to attend a public talk, one sponsored by the campus group, the College Republicans. Even though the talk was approved and all of the channels gone through, the talk was shut down amidst the chaos. Yet more evidence that the Free Speech Movement at Berkeley was, and is, a lie.

Although many students and others protested, I have serious questions about how many local residents rioted versus being imported and paid. (1) However, putting that aside, I am extremely disturbed by how most of the residents around here support the riots.

In these parts, mayhem against people with a different point of view is excused as just desserts for “hate speech.” However, this attitude begs the question: how do they know that it is hate speech if they won’t allow themselves or anyone else to hear it?

Then there are the mind games, for instance, calling the riot a “protest,” as the campus-run newspaper, the Daily Californian, did. Personally, I’m not sure how a stampeding mob of violent thugs can be called a “protest.”

Of course, the message of the recent riots was this: don’t even try to offer a conservative point of view in the epicenter of progressivism. If so, you will be put in harm’s way. (And given that the politicos sent a message to the police to do nothing to stop the riots, you’ll be out there on your own.)

Though profoundly disturbing, the suppression of free speech in Berkeley is not surprising. It is typical of all cults, and progressivism is a cult.

With cults, no dissent is allowed; everyone must parrot the same party line. And if anyone dares to diverge from the group in any way, shape, or form, he will be marginalized, ostracized, threatened, and physically endangered.

Message, I imagine, received: It will be very, very unlikely that the Campus Republicans or any conservative group will invite a speaker here anytime soon. (Come to think of it, after decades of living here, I’ve never heard of a conservative being invited to give a talk.)

The Left is very fond of pointing fingers at Donald Trump and his supporters, defaming them with slurs, such as white supremacist, crazy, stupid, evil, fascists, and insane. Trump himself has been called Hitler.

But, honestly, who are the ones who most resemble fascists? Who are the ones who muzzle free speech and unleash a violent mob on young college students?

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“We are governed, our minds are molded, our tastes formed, our ideas suggested, largely by men we have never heard of. . It is they who pull the wires which control the public mind.” Edward Bernays (nephew of Sigmund Freud), in his book, Propaganda

We’re playing those mind games together
Pushing the barriers
planting seeds
Playing the mind guerrilla
Chanting the mantra:
peace on earth

—Mind Games, John Lennon

A number of years ago, before I went through my political and spiritual conversion, I attended a lecture in Berkeley by a progressive Ph.D, a linguist. His talk was about how linguists were starting to work with the Democratic Party to use words to manipulate the masses.

Of course, we can all see the success of the linguists’ endeavors — how the multitudes have been manipulated through the steady drumbeat of laboratory-tested words and phrases. For instance, Obama’s linguists had people chant, “We are the change,” over and over again, robotic-style. . . until the phrase sunk into most everyone’s brains. School children and Hollywood types recited praises to their leader incessantly.

The use of words as propaganda isn’t new. It started with Freud’s nephew, Edward Bernays, who borrowed from his uncle’s newfound field of psychology. The art of propaganda, through word usage, timing, and tone, has also been used successfully by hypnotists. This includes the practitioners of NLP, that is, neurolinguistic programming, which apparently was relied on heavily by the linguists working for Obama.

So what happens is this: words or phrases are used repetitively, in a hypnotic way, to create “triggers.” Those triggers can trigger what is called the “altar” state that is desired by the puppet masters. Hypnosis works on the premise that images and emotions — both positive and negative — can be evoked through careful word placement and repetition.

To see how well it works, simply observe people on the Left. When feel-good words and phrases are used, such as Obamacare, Hillary, Obama, Michelle, hope and change, happy feelings result. And then notice the complete opposite effect — the hostility, if not outright hate, — triggered by other words, e.g. Sarah Palin, Donald Trump, Steve Bannon. As another example: note how the frequent repetition of one of the newer words, “haters,” drives people on the Left to hate.

Then there are words that evoke concern, a parental worry and a desire to rescue. “Climate change,” for instance, compels people to forgo bags, even regular showers, in order to save the planet. Particularly brilliant is the use of the word “refugee” in the immigration debate. “Refugee” conjures up the image of war, and of bloody victims fleeing persecution.

The repetitive use of the word, “refugee,” impels most on the Left to open up our country to pretty much anyone who wants to come here. And yet, unlike real refugees, most immigrants (legal and illegal) are here mostly for financial gain. (2)

Of course, the old term, “illegal aliens,” is out. It has morphed into the more pleasant-sounding “undocumented workers,” which implies that the person is here working, with somehow a bureaucratic snafu holding up the paperwork.

And please examine closely the dangerous words thrown around by the Left to agitate their followers and to sometimes incite violence. The term, racist, has been used for years in that regard. But there are new words that are even more inflammatory: for instance, white supremacist, white nationalist, neo-Nazi.

But what exactly is a white supremacist? Or a white nationalist? Can anyone easily explain it? Where are they and who are they?

If someone doesn’t support affirmative action, does that make him a white supremacist? If a person is proud of being from the south, does that make him a white supremacist? If someone is concerned about Spanish being required in his child’s public school, is he one of those boogeymen?

Casually throwing around fighting words, such as white supremacist or white nationalist, is a horrible thing, reminiscent of witch hunts and gulags. And yet the leaders of the Left hypnotize the gullible masses as handily as a stage hypnotist manipulates a subject to bark like a dog.

With the media, Hollywood, and the educational system all avid supporters, the Left, in the age of President Trump, will do almost anything to try to control the narrative. And, apparently, it doesn’t matter if the results are bloody. We’ve been seeing the wreckage more and more in Berkeley, Oakland, and beyond.


1. I have said this before during the Occupations: I did not know a single person rioting (peacefully protesting, yes. But not beating up students and breaking windows). I asked many others, and they did not know a single person rioting.

Yet another clue that the masked bandits at the Occupation and at the recent Berkeley rioting were probably imported, via Facebook and Craig’s list — most of them probably paid operatives, now en route to their next riotous destination.

2. Note how many immigrants go back and forth to their home country (e.g. China or Mexico) to vacation and shop and visit relatives. A true blue refugee would never be able to do this.

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Our Animal House

(Reader Advisory: explicit content)

I had one of those sad Berkeley days. I did errands around town, and beheld the tragedy that is Berkeley, Oakland, and the like.

I needed to do some business near Gilman and Eastshore Freeway. If you’re ever in town, take a drive over there. The area personifies the horror that is Berkeley.

At Gilman, there is what is called a “homeless encampment.” This translates into a lot of druggies and dealers, drifters, and runways, as well as psychotics, living and sleeping out in the wild. They live in tents, set up illegal electricity, and light fires, to keep warm, cook food, and smoke crank.

Note here that Oakland recently had a catastrophic fire, where 36 young people perished at a rave; so this situation on Gilman is an extreme public hazard. It’s dangerous to the people who live and work nearby; to those driving on the nearby freeway; as well as those brave souls who shop around there (Office Depot, Whole Foods, and various other shops and restaurants are located nearby)

This is not the first tent city; it won’t be the last. For about 1 1/2 years, a group of homeless camped out right next door to the US Post Office in downtown, until finally they were given the boot. It can take forever and a day for such encampments to be forced out by the skittish, politically correct politicians.

Part of the problem, as always, is the citizenry around here, who vote for and support the very behavior that puts all of us at risk. In fact, Berkeley just voted in an even more liberal mayor than before, if that is even possible. So even though the tent cities are a real and pressing public hazard, nothing is done about it.

I just don’t know what is more bizarre: grown adults living in squalid conditions, drugging themselves up all day — or a (very rich) area allowing this. And these same people living in filth consider it better than the alternative: that is, returning from where they came and getting jobs. . or the mentally ill enjoying the three meals a day, warm beds, and a huge welcome mat rolled out for them by the omnipresent local social services. . . or the addicted getting free treatment on the public’s dime. But then again. .the street people would have to play by the rules, something anathema to them.

It’s always been bad around here. . but nothing like lately. And getting worse by the day. One friend says that she’s seen a much more aggressive vibe since marijuana was legalized in November. Another friend, “Alexis,” added, “A super leftist area like this is just going to get worse and worse and worse over time.”

So true. One has to wonder, though: how low will this area and its people fall??

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Speaking of which, I should tell you of what I saw a week ago. I was shopping at a grocery chain in south Berkeley.

On the check out line, I saw a twenty-something girl dressed as a rabbit. She was wearing a furry outfit with a tail. It wasn’t like a child’s pajamas. . I mean, this was a true blue bunny costume, fitting for day wear. It was bizarre.

Later, I spoke to Alexis, a woman always in the know. She said that it’s part of a trend out of San Francisco, gaining popularity every day. They even had a recent convention in SF, called Fur Con.

People dress up as animals and (brace yourself) gather together for sexual behavior that involves pens (for the pigs) and other perverse behavior. There are community orgies, as well as private stalls. Many of the members actually believe they are animals and play the role in public (hence, the woman in the rabbit outfit).

Alexis said that she recently saw a young man walking down University Avenue dressed as a dog. It’s almost all young white females and males who engage in this twisted lifestyle . . . this isn’t surprising since most liberal, young whites have come to hate themselves. No wonder they think they are only suitable for pig pens and cages.

But in my mind, it gets even scarier than Fur Con and the other Animal House sightings of the Bay Area. Next up on the progressive playlist will likely be promoting bestiality. Why not? Homosexuality, polyamory, and transgendered surgery/hormones have managed to become as acceptable as Mom’s apple pie.

We can trace all of this animalism to what was once called Darwin’s “Theory” of evolution. Apparently, Darwin pitched the idea as a possibility, not a probability. As I understand it, he refuted most of it on his death bed. But obviously the idea has stuck, and any scientist brave enough to argue with the Establishment sees his career go up in smoke. (1)

If we’re all just beasts, simply less hairy baboons, why not “do it in the road” or at homeless encampments? Why not trash public property, dress as animals and engage in public orgies; why not ingest unlimited amounts of drugs and drink? And why care about anyone else — why even care about oneself, one’s body, one’s precious life?

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I could go on and on and on with what I witness every day. . but I’ll just add one more for the record: how almost every female around here is covered with tattoos. While a tattooed lady used to be a popular freak show attraction at the circus (remember that?), now it’s a rare female around here that hasn’t mutilated herself.

I’m not talking about a teeny-weeny tattoo of a little butterfly on the ankle. I’m talking about tattoos all over the arms and legs, chest, neck, back. There are also the septum piercings through the middle of the nose, African-style ear lope piercings, as well as facial spikes.

Yeah, the guys are tattooed all over as well. But there is something particularly disturbing about seeing all of these cartooned-adorned ladies. While tattoos used to be the sign of a gang banger or a convict, now they are mainstream.

But tattooes are incredibly painful. They are disfiguring. They require hundreds of needles, and can be outright dangerous. And females are not supposed to accept and crave pain.

I suppose that painful bodily assaults can now be tolerated by women because they are not really women any more. They are tough and rough. . desensitized by their lifestyle (abortions, promiscuous sex, rapes, etc. etc.) I can’t even remember the last time I saw a little girl carrying a dolly around — maybe decades?

With no role models for femininity in sight, the women are indistinguable from the men. So they can join the military, where they can get their legs blown off in combat; they can engage in sadomasochistic sexual practices (also popular around here); they can mutilate themselves through tattoos or piercings or maybe even removal of their chests to become a “man.” And a totally insane culture calls all of this “freedom.”

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All of the above is happening in clear sight.. . with rarely a negative word being spoken. Young adults get their bodies burned to death at an Oakland rave; dangerous encampments exist in full view of multi-million dollar homes; young people dress up as animals and have group relations in cages.

It’s happening here in droves, because this is the belly of the beast. But it’s happening other places as well. National Geographic just ran a story on the new “gender revolution” of gender confused children spreading like wildfire.

Berkeley is the testing ground, and has been for many decades now, probably since the Frankfurt School set up shop at the University of California, Berkeley in the l930s. (2) If the hypnotic programming works here, it is unleashed onto your neighborhood as well.

I suppose that the horror show that I see every day is the logical outcome of a culture that has lost its moorings from God — and, consequently, has lost its mind. We have moved so far beyond the depravity of Sodom and Gomorrah that the sky’s the limit.

As always, there is a clear winner here. It is not you nor is it me. It certainly isn’t our young people, who are being used and abused and treated more viciously than any laboratory rat.

The winner is the diabolical one, that source of all that is destructive and degrading and base. And it is he who wins when a once proud people are degraded down, down, down, to the very bottom of the underworld, into the animal kingdom and beyond.

(1) There’s a great documentary by Ben Stein, No Intelligence Allowed, about how any scientist that disagrees with the evolutionary point of view gets the Saul-Alinsky treatment (that is, ridiculed, marginalized, ostracized).

(2) The Frankfurt School was a multidisciplinary group of atheist Jewish intellectual Marxists in Germany, who were forced out of the country by Hitler. Some went to Columbia, but the vast majority set up shop at the University of California, Berkeley.

One of them stated that the school’s goal was corrupting the West so much that it “stinks.” From what I see everyday, the members exceeded even their wildest expectations.

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Berkeley’s Deathtrap

You’ve probably heard about the tragic fire in Oakland that took the lives of 36 young adults. It is a terrible loss of life; I can’t even imagine the horrendous suffering of the loved ones. To lose a child or sibling or best friend so suddenly and traumatically is a painful cross to bear.

There are so many tragic elements to this fire — the loss of life being the most obvious one. But there are a multitude of victims (and villains) to go around.

For one, why are all these young people living in such unsafe environs? According to a former tenant, there is no heat; the place is infested with bugs and rodents; and there’s no place to even cook. How did the landlords get away with renting these slum conditions for so many years; after a multitude of complaints, why didn’t the city shut the place down?

One reason the young people signed on to the dotted line to live in a filthy slum is the severe lack of affordable housing around here. Though the Bay Area touts itself as a liberal haven, no one, aside from the very rich, can afford to live here. These days, a tiny fixer upper in a sketchy neighborhood will elicit bids of a million dollars and upwards. And rents are also through the roof.

But what troubles me isn’t just that the kids couldn’t afford a decent place to live. It’s: why did they stay here? What is it about this area that made them throw caution to the wind and set down roots? Why didn’t they go to other desirable cities, such as Portland or Minneapolis? Or a more compelling question: why didn’t they go back home?

Surely what they found around here couldn’t have met their expectations of the iconic Berkeley. Rather than a warm and welcoming atmosphere, they instead confronted an aggressive, crime-ridden area. But, I suppose, rather than change their beliefs about Berkeley, Oakland, etc. they decided that the hazardous conditions was somehow worth the enormous cost that they were paying — financially, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. For some very unfortunate souls, this cost meant their very lives.

But most of the people who perished at the Ghost Ship (a very apt name for the slum) weren’t living there. They were coming for the big party scene, the techno music, and the free booze, drugs, and sex.

I wish that I knew a bit about these young people — what brought them there, for instance, and why. I imagine that for some, like the teenager who died, it may have been their first time. Others were probably seasoned ravers—- maybe initiating some of the novices into the frenzied scene.

I also wonder about their parents — did any of them ever warn their kids about these kinds of manic events? Did the mom or dad tell them not to attend large gatherings in unsafe environments? Or did the parents — like so many parents around here — just tell them to enjoy their youth and have fun? (an exceedingly unwise message to send your child, regardless of his age).

And other tragic elements of the fire: the unstable, addicted husband and wife who rented out rooms to the young people. The couple are a nightmare in and of itself.

Apparently, the wife was a nice girl from a nice family in Portland, Oregon, who, like so many other nice girls, came to Berkeley seeking cool experiences. She connected with an apparently horrendous man who exerted a Svengali spell over her — and so many other people. Apparently, they live a drug-soaked life.

While worried family and friends tried to rescue the young woman, Micah, and help her successfully complete drug rehab, her husband had other plans. He kept enticing her to leave with him, which she did over and over again.

I saw pictures of the pair when they were first together. She was a lovely young woman, with blonde hair, blue eyes, and perfect, chiseled features. But in the most recent Facebook picture, she looks dead, her good looks long gone, with a blank and vacant stare.

She, like so many other young women, came here unaccompanied, hooked up with a dangerous man, and has paid the price in a good life gone very bad. She reminds me of the young Weather Underground women, also once sporting beauty and talent, who ended up emaciated wastelands — many of them dying tragically as well.

The tragedies don’t end there. There are also the landlords’ three children, so severely neglected that the authorities removed them from their care. Tragically, they were returned to the Ghost Ship hellhole before too long.

There these little tykes were filthy, malnourished, and infested with lice. The children wandered around aimlessly, observing young people, high as kites, having orgies. In one incident, a babysitter found the three year old chewing on a condom.

All of this horror is emblematic of not just parenting problems or drug issues or even housing code violations. It is emblematic of Berkeley and Oakland itself.

The warehouse was a deathtrap; we can all agree on this. But this region is a deathtrap in and of itself, just like all radical left ideology and practices. The soul stealing all around me is not confined to a rare fire.

It starts when young adults come out here seeking adventure. They find themselves pressured to experiment and do things that they don’t want to do and wouldn’t have done in their wildest imaginations. Many connect with bad men or women.

And some of them get stuck here, like Micah —- getting themselves into such bad trouble that they can’t get themselves out. Some never do.

But what makes this area a death trap isn’t just the crime-ridden streets or the irresponsible sex and drugs. What is most profoundly deadly is the lack of faith. The Bay Area is the most atheistic one in the country. Tragedy inevitably results when people abandon God.

Because only in God is there any hope — not in politics or gurus or marinating one’s brain in ecstasy, alcohol, and marijuana. And there are very few signs of life, or hope, in this very, very bereft area.

However, there are moments when the Light of God still glimmers. I was moved while hearing of a note that someone left on the impromptu Oakland memorial. The note read: “I’m praying for you — that you got out of there alive.”

What this note communicated to me is that people know. Whoever wrote this note — no matter how pierced and tattooed, how mesmerized by rave music and frenetic dancing: this person knows: that when the going gets terrifying and desperate, we reach for God.

We all know on some level, no matter how much we kid ourselves, that God exists and is preeminent. We can lie to ourselves that there is no God; that humans are cosmic mistakes; and that the unborn babe in the womb isn’t stitched together with the artistry and love of God. But we all know.

I pray that more and more people come to realize how deadly life is without God. I pray that people start waking up, now, not later. As the Ghost Ship disaster illustrates, the lives of our children depend on it.

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Notes from the Underground

To find out who rules over you, simply find out who you are not allowed to criticize.”

Twenty two years ago today, I was brutally attacked and left for dead in the middle of a street in Oakland. I had just walked out of a restaurant at noon, on an unseasonably hot autumn day. It’s only by the grace of God that I am alive.

I don’t like to think about it; it’s been a long time, and I’ve become a completely different person since: older, wise, and more hyper vigilant to potential threats. Back then, I did see the black man walking towards me and felt very uncomfortable. But not wanting to be viewed as racist, I turned the corner anyway, and that’s when my life changed forever.

I think about this assault today for another reason. I’ve been seeing headlines that in the three days since Trump was elected, there has been a surge in hate crimes. Now I find that puzzling. How would social scientists have tracked this already, those same professionals who require endless discussions, months of calculation, and countless meetings to agree on anything? But then again, I have long since stopped believing anything that I read in the news.

My victimhood of years ago was never a statistic. It was a type of hate crime, since it is mostly white and Asian people out here who are targeted by the criminals, who are mostly black. Bodies being bloodied around here are a dime of dozen and don’t make the evening news. In fact, white victimization is always disregarded. When I told a friend about it, she replied, “Well, he was a victim too.” (Really? It wasn’t his body that was bruised and battered.)

My friend’s indifference reminds me of Ayn Rand’s warning many decades ago. She said that a country has plummeted into totalitarianism when there is more compassion for the criminal than the victim. Clearly we reached that disastrous tipping point many years ago.

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It is a surreal experience walking around Berkeley these days. Of course, it is always a difficult place to be: life in a cult that I used to belong to. But lately, it’s been worse, even crazier.

I think this is partly because the populace (and a lot of the country) has become more radicalized since Obama has been office. Obama acted with impunity for these years. People have become grandiose; they believe that they can, and will, reconfigure the world.

The election of Donald Trump has been a shocking slap in the face to everyone who thought that they were on the road to paradise. Their leader has been Obama; then they switched to Bernie. With his losing, the residents here were supremely unhappy for a while, but then followed the liberal drumbeat to switch to Hillary, their next messiah.

Of course, the rest of the country had something different to say, as Donald Trump was elected instead. The shock and horror around here are something to behold.

Some of it has taken the form of rioters that have trashed the area, especially (as usual) downtown Oakland. Cars have been destroyed; businesses vandalized; countless windows broken; police officers attacked. Millions of dollars wasted in the carnage, not to mention millions more to pay for the police officers, detoured from protecting law-abiding citizens from the thugs who prey on us.

Then there are those who stop traffic on the streets and the freeway, arguably a violent and provocative action in and of itself. But most of the public has remained nonviolent.

And yet, most of the lawful residents support the mayhem. I’m not sure who is worse: the hoodlums that menace the police and destroy businesses or the law abiding citizen who excuses this behavior. Left out are the most vulnerable: the women, children, sick, and old people, abandoned to the “cause,” with no one to protect us.

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Berkeley and the American Left are a type of cult. Just read up on cults and you’ll see all of the tell tale signs.

In a cult, there is a leader that people follow no matter what, even to the edge of a cliff. For the last few years, it has been Obama. Even though, during Obama’s presidency, hate crimes against whites and Asians have skyrocketed, white progressives ignore this — or they excuse it as the cost of “privilege.” And the fact that this area, the progressive capital of the world, is a filthy snake pit, that is okay too, again because of privilege.

It is unnatural to endanger ourselves and others. And another clue that the Left is a cult is that people act so unnaturally. In religious cults, women allow their children to be sexually used by the leader; or they abandon their children so the parents can go off and live with the group. Again, this is unnatural; parents intuitively protect their kids.

And yet out here, parents allow their children to go to schools that are dangerous propaganda mills. The kids are subjected to endless harangues about the evil white people; white males learn to hate themselves the most of all. The kids are taught that homosexuality, heterosexuality, transgendered surgery, or polyamory are all equal “choices.”

So many other unnatural things here: Women adorn their bodies from head to toe with tattoos and piercings, even spikes in the face. Tattoos hurt; piercings hurt. And yet women do this to themselves as, I think, a type of cult-like initiation practice, something that requires numbing and desensitization.

Another way the Left is a cult: no dissent allowed. Everyone must believe the same thing — or else: people are shunned from the group, ridiculed and marginalized — Alinksy-style. Or even worse, their lives are threatened It is risky for a cult to allow any independent thinking because the whole charade is a house of cards that can be easily toppled.

A final trademark of cults is that those inside fear and demonize those outside. So Trump voters been been tarred as idiots, insane, racists, and white supremacists. Donald Trump has morphed from a fabulously wealthy businessman, with pretty wives, and successful kids, to Hitler. Of course, all of this nonsense has been whipped up by the Democrats and the mainstream media.

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The other day I was standing waiting for an elevator. There was a father there, a Chinese immigrant, with his three little children. The elevator opened, and the littlest one, a 3 year old girl, ran inside so quickly that the elevator closed and she was briefly trapped inside alone. Terrified, the little girl started screaming at the top of her lungs. In record speed, the dad zipped over and pushed the elevator button; the elevator door opened; and he pulled the child out.

Though safe, the little girl was still howling at the top of her lungs. Even though she had only been alone in the elevator for a few seconds, it felt like an eternity. She sensed the danger of that moment: that without her father, she was lost.

I leaned over and consoled the sobbing girl with, “That was so scary. But your dad rescued you. You don’t have to be frightened. Your daddy is there.” She looked at me, seemed to take in what I was saying, and calmed down a bit.

That little girl reminds me of the people in Berkeley, Oakland, and all the other liberal bastions around the world. They, like this little girl, are terrified because they have been left alone in the world. Without Obama, without Bernie or Hillary, they feel untethered, abandoned and alone. . and there is no one in the world to make them feel safe.

Yes, they are alone, and yes, they are untethered, but not because a Republican will be President. It is because they have unanchored themselves from the only source of safety in the world: God. Without Him, they trust in false prophets; they cling to delusions and myths.

And they miss the main reason why humans are alive. It is not to follow a human messiah, one who wants to architect a perfect world. No one can create a perfect world. And by trying to do so, a type of hell is created on earth for everyone.

Human beings are made for one main purpose: and that is to know and to worship God. There is no human being who will ever fill the gaping hole in our hearts that only God can fill. No wonder the leftists flail around, like a child without his Father, looking for something or someone to cling to.

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Those Aggressive Progressives

The American public has spoken. A legitimate, democratic election has been held, and Donald Trump has been elected. How have the “peace loving, tolerant” progressives responded to losing the White House?

Have they been disappointed, but understanding. . . able to recognize that life doesn’t always give one what we want? Have they formed groups to try to figure out where they have gone wrong; that is, why much of the country has voted them out?

Or. . have many become violent anarchists, setting fires in some of the cities, attacking the police, and triggering mass hysteria?

We all know the answer — the latter. As usual.

It is crazy around here, as extreme as I’ve ever seen it: mass insanity, like in a cult. Residents are inconsolable, terrified, organizing support groups and seeing counselors. Schools are cancelling classes, so students can march around town screaming and disrupting and frightening drivers and passers-by. Freeways are being occupied, inconveniencing and agitating the already stressed-out drivers. And little children are sobbing in their public schools, because some of their parents (and teachers) are telling them that a really evil man has been elected President.

None of this is surprising for any of us who have studied the Left’s tactics. The Left works by agitating and frightening people, so that they can control them; they manipulate young people to protest and occupy freeways, thereby putting their bodies at grave risk; they pay the homeless and the thugs to riot and add a particularly menacing and violent presence to the whole, twisted affair.

To me what is particularly tragic is not just that so many people are acting like uncivilized brutes, wrecking havoc on businesses and citizens simply because they didn’t get their way. What is especially disturbing is how much of the populace excuses and enables the antisocial behavior.

Speak to almost anyone about the riots and violence, and they’ll say, “Well, people are angry, and they have a right to be.” As though it is perfectly acceptable in a civilized nation for people to unleash their primitive impulses on other people and their property because they are upset. Even more horrifying, many of these same Berkeley residents will excuse mayhem reaped on their own loved ones, even their children.

I suppose that one good aspect of the Left’s explosive, post-election behavior is that much of the country gets to behold what the Democratic Party has turned into. While the Democratic Party, under President Kennedy, may have comprised mostly patriotic liberals, for decades now, it has been hijacked by the most extreme elements of the radical Left.

And this is on full display in Berkeley, Oakland, LA, and other areas where the aggressive progressives are showing their true colors: not the movement of love and kindness, but one of insurrection. And, consequently, lots of people in this country right now feel greatly relieved that the radicals won’t be in power for very much longer.

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We are the Ones

I was just taking a walk around Berkeley. Many of the residents are adorned with Hillary buttons and t-shirts. There’s a nervous vibe in the street, as Berkeley-ites shudder in fear at the media-constructed boogey-man, Donald Trump.

I feel a bit nervous too. . but at the moment, the main thing that I feel is sobered. There is a tremendous amount at stake with this election, not just for the country, but for Christians, in particular.

The Democratic Party has made it clear that the enemy for them isn’t so much Russia or Iran (more media-constructed villains), but Christians, particularly the Catholic Church. The Wikileaks reveal the level of contempt people high up in the Administration have for Christians, particularly Catholics. And the leaks revealed their plan to infiltrate the Catholic Church to create chaos, disorder, and confusion. . and revolution, to try to force changes in the ancient Church teachings. This is a process that started many years ago, and took on a life of its own from the l960s and onward.

And Hillary Clinton herself, in a talk a few years ago, asserted that any religious group that doesn’t want to dance to the liberal drummer will have to change. She didn’t say what the government would do to crack down on churches that have their own teachings, based on Christ, not the gurus in the Democratic Party. But one can only guess, since the persecution has already started with Obamacare forcing unreasonable and un-Holy mandates on Christian churches and organizations.

These are the times in which we all live. This isn’t a time for followers of Jesus to become frightened. Jesus Himself told us to never be afraid, that man can only hurt our bodies, but never touch our souls, if they are firmly grounded in God.

Instead, this is a time for saint-making. I heard a pastor preach on this recently. He said, “If you aren’t trying to become a saint, what are you doing? If you aren’t trying to become holy, what are doing with your life?” I agree; this is a time for those who put God first to pick up our crucifixes and follow Him.

There is nothing else that matters. Our petty concerns will fade away in time. . .and this election will be over before too long. Same with our finite bodies and lives. We are all faced with a choice, and it isn’t Democrat or Republican. It is: who will we follow, who will be worship, what will we do with this one life that we’ve been given?

The Bible makes it clear that in the end, there will be very few true believers left. I keep thinking of the passage from Revelation: These are the ones who survived the time of great distress; they have washed their robes clean and made them white in the blood of the Lamb.

There is an old Chinese curse: May you live in interesting times. These are certainly interesting times, although I don’t believe they are a curse.

This is a time for heroes. This is a time of saint-making. This is when we reveal our true colors, to ourselves, to others, but, most of all, to God.

So make sure to vote on Tuesday. Vote as though your life depends on it. And, frankly, it might.

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Lies Matter

I often shake my head in wonder that much of the populace is so gullible and malleable. I mean, I kind of get it. I was one of them, years ago. But I’d like to think that if there were solid information presented to me that I would have stopped believing the lies sooner.

Here’s an example of a delusional belief that has gained traction. Apparently, lots of folks believe that there is a pandemic of white on black crime, rather than the reverse. I mean, are you kidding me??

Then there is the issue of marijuana, which Californians are about to decriminalize come November. Countless Californians are drugged out already. You take your life in your hands driving or even walking the streets. And, yet, most folks apparently think it’s a good idea to create more of an incentive to turn on, tune in, and drop out.

Then there is the so-called California Dream. Lots of people from elsewhere have gotten a clue that the dream is a thing of the past, if it ever existed at all. In many parts of the world, California is now the laughing stock of the nation — with the state’s fiscally irresponsible experimentation, the filthy and crime ridden cities, and the rotting infrastructure. And, yet, there are still some duped college students and young professionals who actually think that it’s a good idea to move here.

Another whopper: that the Black Lives Matter (BLM) is a spontaneous, grassroots outpouring by indignant black people. I mean, please. People don’t, in neatly organized and heavily funded fashion, just take it to the streets. And the lie feels disturbingly racist. Blacks, like other ethnicities, are too busy paying their bills, worrying about their kids’ education, and doing the laundry to suddenly drop everything to occupy the freeways. BLM has all the marks of the radical Left: that is, paid operatives, who are doing a stellar job inflaming and frightening the masses.

Here’s another delusion: that it’s a good idea to relocate the Clintons back to the White House. And why isn’t anyone in the mainstream news asking about reports that Hillary may be in very poor health? She’s had unexplained falls, including a recent one at a 9/11 event, concussions, difficulty walking, and possibly cognitive problems involving speech, memory and temper. But just as the MSM ignores her email travails, same too about the real possibility that her health problems may endanger her ability to safely run the country.

The casual, if not cavalier, attitude of so many about all of the lies and deceptions reminds me Alfred E. Neuman, the fictional character who famously said: What-Me-Worry? It’s not a coincidence that Alfred was the mascot for Mad Magazine. It’s a mad society when people don’t take the time to think for themselves and instead swallow the propaganda hook, line, and sinker.

None of the disorder and falsehoods are new. It is how the radical Left has always operated. They whip up racial strife and engineer anarchy and social chaos. But the situation is much worse today than in the 60s because rather than being a fringe element, the radicals are now firmly in power.

My advice in all of this: fellow Americans, stop allowing the media and the government to manipulate you like puppets on a string. Do your own research, outside the mainstream box. And stop letting black, white, brown, etc. lies matter.

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I’ve coined a word for what happens to most people who are in Berkeley, Oakland, etc. for any length of time. I call it, “Berkeley-cized.”

Berkeley-cized refers to once normal people from normal parts of the world. They come to this area with their faculties still intact. But before long, they usually become, “Berkeley-cized.” 

Let me give you an example, actually a true one.

Claire is an older woman who moved to these parts to live near her adult son and grandchildren. She had, for years, lived in a bucolic, safe town in the South.

I met Claire about a year ago when she was working as a cashier in one of the local pharmacies. I was enchanted by her Southern accent and politeness, as we talked about her recent move to the Bay Area. She was aghast by what she was seeing: the filth, crime, and the general level of meanness.

Her ardor for this place hadn’t grown by the time I chatted with Claire a few months later. While we were talking, a man ran into the store, purposely threw over some items, and grabbed a few more and ran out. She and I both looked at each other, horrified. Claire shook her head and said, contemptuously, “This happens all the time. I can’t believe that people act this way around here and that no one seems to care.”

Sadly, though, when I last encountered Claire, just this week, she had morphed into someone completely unrecognizable. I started making chit-chat with her on the checkout line, and I said, “How are you doing in this crazy area?” Defensively, she countered with, “Oh, it’s not so crazy here. It’s a lot crazier in Florida.”

Startled, I responded with, “I don’t know what is going on in Florida since I don’t pay attention to the news. But I can’t imagine any area being more insane than this one.”

She argued that, “Oh, no, it’s a lot worse in Florida. The governor there is crazy.”

Now I don’t know what is going on in Florida or the governor there. I wasn’t sure what Claire was talking about. But one thing I was sure of: Claire had become Berkeley-cized. My formerly reasonable acquaintance was now one of “them.”

I’ve seen this same phenomenon occur over and over again, which, to me, looks a whole lot like cult behavior. It also reminds me of the Stockholm Syndrome, where hostages fall in love with their kidnappers in order to survive.

I suppose there are only two viable options when encountering the insanity that is Berkeley. One choice is to see reality for what it is. But that requires much intestinal fortitude because, when it dawns on you that you left hearth and home for Hades, it can be terrifying.

So most people choose number two: they, like Claire, become Berkeley-cized. Somehow it’s easier to chuck reality for something easier to tolerate. And people console themselves by imagining some other place, somewhere else, as being “worse.”

Being Berkeley-cized is similar to what abused spouses do to calm themselves down at the end of another traumatic day. Rather than see the wreckage of their lives, they rationalize it with, “It could always be worse.”

It was sad to meet up with Claire, and to behold yet another previously-intact person having her brain hijacked by the Body Snatchers. Though Claire was once a rare and refreshing voice in the maddening crowd, she clearly has decided that it’s easier to join them, rather than fight them. Maybe her newly programmed self will have an easier time coping the next time that a thug storms into her store to rob it.

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The Great American Bathroom Wars

Since Obama appeared on the national scene a few years ago, this country has been embroiled in one brouhaha or another. We’ve debated Issues that were never discussed before: topics that no one thought about or, if they did, the subjects weren’t discussed in polite company.

But now nothing is off limits. The latest headline grabbers are about toilets . .who uses them, where, and when. In the good old days of pre-2008, no one talked about subjects such as, “tea bagging” or bathroom rights — no one needed to. But now, a formerly neutral topic (that is, who uses the can) has become a battlefield.

Back in the golden olden days, it was crystal clear to every man, woman, and child which bathroom they should use. In fact, one can make the argument that bathroom use was the one topic in America that united liberals and conservatives, old and young, and people of all races, creeds, and colors.

Although citizens might argue about abortion, the Middle East, and briefs versus boxers, we all knew that males use the men’s bathroom. Conversely, females went to the bathroom in the women’s room. There were even nifty little signs on the doors, so that non-English speakers could find their way to the right place.

But now, nothing is as simple as it once was. Now, males who think that they are females are demanding the right to use the women’s bathroom — with our President and Hillary Clinton also getting fired up about this supposedly essential, human rights issue.

Now what I find interesting is that we hear a lot about biologically born males demanding to go potty in the women’s bathroom. However, hardly a peep is uttered by those biologically born females, who think they are males, demanding to go into the men’s room. I have spent (way too much) time wondering why the noteworthy difference. Here is my careful analysis:

The first possibility: The lack of ardor for females to use the men’s room may have to do with the usual state of a men’s room. I mean, let’s face it: every gal knows what a miserable olfactory experience it is to share a bathroom with a dude.

I’ve never been able to figure this out. Why do those men, who have perfect range when shooting a gun or chopping wood, miss the toilet, 99% of the time? And why do otherwise intelligent males never think to wipe up the mess?

I mean, really. Any of us long-suffering gals who’ve had to share a bathroom with a male know the nuisance, if not the absolute horror, of a unisex bathroom. Many a marriage has been saved by relocating from a one-bathroom to a two bathroom residence, thereby allowing the woman to have a Room Of Her Own. And, another burning question here: why is it, after generations of feminine nagging, that the male sex cannot remember to put the toilet seat down?

So one possible reason why biologically born women (who think that they are male) are not hankering to share the lo with males is the gross out factor: that is, they wouldn’t be caught dead in the place. But there is another possible reason for the bathroom reticence.

It may well be that a biologically born female who thinks that she is a male is actually afraid to use the men’s room. Political types may argue that this is because she worries that the men may yell at her for invading their private bastion of masculinity. But she may actually be scared of the opposite situation: that the men might welcome her entry a bit too gladly.

The reality is that while most men are harmless, good guys, still, there will always be males who wish females harm. And then there are otherwise decent men who, when given the opportunity, may want to take a peek. This reality of human nature is one of the reasons why bathrooms have been segregated according to sex, that is, Men in the men’s room; ladies in the ladies room.

Now if this theory is true, that is, biologically born women who think that they are males, may feel endangered using the men’s bathroom, this invites a relevant question. If biologically born men enter the women’s room. . . does this put the ladies in some danger?

A lot of people are worried about the risks to the safety of girls and women of men in the women’s rooms. And there are good reasons to be concerned. Studies show that in unisex bathrooms in coed college dorms, some females have been sexually harassed by males secretly spying on them and even filming their private activities. Common sense tells us that if unisex bathrooms become the law of the land, many more girls and women will be at risk.

My personal opinion here: let’s return to the good, old days, when males used the men’s room, and women in the ladies room. I mean, how long does the whole event even take? Aside from the occasional runs from too much pepperoni pizza, most of us are in and out of a public bathroom lickety split.

But common sense isn’t common anymore. If anyone voices opposition to the Great American Toilet Experiment, the hypnotized masses will rage: Unfair! Civil Rights! etc. etc. It’s as though much of the country has lost its collective mind.

There’s no sign of the insanity letting up any time soon. One can only hope and pray for a return to some degree of reason come November.

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Trump Towers

Oh, man. This upcoming election is forcing me to break my self-imposed Rip Van Winkle, stuporous state with regard to the news. In other words, I feel forced against my will to actually know what’s going on around the presidential race.

Apparently, most of the GOP candidates have dropped out, leaving Donald Trump, Ted Cruz and someone from Ohio whose last name begins with a K. One of my Berkeley friends says that he’s the only sane one in the Republican bunch, which makes me want to know as little about him as possible.

What I am seeing around here is a form of mass hysteria when it comes to Donald Trump. Seriously, people are absolutely apoplectic, frothing at the mouth about the possibility of The Donald being our Prez. Their blind rage and hatred is at George W. Bush levels.

And they are terrified, as though Donald Trump is a combination of the anti-Christ, the boogeyman, and the Joker. There is just no rumor too idiotic and histrionic that someone around here isn’t voicing it.

One panicked person told me that if Trump were elected, the stock market would crash to the lowest of lows. Now, I’m not sure how a multi-gazillionaire as President would torpedo our economy. Wouldn’t a socialist President that wants to make every day Black Friday be at more risk of destroying the few bucks that this country still has?

And another person said that there would be mass deportation of every illegal man, woman, and child, along with plenty of legal immigrants. Let’s throw in the fantasy of herding away the Jews and the gypsies and we’ve got the makings of a full-blown paranoid psychosis.

Someone else told me fearfully that Trump was a madman, certifiably insane. Again, I’m not sure how a stupendously successful businessman could make all that money and mastermind so many deals if he were one step away from the looney bin. And, plus, with the amount of crazy around here, such as the deluded screamers on street corners, one would think that Berkeley-ites would welcome more insanity into their lives.

Of course, much of the hysteria is being fomented by our ever so “unbiased” media, which can’t stand Trump and wants the public whipped up into a feverish frenzy. Never one to have a conscience, our media celebrities are burning the Donald at the stake for daring to say the things that are forbidden for anyone to talk about.

One of the sacred cows in this country, a prohibited topic, is immigration. Donald is trumping, so to speak, his legitimate outrage about our allowing in most of the immigrants in the world, with nowhere to put them. Just look at the bursting-at-the-seams overcrowded school, welfare, health care, etc. etc. situation in California and you’ll see a country that has lost its ability to take care of and educate its own citizens.

Recently. I spent 7 hours in one of the (formerly) better Emergency Rooms around here. It was standing room only as my very ill friend sat there for literally three hours before being even triaged. From the looks of the other folks in there, we were one of the few groups of people here legally. It was definitely a scene out of the Third World, although this area, with its filth and overcrowding, bares little resemblance anymore to the First World.

But I guess I shouldn’t bring this up because the topic is, as I said, forbidden. But Donald dares to do so and therefore many Average Joes and Janes are excited that maybe he’s not just the same stuffed shirt and skirt we have running for national election each year. But the Powers that Be don’t want the public animated and encouraged, but instead prefer a heavily controlled, monitored, and manipulated multitude.

So the media orchestrates a firestorm of hysteria towards Donald Trump; and the folks around here, and so many other liberal bastions, hypnotically follow the tune of their Pied Piper. And, sad to say, we may very likely get yet another homogenized, same old/same old President when it comes November. As long as people allow themselves to be manipulated into believing that their mainstream news is objective and accurate, not much will change.

Sad, tragic really. Depressing. Ugh.

Time for me to go back to sleep. Wake me up when it’s all over.

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My Trump Card

As time goes on, I find myself liking the Donald more and more. There are several reasons why.

For one, he is absolutely despised by the folks out here. They ridicule and lambast him every chance they get. I even saw a car defaced because the driver had the nerve to affix a Trump bumper sticker on it (someone painted the F word on the car, on top of the sticker). So if Trump is incurring this much hostility, the man must be doing something right!

Another reason for my increased interest in the Donald is that the most common adjective I hear describing him is “crazy.” Now that rings a bell for me; sensible, level-headed Sarah Palin was labeled “crazy” as well. It’s Soviet-style tactics; when a person is a threat to the Powers that Be, and when there is no real dirt against him, the radicals resort to calling the person “crazy.” In the real Soviet Union, the “crazy” dissidents would be forced into insane asylums. Here the “crazy” person is marginalized, insulted, and dismissed, Saul Alinsky-style. Again, another compelling reason for voting for Trump.

In addition, the media absolutely despises Trump. They are targeting and scrutinizing him for every off-handed word or gesture. While candidate Bernie is given carte blanche for every gaffe (for instance, not much air time for Saunders l970s rape fantasy about women), Trump is put under the microscope. If the media doesn’t want President Donald, that’s makes me admire the man more.

There is a last reason why Trump is appealing to me more day by day. I call it the Damsel in Distress Test.

Given the horrific, ever present crime around here, I’ve been asking myself which of the candidates would be most likely to get in a criminal’s face and defend me should I need the protection. For instance, if, God forbid, I was accosted by a criminal, which of the candidates would come to my rescue?

Now we can rule out Bernie Sanders. He wrote an article in his 30s that women like to be tied up and raped by three men And if Sanders is anything like the other males around here, he would never defend a woman on the streets. Like the other men, Bernie would likely defend the perpetuator as the victim because of “privilege” or “social justice” or other such codependent nonsense.

As for Hillary, let’s be real here. She’s a woman. There is no way that she’d get into a street fight defending yours truly. And, like Bernie, she’d likely defend the assailant and blame me for being harassed.

So the only possible protectors would be Ted Cruz or Donald Trump. I don’t know about Cruz’s potential to rescue a damsel in distress. He seems more like a brilliant, academic type who is big on grandstanding about “bombing ISIS back to the Stone Ages,” without actually being a street fighting man.

That leaves Trump. As a bombastic, loud-mouthed New Yorker, Donald would not walk away from a fight or a confrontation. In fact, Donald seems to get energized by a battle of wills. So he is the likely candidate to pass my Damsel in Distress Test.

So who will I vote for when Californians finally get a chance in June to express our preference? That’s a long way off, so who knows. But if Donald continues to be despised, feared, scrutinized, targeted, called “crazy,” and his supporters abused and vandalized (which is all very likely), then he’ll be the right candidate for me this summer and fall.

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Happy Easter!

Christ is Risen!

Surely He Has Risen!

Have a blessed Easter!

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The Fear of the Lord

I came back to my car last night to discover that the side of my car had been dented. This is the second time something like this has happened in a year. And just like last time: no note. Hit and run.

This is small potatoes compared to some of the other crime around here. There have been seven shootings on our main freeway (Interstate 80) just this year, the last one last night. One of the people shot was a toddler. No arrests have been made.

Not counted in the seven figure is the Berkeley elementary school teacher who was shot in January of this year while driving on city streets to pick up her son in Richmond. She has been critically wounded and maimed by being shot in her face.(1)

Now you would think that people would be talking about this, that there would be a public outcry. But no. Very little is discussed, and, in fact, bringing up the topic of the massacre of the innocents only yields platitudes. When I mentioned it to one friend, she said, “It’s the drug culture in this country.”

I’m not exactly sure what that means. If a law-abiding fellow in Idaho owns guns for protection or for hunting, does that somehow compel a person in Richmond (or Oakland or Berkeley) to open fire on freeway drivers? And when did a “culture” somehow become culpable for carnage?

But that would be common sense, something surely lacking in progressive areas like Berkeley. It’s never about personal responsibility. The blame is always laid on the “culture,” “society,” etc. etc.

And a society cannot survive if it doesn’t insist that people take responsibility for their actions. No wonder, then, that the United States is hanging by a tattered thread. The refrain, “It’s not my fault,” is the whining slogan of children, of immature adults, and of those who have been brainwashed to believe that they are always and forever victims.

If you’ve had children you know that kids remain kids until the adults insist that they take responsibility for their bad behavior. But in Berkeley, Oakland, etc. etc. the enablers continually make excuses for crime; they justify and legitimize their own victimization. Ironically and tragically, the teacher in Berkeley who was shot in the face has been part of an agenda — at her school and everywhere else — that inadvertently promoted her own mutilation.

Many of us know where this insane criminality and denial are coming from — the liberal agenda that’s been pushed and shoved on us since the l960s. The agenda benefits many people — the wealthy book writers and professors; those who make five figures giving talks at college campuses; the gargantuan welfare state; and those who make a bundle promoting social justice training. The losers? The American people, especially those of us in the liberal cities, where we are being preyed upon in droves by those who feel entitled to wreck havoc on the deluded.

But the cause of the bloodshed goes much deeper than this. It resides in a culture that has lost its belief in God. Perhaps more profoundly, the mayhem is ever present in people who have lost their healthy fear of the Lord, something that the human beings have had in almost all civilizations for at least two thousand years (hence, the overflowing church attendance prior to the 1960s).

Another example of the loss of this fear of God: there have been a spate of truly demonic crimes at many local churches around here. One was horribly desecrated. Another had many valuable and sacred items stolen or destroyed. Yet another church was recently burglarized during a Mass, with a lot of money stolen. Another, just a few weeks ago was robbed during Mass, having its collection baskets absconded. And I just heard of a churchgoer who last week had her car stolen in broad daylight in a busy parking lot during her church services.

Back in the day, criminals would not have dared to knock off a church. They would have been too scared. It was around that idyllic time period, that they also would not shoot police officers. But now shooting cops is a frequent horror show, with even some politicians exonerating the practice using the same enabling machinations.

But the truth is that God is real. And so is heaven. But the same goes for hell.

And God is incredibly loving and patient and merciful with His fallen and pathetic creatures. However, He also allows human beings free will to choose their fates. If it is unbelief, rebellion, and violence, those humans will bear the consequences — perhaps not in this lifetime, since appropriate punishment in this country is, tragically, rare — but after death. It’s called “Judgment.”

That’s one of the reasons why the Bible states that, “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.” Fear means healthy anxiety but also a profound sense of awe, at how small we are compared to the power of the Almighty.

To think that we can act horribly towards other people without repercussions is the ultimate in ignorance. To understand that we have been made to adore and worship God and to do His will is the beginning of wisdom.

I sometimes wonder: if people understood that hell is real, would they stop their sinfulness? Or would they continue being wicked because they despise God so much that they don’t want to spend eternity with Him?

 The latter is a shocking thought. But, for many people, I think that it might be true. I remember the lyrics of Billy Joel’s devilish song, “Only the Good Die Young.” The songwriter boasts, “They say there’s a heaven for those who will wait. Some say it’s better but I say it ain’t. I’d rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints. The sinners are much more fun.”

Apparently, Billy Joel has made his choice. What will be yours?


1. There were also shootings last week in Berkeley, with several people critically injured. I won’t even go into what it’s like in Oakland. . or SF, for that matter.

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And the Presidential Election Goes to ____________??

I pay very little attention anymore to current events. It just gets me agitated about things of which I can do nothing. However, given the upcoming election, it’s hard to escape the frenzy around Presidential politics.

As for me, I’m not particularly enchanted with any of the candidates. If I had my druthers, Ron Paul would be running, because I like how he combines anti-war policies with fiscal responsibilities. But we got the group that we got, flawed as they are. I’m not ready to predict who will ultimately win. But, in the style of the Oscars, I think that I can announce some winners:

In the Category of Brainiest Presidential Contender:

I think that this one is a tie between Ted Cruz and Hillary Clinton. Cruz is a razor sharp and accomplished guy. And Hillary was always the smartest gal in her class. I like the idea of a brilliant president for a change. But there are big problems with both of them, as I will talk about in a minute.

Best Family Values

Here, the winner is also a tie, between Cruz and Marco Rubio. Both have picture perfect wives and (surprise) only one of them, as well as successful children. In contrast, we have:

Worst Family Values

This was a really tough pick. Donald Trump has gone from wife to wife, always trading up for a younger, trophy wife. Bernie Sanders has had two wives, a woman that he produced a child with and, according to Wiki, now a “domestic partner. Hillary has stayed by her man, but Bill’s womanizing (as well as accusations of sexual assault and rape) cast a pall on her wifely devotion to him.

So, while I stressed over this one, to me, the clear winner is. . . .. Bernie Sanders. He tipped the scale in his direction by some noteworthy writing that he did in his 30’s (note: not at age 14, though this would have been disturbing enough). He claimed that women like to be tied up and raped by three men. So either the dude is a class A misogynist or so socially autistic that he thought it was okay to put this in writing. Either way, if he’s elected, we’re in trouble.

Most Potential to Get Us Into Another Nasty War

Again, this was a tough one. As Secretary of State, Hillary seemed to enjoy bombing the daylights out of several countries in the Middle East. However, the award in this category goes to Ted Cruz. Apparently, he is hungry to “carpet bomb ISIS back into the Stone Ages.” The problem with this plan is that ISIS is all over the place, so said bombing would involve killing a lot of innocent people. Plus, his proposed bombing would take place mostly in Iran, a country that is not hurting us and where there is no evidence of weapons of mass destruction.

The Most Heartless Contender

Again, this was a toss up between two people: Hillary and Bernie. Bernie’s incredibly twisted comment about women makes one question whether he seriously needs a heart. But I had to go with Hillary for this award. After she sent the military into Libya (a then secular country that wasn’t bothering us), she giggled with her gal pals something to the effect of: we came, we killed Ghadafi, let’s go eat lunch. Somehow this callousness isn’t my idea of being a successful woman.

The “Black Lives Don’t Matter” Award

This one was a no-brainer. And the award goes to: Hillary Clinton, for declaring how much she admires the eugenicist, Margaret Sanger. Hillary has, in fact, won the Margaret Sanger award from Planned Parenthood. Clinton has also received a whopping campaign contribution of $20 million bucks from Planned Parenthood

The problem is that Margaret Sanger was an infamous eugenicist, who wanted to purify the bloodlines partly by eliminating the black population with her “Negro Project.” According to Sanger, “We do not want word to go out that we want to exterminate the Negro population.” It’s no wonder that many leaders of the civil rights movement of the 60s were wise to this and opposed abortion.

Sanger talked about weeding out undesirables through birth control, and she accepted an invitation to speak at a KKK meeting. Another quote from Sanger: “Birth control is nothing more or less than the facilitation of the process of weeding out the unfit.. . They are human weeds. . reckless breeders. . spawning. . human beings who never should have been born.”

Sanger has gotten her wish; black women now abort their fetuses five times as often as white women. It probably helps that Planned Parenthood locates most of its clinics in black and Latino neighborhoods, and most get abortions for free. All of this. . and the fact that Planned Parenthood has been caught red-handed selling (mostly non-white) body parts makes it a slam dunk that Hillary gets this award.

Person of Most Faith

This one is a tie between Ted Cruz and Marco Rubio. Cruz is a devout Baptist, and Rubio, a faithful Catholic. Both have a strong commitment to living out their faith. Hillary seems like a fairly faithful Methodist, but her super progressive values contradict her stated religious beliefs.

Donald and Bernie weren’t even in the running. Donald states his religion as Presbyterian, though apparently the church that he “attends,” doesn’t have him on the roster. Bernie has claimed in the past to be an atheist, so any affiliation he has with the Judaism of the Old Testament is simply having a Jewish sounding name.

The Scariest Candidate

Again, this one was a toss up. We’ve got Hillary covering up Bill’s sexual abuses and chuckling when Ghadafi died. And Ted is ready to bomb the life out of the Middle East. But in my mind, the winner is Bernie Sanders simply because the thought of an atheistic, socialist President gives me the heebie jeebies.

So how does this all translate for me? Who am I going to vote for when Californians finally get to the polling place this summer? I really don’t know; we’ve got until June to make that decision.

But, you may insist, if you’re going to write a smartie-pants article snarkily dissing all the candidates, the least you could do is say is who you’re leaning towards.

Okay, if you insist. If I had to vote tomorrow, I would vote for:

DRUM ROLE …………………..

Donald Trump. Seriously. I like that the dude knows how to make serious money, something that our country desperately needs. And he has the common sense and the courage to state the obvious: that we can’t have a solvent country if we let in much of the Third World.

Regardless of who wins in November, there is good news in all of this. It won’t be Barack Obama. And if we have managed to survive the reign of Obama (fingers crossed, we still have one more year), I imagine that we’ll survive President Hillary, Ted, Bernie, or Donald.

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Garbage In, Garbage Out

In Berkeley and the surrounding areas, residents put out a lot of garbage. But not like in your town.

Where you live, there is one designated trash day. But around here, every day is garbage day.

What do I mean? Simply walk the streets of Berkeley, Oakland, et al., and it will be obvious. People constantly put out a bunch of rubbish on the sidewalk and streets for scavengers to take.

But by scavengers I don’t just mean the vagabonds who loaf on the streets. I’m also talking about regular Berkeley folks (or as regular as it gets around here).

So for instance, suppose a person has an old television set that hasn’t worked in years. Rather than find a place to haul it, he will simply put it out on the sidewalk. Within hours (sometimes minutes), the TV will belong to someone else.

In your part of the world, this would be considered gauche and classless. I mean, you don’t want to look at your own rubbish. Why would anyone else want to look at it? But here, the fact that the trash put out is unsightly, and sometimes unhygienic, doesn’t matter a bit.

I’m not just talking about the low rent districts around here (of which, by the way, there are none). A few months ago I went to a gathering in the Berkeley hills. While the most rundown tenement in Berkeley goes for close to a million dollars, the houses up there are in the stratosphere. I hadn’t been in the Berkeley hills in years and expected to find a whole different world. But guess what? The streets were also resplendent with people’s garbage.

I saw old computers sitting on the sidewalk, and boxes of worn-out clothes. There were many random objects in boxes, for instance, torn notebooks and aging baby toys. Most common of all were people’s old, dirty mattresses and ripped chairs and couches. It amazed me to think that people could spend several million dollars to see out their windows, not just a majestic Bay View, but a box of their neighbor’s old undies.

Now there are definite negatives to every day being trash day around Berkeley. A friend of mine found this unfortunate fact out not that long ago. She was switching mattresses with her adult son. He put out his mattress for five minutes while they did the switcher-o. And guess what happened five minutes later? You got it — someone was driving off in his truck with her super comfie mattress.

Most of the time, the junk is eventually taken by the various inhabitants of this area. But sometimes, there is stuff that no one wants — for instance, moldy furniture that has been soaked by the rain. Does that compel the homeowner to find a hauler to take the stuff away? Oh, no. It can sit there for weeks or even months, especially if the person found a site other than his own (e.g. an empty lot) to dump it.

Given that this area is filled to the brim with illegals, many of the items are grabbed by them. It’s a familiar situation for them since in the third world, people’s trash is unloaded all over the place. But I can’t just blame immigrants for the garbage in, garbage out.

Many of the finders are native-born citizens, some of whom are quite well-to-do. I have a friend who garbed her sons in clothes from what is called, “The Free Box,” — crappola that residents put in boxes on the sidewalk. Since many of the boxes have clothes for people of all ages, my friend has procured countless garments for herself as well.

It’s not surprising that the sidewalks of Berkeley, Oakland, Richmond, etc. etc. have turned into junkyards. Look who the lofty role models are around here. They aren’t the suburbanites with their pristine lawns. The heros are the valiant street people, the transients, who live and breathe and urinate on the sidewalks.

And not just the homeless among us, but the illegals and even legal immigrants who inundated and overpopulate the Bay Area and bring their own cultural mores with them. Since immigration from Europe is now practically forbidden, we house a good portion of the Third World. For many of them, trash on the streets isn’t an uncommon sighting. And how about this one: I was at Target a while back, and this immigrant woman placed her two-year-old son in the sink, and then washed his dirty butt with the water. Disgusting, but not surprising, given that much of the poor, Third World inhabitants don’t use toilet paper, but reuse water from an often filthy bucket.

And, of course, all the bag laws around here have turned even the most well-healed resident into a bag lady (and gentleman). Since we all have to pay good money for paper bags, much of the populace walk around with their used, often food stained and torn, bags. It’s a tiny step from looking like a bag person to acting like one.

The trash around us is both a disturbing reality but also a symbol for a much deeper degradation in our country by the Left. What is even more heinous is the degradation of our people.

Youth go to schools that are not only physically filthy — but that teach filthy things that brainwash the children and destroy their innocence. Youth learn that everything that we used to hold near and dear (love of God, family, nation) is all a lie, and everyone’s behavior and truth, no matter how depraved, reign supreme. Their bodies are exploited and degraded for an agenda, as they are cajoled to have sex young with any which person, and to harm their bodies with contraceptives and abortions. It’s horrible, but not surprising, because there is nothing else that the Left offers but deconstruction and ruination of what is true and beautiful and Godly.

And, as I often say, the main puppeteer of the wrecking crew is not in human form. It’s that old Devil, Lucifer, to whom progressive icon, Saul Alinsky, dedicated his Rules for Radicals book. It is the Enemy who gets the greatest kick out of the voluntary trashing of our streets — and our people.

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Justice Antonin Scalia, Rest in Peace

Being in Berkeley is challenging under the best of circumstances. But Justice Scalia’s death kicks the intolerability up several notches.

The Left takes off its gloves and its illusion of being magnanimous and tolerant after a death of someone like Scalia. Sick jokes and wisecracks about Scalia’s passing are perfectly acceptable and omnipresent around here.

Of course, you can also find a plethora of celebratory comments and jokes online. Apparently, there were videos and snapshots after Scalia died, of leftists living it up with champagne and festive dances. As one person explained to me, with the “depth” of compassion of many progressives: “Yeah he died, but he was an a__________.”

Just like Sarah Palin rape jokes, acting in a sadistic way that dehumanizes conservatives is perfectly okay, if not encouraged, among legions of so-called progressives. It’s amazing to me how people on the Left cannot differentiate between someone’s political opinions and his humanity. In their eyes, the fact that Scalia supported conservative causes makes him fair game for laughing at his death.

This is the mean-spirited behavior that we have witnessed for years, especially the last 8 years. If anyone dares to disagree with the platform of the Democratic Party, they are objects of mockery and hatred. No one is allowed to hold traditional values and still be a person. Of course, this is typical of cult-like behavior, where outsiders are marginalized and demonized.

But I don’t want to dwell on the bullies among us. I want to say a few things about the life and death of Justice Scalia.

Scalia’s life was a model of hard work and success, especially given his immigrant family’s humble roots. Even many of his detractors called him brilliant. He graduated valedictorian from Georgetown University and trained as an attorney at Harvard. Scalia worked as an international attorney, then a law professor, then a judge. He and his wife were married for 55 years, and they raised nine children.

By anyone’s definition, Scalia was a stupendously successful man, who saw hard work, rather than handouts and self pity, as the key to success. But his success wasn’t just material and career. He was a loyal family man, devoted to his wife and children. By the old school standards that he promoted, he was a good and honorable man.

Now for his death. I don’t know what happened. I have no inside scoop. However, the circumstances around his death seem suspect to me, if not outright bizarre. And had it been a liberal judge who suddenly died, there’d be a public outcry for more investigation (if not Occupations and riots).

Justice Scalia was on vacation and had just enjoyed a meal and socializing with friends. Apparently, he went to bed and ended up dead. Let’s face it, It is highly unusual for this to happen. When people are dying, they usually make a lot of noise. They may scream, they may struggle, they may bang, call for help, etc. Other strange occurrences: Scalia was found with a pillow over his head. The judge who pronounced Scalia dead didn’t even bother to come to the scene; she called it in. The police didn’t cordon off the scene and investigate it for possible foul play.

Now does this casual, laid back behavior make any sense when a Justice of the Supreme Court suddenly, and for no obvious reason, dies? The cavalier attitude, the lack of securing and scrutinizing the rooms and the hunting lodge by police, the nonchalant, “well he died, not much we can do, let’s move on,” attitude of law enforcement officials, the FBI, the White House, the media, etc. strike me as odd to the extreme.

But if you say any of this, you’re dismissed as a “conspiracy theorist.” But interestingly the term wasn’t used until 1967 when, purportedly, the CIA first coined the phrase to dismiss anyone who disagreed with the Warren Commission’s conclusion that President Kennedy was assassinated by a lone gunmen. Since then, anyone who takes issue with the official story is ridiculed as a conspiracy nut.

Ironically, Scalia seemed to be one of the few people who understand this. He once even warned about current risks to civil liberties, including a possibility of FEMA detention camps. He said this despite the fact that those talking about these things were labeled as (you guessed it) “conspiracy theorists.” As a devout Christian, Scalia had the wisdom and the sense of history to understand that there are nefarious forces out there — both in the human and supernatural realms — who can act with impunity when they want to. (1)

The Justice also understood that there is a spiritual battle going on, an ancient one that began before the beginning of time. He spent his life trying to ensure that he was on the right side, not just politically, but when it came to something much more important — salvation. He knew where he wanted to spend eternity. And I am certain that Justice Scalia, a God-fearing, good and honorable man, is with the angels and our Lord right now and for all eternity.


1. No, I’m not saying that I think that Scalia was murdered. I have no idea what happened. But I am appalled that the matter has been so quickly dropped without a full investigation. If a liberal Justice were on vacation and suddenly died, I don’t think that the media, law enforcement, and the government would be so loosy-goosy about it.

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No Offense

Lately, I’ve been hearing a lot about a fairly new term, “microaggressions.” Apparently, microaggressions are sexist, racist, homophobic, agist, etc.etc. actions that aren’t exactly actions but subtle, though insidious, insults and offenses that are meant to create domination of others.

Or something like that.

Anyway, since microaggressions are so hard to explain, let me give you an example. Suppose there is an Asian-American girl named Karen who is a sophomore at Any College or University, USA. In her class is white dude, Jason, who has a major crush on the cute young coed. After months of trying to summon the courage, one day he finally asks her out.

He says, “Hey, Karen. Are you doing anything on Friday night? I heard that there is this great new Japanese restaurant that opened downtown and I’m really interested in trying it out.”

Now, Karen could say yes and have a yummy meal or she could politely say no. These days, however, there is a third option, that is: Karen could screech, “So you think that because I’m Asian, I only eat Japanese or Chinese food?! Is that right, kemosabe? And just because I’m Asian, you think you can “try me out,” like a Japanese geisha girl! Well, no way am I ever going out with you, Mr. White Supremacist Pig who thinks that he’s master of the universe!!

None of this would do much to help Jason’s already shaky self-esteem. But these days Karen is apt to make this choice and see Jason’s every word and gesture as a microagression. She’s been whipped up into a paranoid frenzy by her critical gender class and critical race class and critical everything-that-exists classes. So rather than go out with Jason (who may, in fact, be the man of her dreams, her soulmate, her better half; the guy who grows up to make a fortune and give her a wonderful life replete with happy children and houses and who treats her like a queen and devotes 60 years to loving her before dying in her arms), Karen elects to spend Friday night with her angry female friends ranting about microaggressions.

It wasn’t always like it. Once upon a time, males and females shyly got to know each other, and tried to like each other or at least to be understanding. Males knew that females were different, and females recognized the same. They loved each other, often badly, but that was the nature of love: it was organized around family and God and children and doing one’s best, and then when one’s best failed, practicing forgiveness.

Of course, this all changed with the 60s, as did everything else, all the things that weren’t perfect but were plenty good enough were chucked: schools that actually taught the three Rs; a love of country; and a sense of community, a we’re-all-in-this-difficult-world together belief among all people. But now we are all in our own little tribal groupings, feuding and fighting and always braced for being offended.

And all of these folks in their various ethnic, racial, gender, sexual orientation groups have one primary object of their rage and contempt. You know who he is:

The Straight White Man. He is that shadowy, privileged figure who lives to oppress and dominate and who is responsible for everything that is horrible now and since the beginning of time.

I mean, isn’t this all a bit — how can I put it — idiotic? I mean, isn’t this just the dumbest thing ever? And much of this propaganda is being foisted on our poor college students, who already have enough to contend with, what with calculus, and acne, and bad menstrual cramps.

So why is all of this insanity happening? For one, there is the dark side of human nature, where people prefer to blame someone else rather than take personal responsibility for their lives. But there are also agendas being fulfilled and big bucks being make.

The human hating, depopulation types love the chaos because if males and females are always fighting, they’re not making babies. . . and the race baiters relish it because they make millions on books and campus appearances. . and the Bill Ayers and Noam Chomsky types make a fortune giving lectures. . and the lawyers win big on harassment cases. The losers, however, are the American people, who see the once strong social fabric so frayed that it’s barely hanging by a thread.

And who is the biggest winner in the Battles of the Sexes and of the Races? It’s the Enemy of man and womankind alike, Lucifer. He is the one behind the scenes orchestrating the whole bloody mess, because he loves nothing better than fighting and paranoia and hate. And, tragically, when people start sounding off about this and that supposed microaggression, they play right into the old Devil’s hands.

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No Good Deed Goes Unpunished

I’ve been celebrating Lent this year. As some of you might know, the Lenten season is the 40 days leading up to Easter, where some Christians (e.g. Catholics, Orthodox, Anglicans, and Lutherans) fast and prayer and do good works. Lent begins with Ash Wednesday, where Christians receive ashes in the shape of a cross on their foreheads, to remind ourselves and others that we are all sinners who need the saving power of God.

As part of my Lenten commitment, I’ve decided to do a random act of kindness each day. God knows that Berkeley and the nearby cities desperately need some niceness, that the populace is starving for some decent human behavior. But what I didn’t realize is how hard it would be for people to accept it. I learned this lesson on the first day of Lent.

I was in a local Safeway, which is a national grocery chain. I was waiting on line with a few items, and in back of me was a stressed out mom. She had three young children in tow, a couple of them wailing because it was way past their nap time.

Pleased to find my first recipient of my random act of kindness, I smiled at her and said, “You can go in front of me.” I thought that this would be the end of it, but the young mother stared at me as though I were speaking Swahili. When she realized that I was serious, she protested, saying, “No, that’s okay.”

Seeing that this would be harder than I thought, I insisted. I said, “No, please. Please go in front of me.” 

Reluctantly, and still glancing at me out of the corner of her eye, she gestured to the children to come in front of the (obviously insane) woman in front of them on line.

But before she actually took the gargantuan step of placing her items on the conveyer belt, the mom gave me one final chance to back out. She said, “I actually have more items than I seem to because there are several in my bag.” 

I said that this was okay, that she could bring up as many items as she wants. (At this point, I was close to hollering, “Lady, I’m trying to do an act of kindness because it’s Lent. . .so can you please place your frigging items on the counter!!” — which of course would have blown the whole nice, kindness thing.)

Finally, summoning up some courage and inner faith that maybe things would be okay and that this wasn’t a cruel trick, she proceeded to place her groceries down and pay her bill. After it was all over, she breathed a sign of relief and thanked me.

Reading this, you may be scratching your heads wondering what in the world I am talking about. Where you live, being nice to a stranger wouldn’t elicit suspicious looks. But in this mean, depraved and deprived area, the culture does not encourage niceness, to put it mildly. For instance, if you’re a helpful male who tries to hold the door open for a woman, you may get barked at that she can hold the door open herself. And if you try to help a disabled person, don’t be surprised if he purposely runs over your toes with his wheelchair. (True story, happened to someone I know.)

This is an area where there are so many feral, antisocial people that one never knows when someone will lose it. Giving or receiving kindness may be hazardous to one’s health. And yet I am convinced that some people are truly hungry for it. Case in point.

Not that long ago, I was in yet a different grocery store and was second on a line. A checker opened up the register next to me. Rather than participating in the common practice of mowing people down to get to the head of a new line, I leaned over to the woman in front of me, who was distracted by her cell phone, and gestured for her to go next. Well, you would have thought that I had just rescued a kitten from a burning building.

A couple around my age on another line were smiling and pointing to me. I thought that maybe I had something disagreeable hanging out of my nose, when the man yelled out, “That was so nice of you!” And the woman shook her head in agreement, adding, “You just don’t see anyone doing anything so nice for someone else these days.”

Pleased, though a bit flustered that my basic politeness elicited such enthusiasm, I said to them, “Well it is so nice of you both to notice! Most people wouldn’t even notice that I was being nice.” 

We all smiled at each other for this rare moment of being able to express our humanity; perhaps, we were even transported back to another time and place where civility existed in our worlds.

There are some deep seeded reasons why local people are so wary of each other and keep their heads buried in their IPhones. Given the plethora of mental illness, violence, and political agendas, one walks a gauntlet down the streets. You just never know when someone will get in your face and go off on you, which inevitably leads to a frightened and distrustful populace. As one friend commented when I told her my Safeway story, “The mom was wondering what your angle was.”

And yet to reside among hordes of people and rarely find friendliness creates inner starvation and unfathomable alienation. The lack of human kindness is one of the many reasons why this area is totally unlivable.

Given my experience at the Safeway, whether I can actually find another 39 people who will allow me to do something nice for them this Lent is an open question. I hope and pray so. Because when we’re robbed of the ability to receive and offer kindness, it is not just a very bad thing for a community. It is a bad thing for one’s very soul.

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Stealing Christmas

A friend called me this week with a sad tale. She had purchased a wreath for her elderly mother, who lives nearby and is recovering from surgery. Her mom loves Christmas, especially wreaths. The day after my friend put the wreath up, her mom called her tearfully; the wreath had been stolen.

This follows on the heels of my own story. I was sitting outside recently on an unseasonably warm day. I made the mistake of daring to leave the folding lawn chair outside. And the next day — you guessed it — it went missing.

None of this is unusual. It’s a daily event in these parts. The theft won’t be reported, and the newspapers won’t cite it. There are way too many, more serious crimes for anyone to acknowledge a missing wreath or chair.

And while the murders, muggings, and mayhem are much worse than a missing possession, there is something life-depleting about having to continually deal with theft, trash, and the other insults of life around here. Jules Feiffer, in his prescient 1960s play, described it as “Little Murders,” that is, the psychological and spiritual assaults of urban life. This is a perfect way to describe the SF Bay Area: there are a plethora of violent crimes, for sure, but, more commonly, we must endure the little murders of life.

They are the things stolen, whether it’s a holiday wreath, or maybe something more eviscerating: the assaults on our basic dignity. When you don’t matter, when your things don’t count, this does something to a person deep inside. Pain. Hurt. And the fallout: a life lived angrily and fearfully. A person is on perpetual shut down and lock down, with one’s guard always up. You just don’t know if that stranger walking towards you is a nice guy or gal, or someone who will rob you in a heartbeat or go nuts and yell expletives at you.

This leads to an atmosphere where it’s not safe to make eye contact with another person or smile at him. Doing so would be too exhausting anyway because before you do this, you have to scrutinize the other person. Is he a con man endeavoring to scam you or a thief distracting you or a paranoid person ready to go off on you? Even a trip to Trader Joe’s or Whole Foods can seem daunting, threatening, as one wonders whether an antisocial mob will suddenly burst in and riot.

And, in the Berkeley area, people who look like me are often treated differently, sometimes with utter hostility. It’s very un-PC to state this. But it’s true. We’re also targeted by thugs as easy crime victims, whose lives don’t matter that much.

To illustrate, let me tell you about something that happened the other week. I went to a dentist’s appointment in a downtown area. When I was in the building, I encountered a woman who had put herself in harm’s way through some unwise move. I was the only one around, and I ran over to help. I put myself at some risk trying to free her.

Afterwards, with her now safe, I said to her, kindly, “I’m so sorry that you had to go through that.” She looked at me with a face that emanated pure and unadulterated hostility. Hatred, actually. She seemed disgusted that I would even speak to her, and repulsed that her rescuer looked like me, a white person. For a moment, I was even afraid that she might hit me. Instead she said something so mean that it took my breath away. In a weird twist of logic, she somehow blamed me for her own misguided action that endangered her life. While she did not physically hurt me, she cut into my own heart.

This is just one little soul murder, in an area where there are big and small ones every day. Living in and around Berkeley will break a person’s heart. If a person isn’t careful, it has the potential to damage his soul.

And it’s a place where an elderly, ailing woman can have Christmas stolen.

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Life in Hell

I just came back from a trip to downtown Berkeley, an area where I rarely go. I wanted to buy something in a store on University Avenue. In retrospect, I wish I had procured it online.

What can I say: the area is a hell hole. I mean this literally. If you’d like a sneak preview of hell, come to downtown Berkeley — or, even better, Telegraph Avenue. Words can barely describe it, but I’ll do my best by detailing some of the sightings. (Keep in mind that I was only on the streets for about l0 minutes.)

First, there were numerous sirens blaring as fire engines, police cars, and ambulances raced up and down the streets. In your neck of the world, if there were a series of sirens, you’d stop and look up. But it’s so common here that no one peels himself away from his IPhone.

What else did I observe? I saw (and heard) a paranoid, psychotic man screaming at the top of his lungs at the demons in his head. No one reacted — why would they; it’s all business as usual.

I saw a number of transients, young and old, walking around with their life possessions on their backs or in shopping carts. One vagabond was particularly disturbing: a fresh faced young woman, around age 21, tattooed and pierced all over the place, pushing a cart with all of her stuff. In another time and place, she would be attending college or married and having babies. But here she was completely deranged and raging, screaming at a person that only she could see.

Next, I saw a huge pile of trash in the middle of the sidewalk: a filthy flea market of sorts consisting of old clothes, shoes, suitcases, chairs, etc. all splayed out on the concrete, like dead corpses.

Speaking of corpses, I saw on the corner what I call a “bicycle corpse” — also omnipresent around here. These bicycle corpses are locked up to poles all over Berkeley. Once they were someone’s bike, maybe their prized possession. But unfortunately, the person made the mistake of leaving it unattended for a short while. When they returned, the wheels, handle bars, and everything else were stripped, leaving only the skeleton. Happened to me more than once until I just stopped riding a bike.

But I’ve saved the worst sighting for last. The most horrifying spectacle was a 20 something young male, garbed in black, with multiple piercing of his face and an enraged, aggressive look. Now none of this was unusual. However, the male was wearing a t-shirt emblazoned with the word: Deicide, with various demonic images.

For those of you who don’t know the word, Deicide means the killing of Jesus Christ — that is, the killing of God. Only Christians and Satanists believe that the murder of Jesus was deicide, because both groups know that Christ is God. You can decide which grouping this young male fits into.

Now keep in mind that my excursion wasn’t into one of the deepest, darkest ghetto areas of Berkeley, Oakland, or the like. Downtown Berkeley is a high rent district, where residences rent for several grand a month, and new, astronomically priced apartment complexes are springing up like wildflowers. Along with the creepy, the criminal, and the insane, there are tons of young techies, university students, and hipsters walking the streets. For some reason — God only knows why — they chose this God-forsaken area as their landing pad.

Oh wait! — didn’t I do the same thing decades ago, a decision I have lived to seriously regret. Out of all the possible (sane) places in the country to settle down, I chose this crazy one. Why? The temporary insanity of liberalism? Getting stuck and not knowing how to get out? Thinking that it was cool to live among the abnormal? Probably a combination of all of the above.

But, praise God, I woke up from the delusion a few years ago. It had to be God working inside of me, because it is only He who can give a person a new mind and a new heart. And when I came to my senses, I realized that this area is not paradise, but an earthly form of Hades. Now I often feel sorry for myself for being marooned out here and fantasize about how and when and where I can make my escape.

But there are other moments too: when there is meaning in being here; when I realize that I am a sort of missionary in one of the gloomiest places on earth. Missionaries have, for thousands of years, faced ugliness and danger and even worse to bring God’s message to a broken world. It is a great honor and privilege to serve God by being one of His grateful witnesses.

It reminds me of an apocryphal story that I once heard about a Catholic monk who was dying and unconscious. His fellow monks were praying around him that their brother would go to heaven to be with the Lord. Suddenly, the monk regained consciousness and heard their prayers. He said, “No; ask that I go to hell instead.” 

His fellow monks were horrified. One said, “Why would we pray that you go to hell? You are a holy and loving man.” The monk replied, “Where else is love more needed?”

Although I wouldn’t ask to be in hell — either in this life or after it — I do hope to be somewhat of a beacon of light in this dark area of the world. Most of the time, I do it badly. To remain hopeful in a hopeless area; loving, amidst the aggression and hatred; and patient when people around me are blowing their tops; has to be one of the hardest of missions.

I pray every day for help from God with this because I can do nothing without His help. And my prayers have been particularly strong today, after my descent into the bowels of Berkeley.


The next day:

So I had to drive through downtown again today to get to a doctor’s appointment. I didn’t get out of the car, but here’s a bird’s eye view of what I saw: Stopped at a light on Shattuck, I saw the lovely sight of a street woman getting dressed for the day. She probably had lodged on the concrete, and now was arising and putting on her clothes. Good news about her personal hygiene — changing from her bed clothes to her day clothes. But a gnarly sight to see at 9 am in the morning. (1)

Having finished up my medical appointment, I headed back down Shattuck, which was now blocked off by a myriad of police vehicles. I heard a host of helicopters whirling above my head. Those of us on the street were detoured to another part of downtown. I could see hundreds of young people walking in a line up one of the side streets.

My mind was filled with many possibilities: Was Berkeley High School (or Berkeley City College, both nearby) evacuated because of a bomb threat? Was there a school shooting? None of these would be impossible; one local high school had separate incidents of evacuations because of a bomb threat and a shooting just this year. (Later, I checked online and the high schoolers had walked out of school en masse because of some sort of racial epitaph towards African Americans.)

What else happened this week in my world? One of my friends had his car broken into near Telegraph this week, losing his computer, phone, briefcase for work, etc. Again, as common as snowflakes in Anchorage. And something else: I had plans for dinner with another friend on Monday but she cancelled because she was stuck in traffic on the major interstate freeway (I-80). It was shut down because of a shooting there.

That pretty much sums up my week. And it’s only Thursday.

And, yet, the Berkeleyites will exclaim that this is the greatest place ever. . .
as the delusion and debacle of the great progressive experiment, Berkeley, continues.


(1) Berkeley has more services for street people than anywhere else in the world. There are warm beds, lavish several course meals with desserts from fancy restaurants almost every day of the week, hot showers, compassionate counselors, free medical care, a special team of mental health professionals for emergencies, and everything else you can think of. So, while it is very sad that she was sleeping on the street, this was likely by choice since there are warm beds all over the place. (Or she may be too mentally ill to realize that she needs safe shelter, but given the laws out here, involuntary hospitalization is almost impossible.)

I volunteered for a while in a soup kitchen. The guests there ate better than most families in the US. Seriously, I never saw so many courses, appetizers, and desserts in my life. I stopped volunteering because so many of the guests became enraged if they didn’t get the type of cheese and baguettes and hot meal that they wanted. A dearth of gratitude and a surplus of entitlement. Maybe not where you are. . but sure is the case here.

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The Forgetting

Life is a long series of forgetting. . an abandonment of the knowledge we entered this world with, so natural and obvious to anyone, including a child. What is truth, what is deeply known and felt, what is bestowed on us by our Creator, slowly drains from our minds, like water from a sieve.

Sometimes we remember again, usually in bits and pieces, in fragments of memory that pierce the darkness. Like light unfolding into day, we get a hint of what was forgotten; and then we have a choice to make: to keep remembering, or to remain, like an amnesiac, knowing something is missing, but not what it is. . . and if we shut it all down, the remembering stops — sometimes forever.

It wasn’t always this way. For much of history, people knew. Knowledge was passed on from old to young, not through books or institutes of higher learning, but through human beings, through words and gestures. Families holding hands before meals, in prayer; babies carried into churches on Sunday; looming figures like ministers and priests and nuns enveloped in black and white.

Much of the knowledge was inborn and didn’t need to be communicated through words or actions: an innate thirst for God, for higher truth, and life’s meaning. A wondrous awe of this astonishing world and the God who created it; a yearning to be close to Him; and a fear of offending Him. And then heaven and hell, always present in the mind; getting oneself to the former, escaping the latter, and worrying about it, not in the way a neurotic worries about getting a good job or finding a new partner, but the necessary anxiety of a human being desperate to spend eternity with his Master.

What else did we know? We knew what our bodies were made for; all of the parts: the hands and the lips and the private parts; females knew that their bodies were designed to grow and shelter babies and feed and hold them. And men knew that their size and girth were made for heavy work and hunting and farming and sometimes fighting, and their bodies were made to merge with women in this glorious dance that only the Almighty could orchestrate, to create babies and families and build homes and nurture children and shield away the darkness and feel the soft tapestry of life that only a loving woman could knit together.

People knew what their bodies were for and not for; they knew that babies were squeezed out of the body by fervent pushing and sweating; but never, heaven forbid ever, by instruments of destruction, body parts ripped open and yanked away in pieces, in ungodly, unholy, death. They knew what was right and what was wrong; they knew what acts of passion were good, and which were wrong; and if they sinned (because they knew full well what sin was) they shook with fear of the consequences, and they moved heaven and earth to stop this, by going to Confession or praying at church or, on their hands and knees at night. begging Almighty God for mercy and forgiveness and another chance.

And then suddenly everything changed.

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Maybe it wasn’t sudden at all, maybe it was slow, fastidious, carefully planned and executed by people in charge of something new, something radical: The Great Forgetting. The leaders began in other parts of the world — France, Russia, Vienna, Frankfurt Germany — and later flocked to the US, culling their crafts at Columbia, Chicago and Berkeley, learning what works, discarding what doesn’t. And, through painstaking efforts, decades of research, and boatloads of money, viola, a people have been made to forget. A colossal effort, more towering than Dr. Frankenstein and his monster: to teach a people to forget who they love, and love what they should hate. Destroy the hunger for God, eliminate all truth, reconfigure the history books, and (still in process via doctor-assisted suicide) eliminate as many old people as possible so fewer and fewer people remember. And especially target the young people,the malleable, so that if any of them pursue God and truth, they feel dumb, old fashioned, and the worst of all post-modern crimes, “irrational.”

In order to squash the ardor for God and reconfigure a people, substitutes must be created, new things to yearn for, since human beings are made to hunger for something deep and enduring. Now people crave money and the things that money can buy, and the multitudes find fame for five minutes on Facebook or Youtube, and they consume “I,” everything: IPads, ITouch, IPhones, because the newest and most enduring worship is “I” — one’s own shining face in the mirror.

And this spiritual blindness lasts a lifetime, this living miles and miles away from our true selves, our real homes, our reason for taking breath. And occasionally when a shred of recollection bleeds through — perhaps from a friend who comes to us in tears after being touched by God’s grace — we have that choice, there is always that choice: to open one’s mind, to perceive what might be true; but in a culture of amnesiacs, most of the time, the blur of memory is shut down, brushed aside as something unacceptable, something that doesn’t fit into our well-oiled understanding of the world, which is molded by the university degree and the daily dose of National Public Radio.
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And yet — and yet what is amazing — maybe even more so today . .. is that there are indeed people waking up. Like Dr. Oliver Sacks’s amnesiacs, who returned from the living dead to once again dance and embrace joy, there are people all around the world who are starting to wake up. A light of recognition turns on, blazes through the darkness and it illuminates their minds and their lives. For them, it’s a New Dawn. . and their happiness catches the attention of others, who are starving to death for something sustaining and real.

And the fortunate people are so unlikely, so unworthy of this grace; and for them, the desert of life erupts into a lush rainforest, and the loneliness and horror of this world system melts away like yesterday’s dewfall. Of course, it’s all God doing this; it is God in charge and steering it all; the Almighty and the All Powerful; and He can and will remove the blinders affixed by the Enemy; and He can make everything ugly, beautiful; and everything sullied, pure; and all of the ignorance of this world into Truth. He can do this; He will do this.

He can do this for you.

He can do this for me.

He has.

He has.

Don’t forget.

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If It Feels Good (Don’t Do It)

I almost got run down the other day. But it wasn’t by a car.

The newest trend out here is families racing their bikes or their skateboards down the sidewalk. I can’t tell you how many times I innocently walked out of a store to almost meet my untimely demise at the hands of a mad adult or child biker or skater.

It’s not just the kiddies who are taking it to the streets. Whole families are soaring down the sidewalk, as though they are racing in the Indie 500. And while skateboards used to be for boys only, now the girls are maniacally whizzing down the street as well — despite all the possible head and other injuries to the tykes. And, since it’s perpetual adolescence out here, the dads are speeding alongside their children, with mom in tow. It’s wholesome family fun, except for a few things.

First, it is illegal to fly down the sidewalks on bikes and skateboards. It is more appropriate for said bikers and skaters to ride in the streets, rather than almost mowing down the innocent. However, given that it is too dangerous to ride on city streets, the parents have decided that the sidewalks are now their own.

You see, people have no room to move around here. The traffic is crazy, and the streets are so narrow that a car can barely get down it. As Cat Stevens once sang, as though for Berkeley: “Where do the children play?”

In addition, the wild bikers and skaters are all part of the, “If it feels good, do it,” vibe around here, which is just a fancy term for entitlement. People pay a fortune to live in matchbox houses. If they want to raise their children to be so self-centered that it’s okay to risk the lives of the elderly, the disabled, and the rest of the population, so be it.

But it would be unfair to just blame parents. The whole area has become intoxicated by the pursuit of self enjoyment. With the influx of young, well-heeled techies driving an inch behind you in their Teslas and BMWs, Berkeley et al. has become an uncivilized area in a supposedly civilized nation.

If the land of the entitlement was simply Berkeley, Oakland, etc., that would be one thing. But the sad truth is that the pleasure and self seeking culture isn’t restricted to our parts. You can see the same thing happening all over the country: this uber entitlement, which is often based on the love of money and what it can buy. Interestingly, I just read a quote the other day about the best way to corrupt a country: make it awash with money. This is what we see happening with the artificially inflated stock market and the current tech boom.

But what about some solid, old-school values, ones that made our country strong and civilized for hundreds of years? How about the Golden Rule (which, for those of you who never learned it, means do unto others what you’d like done for you.). And how about thinking as a community, as a culture, and making decisions based upon the common good? Not so, as people race to do whatever feels good, regardless of the consequences for other people (and sometimes for themselves).

Tragically what I see out here, and increasingly all over the country, is people entranced by their own image in the mirror (or on Facebook) rather than the luminous face of God. St. Augustine wrote in City of God that we can choose to worship God or we can choose to worship ourselves. We can’t do both. But don’t people realize that at the end of their lives, how much money they earned and how many toys they amassed won’t do them a lick of good, especially when they stand before the Judgment Seat?

Ultimately, life isn’t about self-love or pleasures or “rights” or all the things that money can buy. It’s about falling in love — head over heels in love with God. When we love someone, we want to please him. When we love God, we strive to be good, considerate people and to love others.

Perhaps the saying should be changed from, “If it feels good, do it,” to, “If it feels good to God, do it.” Otherwise, whether it’s running amok on the sidewalks of Berkeley, the government, and the courts, in the end, the damage we cause is to ourselves and our own souls.

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Berkeley’s Very Thin Blue Line

When I walk around Berkeley and the surrounding areas, I do something that hasn’t been done for 50 years. It’s when I see police officers.

I make a beeline over to them and say something like this, “Excuse me for interrupting. But I would like to thank you for your service to our community. I really appreciate it. You are that thin blue line that keeps our society from going into total chaos. And I want to thank you very much.”

At this point they just stare at me, having no idea what to make of me or my speech. Am I joking? Being sarcastic? Am I catching them off guard so that I can soon launch into a hostile diatribe?

At this point, I usually add something or two so that they know that I’m serious. After scrutinizing my appearance and finding me friendly, if not a bit unique, one of the officers will smile and say thank you. Maybe even add, “We really appreciate that.”

Now if you live in a sane area of the country, making pleasantries with a police officer isn’t unusual. You may know several of them by name and chit-chat with them outside of a grocery store or a park. But as you can imagine, the police are not exactly viewed favorably out here.

Many of the populace never let go of that 60s animosity towards all authority, particularly the police. And, unfortunately, they taught that same hostility to their offsprings. The last time I saw someone making “small talk” with an officer, the young woman was screaming at him for being an “oppressor” (which bemused the brown skinned officer).

But, really, does that enmity really make sense? I mean, really? Don’t the police put their lives every day on the line for us? They see horrible things that none of us would like to behold, such as bloody crime scenes, dying victims, the sexually assaulted.

Night and day, they go into dangerous areas; they run after robbers, many of whom are pointing guns at them. Would you or anyone you know want to deal with a murder at 2 am in a dicey area of town? And they do all this for less money than your average, 24-year-old programmer makes at Yahoo.

And, yet, so many people in this country hate the police. They shoot at them. They curse them out. In Oakland, a few years ago, two officers made a routine traffic stop; both were shot dead by the driver; the officers left widows and children without fathers.

None of this disrespect, if not outright violence, towards the police would have happened prior to the 60s. Back then, there was respect for authority: police, military, teachers, parents. More importantly, there was a healthy respect for and fear of God. No one in their right mind would lung at a police officer or shout expletives at him. Society back then, of all races, creeds, and colors, knew that for their community and for their country to survive, we needed strong people in charge.

The 60s changed all of this with its Question Authority bumper stickers and attitudes, and its targeting anyone who dares to set limits and say no. Tragically, this adolescent view of the world has persisted in many places around the country, particularly around here. And yet those same folks who despise the police will complain bitterly if an officer didn’t respond quickly when their house was burglarized or their car stolen.

Sadly, the police can’t respond as quickly as they used to in the past. They’re too busy dealing with the Occupiers, the Critical Mass bicycle zealots who hold up traffic for hours; and the protestors gone wild. In high-crime areas such as Oakland, the police force has been decimated, with about 1/3 of them dismissed for lack of funding. Even when then-Mayor Ron Dellums, an African American Democrat, pleaded with the White House for financial help to retain the police, the feds turned their backs on the city.

I suppose this is because many people in the current Administration hold the same views: that the police are the bad guys, and therefore hiring the fewest of them the better. That thinking defies all logic (although easy to hold, I suppose, when followed by bodyguards and the Secret Service). With a drastically reduced police force, crimes of all kind have surged across Oakland, a city, by the way, with a large population of blacks and Latinos. And — hello — aren’t people who loot and rob and mug little old ladies the bad guys, rather than the police? Not for those people living in a time warp.

So for all of these reasons and more, I take a moment and thank an officer when I see one. I let him or her know that someone appreciates him. I don’t know if it makes a difference to the officer. But it sure does for me.

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Gone Fishing?

I haven’t written for a little bit. I might take a long break — or not.

I’m not trying to be coy or provocative here. I really don’t know. I’ve had a ton of ideas swirling through my brain. But every time I try to sit down and start writing, I quickly lose steam.

I’m not sure why. Partly it’s because — well, what else is there to say? Berkeley is a sneak preview of hell, though most of the citizenry think they are in heaven. The country is going to hell in a hand basket. We look a whole lot more like pre-Christian, pagan Rome than we do a civilized nation. There are riots in the streets; politicians and judges who think that the Constitution is an anachronism; and an obscene amount of crime.

This is what happens when a nation rejects God. This is what a country looks like when destroying babies and old people are noble rights, and teaching the Ten Commandments in school is not. All of this thinking about individual rights, versus the common good, destroyed the Roman Empire; and we may be in store for the same.

Of course, I didn’t know any of this too long ago. I thought that everything was hunkie doory; that if I just had “control over my body” to do whatever I wanted with it, that I could rest securely at night. But then the bottom fell out a few years ago, and I realized that everything that I thought was wrong. It’s been a roller coaster ride since, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.

It is a relief to finally see clearly without those delusional rose-colored glasses. But even more than this: discovering truths about this world system can lead one to Eternal Truth, the most important wisdom in the world, which is God. And then one discovers that there is no truth, no happiness, there is nada, nothing, without living one’s life with and for God.

We don’t have much control over the madness that has descended upon our country. We have some: for instance, voting and trying to educate those rare, open-minded people, the few that are left. Ultimately, we know that God is control of everything and everyone.

What else can we do amidst the chaos? Pray, go to church, read Scripture. Don’t waste a minute before telling someone that you love him, particularly God. Send your mother a “thinking of you” card, and if she is gone, pray for her soul and remember her fondly.

Perhaps most importantly, work out your salvation, now. Things are looking pretty bleak at the moment. One never knows when the end is near — either personally or the whole world system.

God bless and keep you, my friends.

(Hm. . .I guess that I did have something to say after all.)

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The High Price of Fame

I received an email a while back from a concerned friend, one of the only ones who reads my blog (Okay, the only one who reads my blog.)

She told me that when she went to view it, she instead saw a large yellow banner announcing that my website had been “suspended.” She was worried. Am I okay? Have I been Banned in Berkeley???

Troubled by this myself, I called my long-suffering tech guy to find out what was going on. He checked it out and reported to me that I was using too much bandwidth. Given that I am technologically challenged, I had no idea what he was talking about.

To me, the term, “band width,” evokes unpleasant images of aging rockers from the 60s with large girths who take to the road for one more reunion tour.

So I asked the web dude to explain it in more simple terms. He said that my blog is getting too many hits for my cheap web package. Again, I was confused, as the word “hits” conjures up some of those top ten songs by my former rock heros.

I requested that he please translate all of this in laymen’s terms. (My exact words were, “Can you explain this as though you were talking to a 5-year-old?”)

He said, “Imagine that your web site is an apartment. You are paying for a studio. But you need the space of a three bedroom.” Given that a three-bedroom place out here costs more than the Gross National Product of several small nations, his analogy truly frightened me.

Finally he said, as patiently as he could, “You’re not paying enough money for all the people reading your site. Your site is being automatically suspended every time this happens. If you don’t want to be suspended, you have to pay more money.”

His explanation took me by surprise. Why are so many people suddenly reading my blog? My blog is modest, to put it nicely. No comments, no videos, nothing to buy or sell. . . I don’t even know how to link articles (as you may have noticed, with some annoyance).

Since the tech guy knows more about this kind of thing than me, I asked him why this is happening. He responded, “Maybe it was something that you wrote about Obama.” I told him that I don’t write about Obama. He reflected a bit more, and then said, “Well, the 2016 election is heating up. Maybe people resonated with something you said about the candidates.” I protested that I don’t know who the candidates are, much less writing about them.

He asked me what I did write about (demonstrating that he isn’t one of my biggest fans.) I said, “God, Berkeley, crime, and litter.” After a moment of deep thought, he said, “Hm. . I got nothing.”

The web guy did say that I could log on to my website with some sort of password that I long misplaced and review my statistics. Sensing my eyes glazing over and my brain freezing, he mercilessly stopped talking, that is, once I forked over more money for more bandwidth.

Now I suppose that it’s a high compliment in the Internet world to have a bigger bandwidth. (He also said something mystifying about gigabytes, but let’s not even go there.) Yet I have to admit that I have decidedly mixed feelings about the news.

First of all, my current rate is more than doubling. Secondly, there is this strange sense of denial that takes hold of you when writing alone on a computer. One assumes that no one other then my aforementioned friend, two people in Albania, four in Texas, and one in Idaho are actually taking the time to tune in.

Given that the readership of my blog will likely return to me, myself, and I, and the two people from Albania, I have to wonder: have I shelled out too much bucks for my bandwidth? Will I be like one of those geriatric rocks stars who were once a “one hit wonder” and now are only a footnote in history? Probably. The Internet world is a fickle one.

Ultimately, all of this — and everything else — is in the hands of the Almighty. It’s all up to Him. As the old song goes, “Where you lead, I will follow, anywhere that you tell me too.” And that includes small or large bandwidth.

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Follow the Leader

There are riots breaking out in Baltimore. These follow on the heels of other riots around the nation — Missouri, New York, Oakland, Emeryville, Berkeley, etc.

There is free floating rage wrecking havoc all over the place, with innocents killed, beaten, sent to the hospital; and emotional trauma galore as people are terrorized. Precious police resources are redirected; millions of dollars wasted; and then, other innocents suffer because of police delays.

How does it all start? With the steady drumbeat of the leaders, using phrases developed from decades of studying psychology and propaganda, now pumped into the national consciousness. The messages are both old and new — new in that they are transmitted covertly now too, through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, et al.

The messages are old also because we’ve seen all this before, in revolutions around the world: divide and conquer, class warfare, and on and on it goes . but this has all happened earlier still, before the beginning of time; the Great Destroyer is behind every action that agitates and destroys, that promotes terror and chaos.

What we see today is the inevitable consequences of people in positions of power who promote mayhem and pandemonium, who agitate grudges, lots of grudges, their own and those who can be easily manipulated. Grudges are harbored, nursed, and fomented until they take on a life of their own.

We have a leadership who once was young but now are old, and they cut their teeth in places that we’ve all heard about, groups organized not to spread love or life, but to crash the system, to overwhelm it, to create vague, diffuse panic, first here, then there, so that no one knows where it’s coming from or from where it started.

They use young people who are lost and disenfranchised to do the dirty work; and, as with most revolutions and wars, the masterminds don’t get their hands dirty. (1) Same with the Internet warriors, those people with day jobs who agitate online, anonymously, trolling, maybe for themselves, maybe for pay.

And if anyone dares to disagree, to balk, to express concern for those young, poor people who are used up, then spit out, there are all sorts of repercussions. . . because that’s how terrorism works; dissenters cannot speak up, they must shut up; and the movers and shakers make sure this happens through their control of Facebook and unions and the easily programmed young people; while the masterminds relax in the evening, in leafy suburbs, in houses worth a cool million from lucrative lecture tours and books still paying generous royalties.

And the dissidents? They get ostracized, marginalized, ridiculed, threatened. Familiar tactics, practiced a hundred years ago in Russia, then China, Cambodia and all the rest. . . . later imported to the US in the 60s, engineered and paid for by those with unlimited cash to do so: foundations, NGOs, nonprofit agencies with names that keep changing.

This is the situation that we have today, though it is easy to become desensitized by it; it’s been several long years of it; it’s easy to start believing that this is how it was in the past. It wasn’t.

So, voting public. I say to you: pay attention not to your fantasies and wishes, not to your utopian visions, which will not take place in this lifetime, no matter how hard you try. Don’t vote with your grudges; vote with love, vote from your better angels.

You are not a cosmic mistake, you are not as low as a baboon or an ape; you are a soul in a human body — remember who you are and Who created you. Listen to the Voice of the Divine who breathed you into existence. If something promotes love, it is good. If something promotes hatred and aggression, it is bad.

And vote next year this way, vote with love. Vote from the kind of love that wakes you up in the middle of the night sobbing because you’re loved by a love that you didn’t even know possible; the kind of love that brings you to your knees because you are cherished and forgiven in spite of who you are and everything that you’ve ever done.

Face it, Mr. and Mrs. America. Face it, voting public. Despite your good intentions, look reality in the face. Things are terrible and terrifying and only getting worse. Destruction, terror, ruination. . . a country hangs by a thread.

Pay attention this time. Align yourself with God’s will. Embrace hope, the real hope, that is, God. He is the only possibility of hope in this broken, fallen world.

Next year, don’t continue to take us down a treacherous cliff. Remember what children do– and adults who don’t have God as their compass.

What do they do? They follow the leader. Blindly.


(1) In the 1980s, a then-young African American reporter, Juan Williams, published an article in the Washington Post. In it, he lambasted the Left for using young blacks as cannon fodder. He demanded that they get their own hands dirty and fight their own wars. Not much is said about this anymore, tragically.

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The Death of Dignity

When I moved to Berkeley in the 80s, the city — and the world — were very different places. You can tell this by my experience procuring a telephone.

Back then, there weren’t cell phones or even wireless ones. The phones had the curly cue wire, boasted various pretty colors, and were free at the local telephone company.

Here that was Pacific Bell; I still recall going up to North Berkeley and picking up my phone. I walked into the office, had a seat in the waiting area, and patiently awaited my turn. Once the rep got to me, he had me pick out a telephone number from several offered to me. Then I got to select the color of my new phone — it was burgundy — and I took it home and plugged it in. It worked.

There weren’t a myriad of choices of plans or providers; it was all easy breezy. And for the cost of the monthly service, everything was free — the phone, installation, and, if there were problems down the pike, a nice Pac Bell technician to come to your house and fix them. And if that pretty new burgundy phone malfunctioned? Just return to the storefront and pick up another one at no cost.

It was the same deal when it came to setting up electricity and water. Just a visit over to the local office, meet with a helpful employee, and, voila, there was light and H2O. Any problems, simply drive over and speak to the worker or call and get a live person.

This was a time before 800 numbers, endless voice mail systems, and interminable waits online. We even had real, 411 operators back then who would politely give you phone numbers — and make suggestions should you need to go to a local hospital. None of this was surprising or unexpected. The focus was on good customer service and doing it right the first time around. Products were made to last; quality and durability were the norm, as in that ad for the Maytag repairman, the loneliest man in the world, because the washer and dryer never broke down.

I suppose that was hyperbolic, since things did break down back then. But not often. I bought a Sony television when it was actually made in Japan. Sadly, I brought it over to the recycling center just a year ago. It finally went caput — after 34 years.

I bring this up not to take a dreamy trip down memory lane. The issue of phone service or electricity isn’t what is important. It’s what these encounters communicated to me, to all of us back then: we were important. We mattered. We weren’t alone to deal with things. People were eager to help — and easily available and accessible.

Fast forward several decades.

At the moment, I am dealing with several maddening situations with large companies, the kind that make you want to pull your hair out. The details aren’t important. You have your own as well, I imagine, with the interminable waits on hold for reps in foreign lands and the futile attempts to find someone, anyone, to help. And yet, no one knows how to do so — or is willing to take the extra time.

And all of these situations send the exact opposite message than I experienced when I moved to Berkeley in the 80s. Now: you don’t matter. No one cares. People are paid to give you as little help as possible, with the hope that you will get so frustrated, that you will drop the matter entirely.

But this blog is not just about the death of good customer service. It’s about something much more soul crushing: it’s the death of dignity. Because when you can make eye contact with another person who wants to help you, it enhances your sense of dignity — as well as that of the other person. Interminable waits and messages of indifference destroy that sense of dignity.

These frustrating situations are the great equalizer among all of us. No matter where we live or how much money we make or whether we have a flat in the city or acres of bucolic land in the country, we all have to deal with the same dehumanizing mess.

It’s no wonder that so many people are at the boiling point and people are demanding their “rights.” However, respect and dignity, just like love, cannot be demanded; dignity cannot be mandated by court decisions and executive orders. It has to be cultivated by a society that cares about human beings.

How have we come to this place? How, in a few short decades, have we de-evolved from a culture where people connected to each other to an alienated one?

I think that it goes back to the culture of death that has saturated the country since the 60s, where human life has slowly but surely become disposable and cheap. In a society where abortion clinics have long wait lists and doctor-assisted suicide is a hot topic, it is no wonder that we are all treated as insignificant objects.

This is what a pagan world looks like devoid of God. The environment, Mother Earth, is more important than human beings. People are now on the same level as animal, vegetable, and mineral — if not worse.

There’s only one cure for the problem that we deal with, and that is a restoration of our country’s basic values: love of God, country, community, family, each other. God is the connecting chain that links us all to each other, that reminds us to love each other as God loves us. Without that, we get what we have today: the death of dignity.

To end, here are some resonant lines from a Bob Dylan song, Dignity

Fat man lookin’ in a blade of steel
Thin man lookin’ at his last meal
Hollow man lookin’ in a cotton field
For dignity

Wise man lookin’ in a blade of grass
Young man lookin’ in the shadows that pass
Poor man lookin’ through painted glass
For dignity

Somebody got murdered on New Year’s Eve
Somebody said dignity was the first to leave
I went into the city, went into the town
Went into the land of the midnight sun

Searchin’ high, searchin’ low
Searchin’ everywhere I know
Askin’ the cops wherever I go
Have you seen dignity? . . .

Drinkin’ man listens to the voice he hears
In a crowded room full of covered-up mirrors
Lookin’ into the lost forgotten years
For dignity. . .

Someone showed me a picture and I just laughed
Dignity never been photographed
I went into the red, went into the black
Into the valley of dry bone dreams

So many roads, so much at stake
So many dead ends, I’m at the edge of the lake
Sometimes I wonder what it’s gonna take
To find dignity

–Bob Dylan, Dignity

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“Forget It, Jake. It’s Berkeley. . . and the United States”

I have a friend out here who totally gets it, what a crazy, deluded place is Berkeley. We have a saying that we use whenever describing the insanity around here. We say, “Forget it, Jake. It’s Berkeley.”

The line is derived from the 70s era movie, Chinatown, starring a young Jack Nicholson and Faye Dunaway. At the end of the movie, when Nicholson is emotionally overcome by the moral abyss of Chinatown, the other character consoles him with the line, “Forget it, Jake. It’s Chinatown.”

The phrase refers to the grime and grittiness and criminality of Chinatown. But it’s also, I think, a metaphor for what’s going on in the larger society of the 70s, particularly the moral decay in the urban areas. The decadence is dramatically captured in Faye Dunaway’s sick and twisted relationship with her father.

So the last line of the movie is about Chinatown. . but about a whole lot more as well. And when my friend and I say the slogan, we also mean that it’s about Berkeley, but much much more.

Yes, Berkeley is Berkeley. When the populace ignores and excuses the terrible things going on around here, my friend and I say, “It’s Berkeley.” When, for instance, a beloved member of the Berkeley Zen Center is murdered in cold blood, while residents turn a blind eye to the obscene crime rate around here, “it’s Berkeley.” (1)

But it’s not just about Berkeley. Just as the movie, Chinatown, wasn’t simply about a sliver of life in downtown Manhattan, “It’s Berkeley,” isn’t just about a small city in Northern California. Berkeley is not just a metaphor but an example — albeit an extreme one — of what could happen and is happening to many areas all over the country.

While there are pockets of upstanding citizens still throughout the US, the numbers are shrinking. One can tell a lot about a country by its government and its laws and the political discussions on people’s minds.

For the last 7 years or so, people have casually talked about whether or not to “Kill Granny.” And what does it say about a society when a newsmagazine — that is, Newsweek — glibly and callously even runs a cover story like that?

But the topic of euthanasia hasn’t simply been interesting cocktail party conversation. In hospitals all over the nation, older people and the disabled are being given lethal doses of opiates under the guise of making the patient “comfortable,” sometimes while their loved ones stand helplessly watching. And, as I write this, our legislators in California are considering making euthanasia legal, using the manipulative, misleading term, the “Right to Die.”

It’s no wonder that living, breathing people are now viewed in such a cold-hearted manner. Human life is no longer honored and cherished as precious gifts from God — that God created; and it should be up to Him when a person dies. Millions of lives have been snuffed out by abortion, by some estimates, a third of the current young generation. And the current estimate of 58 million abortions in the US since l973 is lowballing it since the most populace state, California, has stubbornly refused to keep any statistics, defying federal mandates.

Not coincidentally, church attendance in our country is low, perhaps its lowest ever. Maybe the only reason that many churches are still open is because of immigrant believers from countries such as Mexico and the Philippines. Ironically, while American missionaries used to travel to the Third World to introduce God to the people, now they come here, thereby maintaining some semblance of Christianity in the US. When it comes to native born Americans, though, few seem to need the Almighty anymore for forgiveness, guidance, comfort, for life itself.

So we have a culture, like the movie version of Chinatown, in moral free fall. It’s no wonder: we cannot have a sustainable, enduring country without God, just as a baby cannot survive without a loving adult to care for him. When we try to take matters into our own hands, we see what we have today: rampant crime, racial strife, high rates of suicide, depression, and alienation. Death, darkness, and destruction — just how the Enemy works.

As my friend and I often say when we behold daily the darkness of Berkeley, “Forget it, Jake. It’s Berkeley.” But we can’t forget it, none of us can; the future is in all of our hands. Because it’s not just Berkeley or Oakland or San Francisco; the same darkness is eroding people of all ages all over the country. This is inevitably what happens when a people abandon God.

And we don’t want to one day be saying to each other, “Forget it, Jake. It’s the United States.”


(1) For more information on the murder, please see the article below, We are Helpless.

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In Defense of the Poor

My father grew up dirt poor, with not enough food on the table. You could tell by the way he ate.

He didn’t chew, but instead inhaled his food, as would a starving man. He consumed it all so rapidly that the meal was gone in a few seconds flat.

As a child, I never learned that one is supposed to wait for all diners to receive their food before starting. My mother would give dad his plate, and by the time the rest of us got ours, his would be long gone.

My mother’s family was poor as well, at least by today’s standards. The family of four lived in a small, two room walk-up in the Bronx. When my parents married, he moved in as well, making five of them. When my brother was born, that made six.

The only view from the window was the subway, located only a few short feet away. As the train whizzed by noisily 24/7, conversation would continually be brought to a stop.

Although my family grew up poor, they were good, hardworking people. It would never have occurred to them in a million years that, because they were poor, they should become criminals. Even when my dad’s family had little to eat, they never stole. They were an immigrant family, proud to be Americans. They never would have done anything to tarnish their reputations or that of their fellow immigrants.

If they had stolen, the strong arm of the law would have crushed them mercilessly. Back then, there weren’t any excuses or justifications allowed for criminal behavior. If a person did the crime, they would do the time. Before the l960s, a single act of theft could have landed a person in the jailhouse for several years. And back then, the prisons were bereft of gyms, copies of The Communist Manifesto, and gluten-free, vegan meals.

Now things are so different. Not only is there an astonishing amount of theft, assaults, and worse on a regular basis, but the attitude towards crime and criminals has radically changed, at least among the duped.

Case in point: I found out recently that there have been a rash of break-ins near my block. Most have been burglaries, that is, no one at home, though this is bad enough. But some have been robberies, home invasions, with occupants held up and threatened as well. Obviously, I have found this to be a frightening and unacceptable bit of news.

The neighbor who told me this was alarmed as well. But then she added, in that concerned and sympathetic voice that I know too well, “It just makes me feel sad that people are so desperate because of the economy to do these things.”

Translation: the reason that people in my parts are robbing, burglarizing, assaulting, etc. is that they are poor. They need the money to feed their families, or else starvation, and soon thereafter, riga mortis will set in.

Of course, this scenario is utterly ridiculous, given the generous handouts around here — welfare, Food Stamps, county and city food banks, and several-course free meals most days at local churches and People’s Park. I retorted, “They aren’t robbing because they are poor. They are sociopaths. They are drug addicts trying to get money for drugs.” She looked at me with that shock I also know too well. “Well, that’s probably true,” she says, then making an excuse to have to run off. If truth doesn’t fit the Official Story, then cognitive dissonance sets in, and it’s adios amigo.

Most people around here believe the very same thing: that the epidemic of break-ins and carjackings are due to the economy. Difficult economic conditions deprive human beings of self-control or free will. Low socioeconomic status equals criminality.

But this makes absolutely no sense. First off, there has been an obscene amount of crime around here since the l960s. Could the economy be blamed for 40 or 50 years of mayhem?

More importantly, poor people are not morally deficient. Throughout the world, people are poor, and yet they remain moral. My family was poor, and yet they did not steal. And back then, there was no government assistance.

Why then do people steal? They steal because they feel entitled to by a culture that continually stirs up envy, hatred, and class warfare. They steal because they can get away with it, particularly around here when even the victims excuse it. And they steal because they’ve lost their innate fear of God and for authority.

To observe so much criminal activity around me is disturbing enough. But what is particularly vexing is the attitude of the populace. It is codependent; it enables and promotes bad behavior, which doesn’t do the perpetuators or the victims any good. But even more than this, the attitude is an insult to poor people. There are plenty of lower income people in my area — and everywhere — who are law abiding. They don’t feel that their socioeconomic status allows them to take what isn’t theirs.

Some are native born Americans — blacks, Latinos, whites, etc. — who have been raised in adverse circumstances. And yet rather than preying on others, they work, go to school, join the military, perhaps receive government assistance for a while — somehow, some way trying to better their lives.

Others are immigrants families from Cambodia, Kenya, India, Mexico, El Salvador. . and all around the globe. Many, like my family, are grateful to be in this country, and want so much to be good Americans.

They want to make others proud, to reflect positively on their culture, and to contribute to the common good of the country that has adopted them. And my guess is that they wouldn’t appreciate the prevailing viewpoints out here: that they are so wild, primitive, and morally bankrupt that, because of limited money in the bank, they can or should become criminals.

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“Oh, Lord, Won’t You Buy Me a Mercedes Benz?”

The other day, I saw a brand new Maserati racing down College Avenue. I was totally shocked.

Once upon a time, you couldn’t find a luxury vehicle around here, much less a gazillion dollar car, like a Maserati. It was a rare sighting to even see a Beamer. People drove beat up Volvos, Suburus, and Civics. Which didn’t mean that plenty of people couldn’t afford a Mercedes or BMW. But they chose not to purchase one.

In the rare instance when someone owned a luxury vehicle, he kept it hidden in his garage. He’d take it out for a spin on the freeway heading out to fancy Sea Ranch or Squaw Valley. But he’d never dare to drive the thing around town.

Why? This was an area where people looked down on any conspicuous consumption. If someone drove a high-priced car around town, people would have been appalled.

I still recall when SUVs first became a hot item. I had an activist friend at the time who got in a driver’s face and screamed bloody murder at her for driving a gas guzzler.

But so much has changed around Berkeley that I can barely recognize the place anymore. Now there are Mercedes and Lexuses and SUVs all around town, with the aging Volvo being the rarity. It’s a rare day when a bright, shiny Mercedes or BMW or Tesla isn’t tailgating me angrily.

Berkeley has always had a large population of the affluent, since it costs a small fortune to live in the nicer areas of town. But that small fortune has morphed into something completely unrecognizable. as rents soar into the stratosphere, even in crime-plagued areas. A tiny studio in a dicy area of town would be a bargain at $2,500. Sadly, long-timers are being forced out of here as the whole place becomes unlivable.

I’m not sure why there has been such a sea change vehicle-wise and otherwise in a few short years. Part of it is that SF, Berkeley, Oakland, etc. have become magnets for young techies. Making a ton of cool cash at Facebook and Google, they are renting or buying up much of the (rare) available places around here. Although many of them have been raised by alternative, hippie parents, the young ‘uns have rejected the old folks’ values, loving those sports cars and fancy gadgets. Money is absolutely not the root of all evil.

There are also a lot of Chinese nationals who’ve moved here these last few years. Speeding down the streets of downtown in a black Mercedes isn’t considered anathema for them in the least.

Like Berkeley, SF no longer resembles its former self, particularly the Mission District. For decades, there were cool, ethnic restaurants there, alternative theater, and Mexican take-outs. Now Carlos’ Taqueria has been replaced by Mr. Phil’s, as Phil’s coffee shops dot the landscape. The Bay Area is starting to get so gentrified that one thinks of Manhattan and Brooklyn, and how those cheap eats I knew in the 70s, from falafels to knishes, are long gone, replaced by upscale, designer stores.

And, yet, the interesting thing about my area is that, even with the technies and others with uber bucks moving in, the streets are still trashed and the crime rates are obscene. When New York Mayor Guliani made the city safe again for wealthy families and singles, he did this by criminalizing quality of life offenses, such as aggressive panhandling and graffiti. He stopped the menacing men who were forcing stopped cars to pay for washed windows. Guliani communicated loud and clear to the hooligan population that their time was up.

There is no such thing happened around Berkeley. It’s business as usual for the homeless, the paranoid, and the criminally-impaired to continue causing mayhem in the streets.

A burning question: will the yuppies around here demand more safety for their children, themselves, and their property? Will the leaders be forced to do a clean-up job like Guliani did in NY? Or will the inhabitants remain so socially conditioned (not to mention scared to death to open their mouths), that Berkeley and the local environs will be a fancy dancy area of the mega rich that remains filthy and sinister?

Time will tell. But my money (what little I have of it) is that Berkeley will remain Berkeley. I don’t think that there’s any amount of Google money or Chinese money that will change what is somehow built into the DNA of this place: political correctness, denial, and a kind of a mass trance. But the populace will now pay an extraordinarily high price for it.

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“We are Helpless”

The National Rifle Association sells a popular sticker to be affixed to members’ front doors. It reads, “We are not helpless.” The sticker communicates to any possible hoodlums that the occupants own firearms.

There could be an apt sticker for Berkeley residents as well. It would read, “We are helpless.” This is not just because only an infinitesimal number of residents are armed. But because the attitude and behavior around here unintentionally exude helplessness.

For one, horrific crime happens on a regular basis with nary a peep from the citizenry. For instance, when the head gardener at the Berkeley Zen Center (1) was stabbed and killed in an apparent carjacking last October, the silence was deafening.

There were no letters to the editor lambasting the horrific rates of black on white/Asian (2) crime out here. No one had the audacity to show up at a city council meeting and demand more hiring of police. There were no protests, no riots, no Occupations, not a peep out of the populace. It was business as usual, which in this region means complete and utter denial. And the result? Helplessness.

Part of the reason for the silence may be that horrendous crime happens all the time around here. Murders are (generally) reported. But the attacks, muggings, assaults (sexual and otherwise) — infrequently. The campus newspaper — the Daily Cal — wouldn’t be able to cover the news about tuition hikes and football games with Stanford if they were devoting their space to all of the campus and city crime.

And it’s just not Berkeley that is ravaged by random street crime. The nearby cities, particularly Oakland, Richmond, Emeryville, El Cerrito, have a barrage of bloody, gruesome crime of its own on a regular basis. And, yet, one wouldn’t know it from the attitudes of the people who live around here.

This is where helplessness comes in. Because if people don’t actually talk about reality, then terrible things happen. It’s simply common sense: if bad people aren’t stopped from doing bad things, they do more of it. They become brazen. And they attract more bad people to do bad things as well.

So why, then, can people not see what is going on before there eyes? Given that a local, beloved, gardener at the Zen Center can’t walk to her car after a wedding without being bludgeoned to death, why do people not see the danger to them and their loved ones?

I imagine much of the denial is the massive social programming that has been inflicted around here since the l960s. We have a well-trained populace of aging Baby Boomers, their offspring, and even the next, groomed generation, all who have been thoroughly trained in “tolerance.” Tolerance around here means putting up with the most antisocial behavior — street swindlers, illegal aliens selling strawberries in your front yard (3), crime to you and your children — all in the service of being nice and tolerant.

Put bluntly: people are terrified about actually stating the obvious for fear of being called racist. Therefore, no one asks legitimate and reasonable questions:

“Hey, I know that most black people are law-abiding, good citizens. Berkeley, Oakland, etc. have a large, population of wonderful, often affluent blacks. But, gee whiz, I can’t help noticing that there is a large black ghetto population raised in terrible life circumstances. While most of them are law-abiding as well, too many take their rage out on white people. This translates into an obscene amount of crime. And I can’t help wondering if this black-on-white crime is not just opportunistic, but racial, given the whipping up of blacks by the media and the schools to hate white people. Anything we can do about this? I mean, wouldn’t people be concerned if the situation were reversed, and innocent black people were being preyed upon? Wouldn’t Eric Holder, Al Sharpton, even Obama, be all over it?

Isn’t everyone’s life valuable — black, white, and every color under the rainbow? Aren’t we all children of God, deserving of protection, safety, and respect? It scares me and hurts me to see so many innocent people bloodied, raped, beaten, or even murdered.”

But nope. No one will say a word. It’s almost as though people would rather die than be politically incorrect.

My friend, the conspiracy theorist, thinks that all of this insanity is being manipulated from beyond. She thinks that Berkeley is a massive, social experiment in cultural conditioning and programming. She thinks “they” are trying to prove how a populace can be controlled to forego their own safety, and that of their loved ones. . and that this is being done in preparation of the same twisted social experiment being perpetuated on the rest of the population.

Whether this is true or not, I don’t know. I haven’t a clue whether the madness of Berkeley is spontaneous or by design. Perhaps there are people “out there” studying us, like rats in a cage. Or maybe Berkeley is simply the inevitable consequences of pure, unfettered liberalism.

No wonder that the adage says, “The road to hell is paved with good intentions.” But the unique absurdity of Berkeley is that the residents around here (unlike those in other crime ravaged cities, such as, Newark and Detroit), think that they are in living in paradise.


(1) It’s supremely ironic that the woman murdered worked and meditated for decades at the Berkeley Zen Center. The real Buddhism, as taught by the Buddha, focused on being mindful of what is actually happening. But American Buddhism has, for about l0 years or so, been co-opted by the left to be an extension of the social conditioning. There are massive amounts of money, from foundations and the government, pouring into the universities and public schools and even places of employment to train people in the so-called “mindfulness.” It’s common for our school children to undergo the training. But rather than mindfulness being about awareness, the focus is on becoming more “generous,” “kinder,” etc. etc. Mindfulness has become just another code word for mass hypnosis, that is, turning much of the populace into mindless sheep, particularly youth.

(2) A few years ago, a brave San Francisco Supervisor, of Chinese descent, held a press conference to publicize the astronomical amount of black on Asian crime in the city. Nothing came of it. I think it has partly to do with the racist idea that since so many Asians are successful, they don’t need protection when targeted as a racial group.

There is the same racial targeting of Asians in Berkeley and the surrounding cities, with occasional widespread, takeover robberies of Chinese and other Asian restaurants. Again, the silence was deafening when two Indian brothers, recent immigrants, were murdered in their Richmond restaurant. Nothing was stolen, leading to the suspicion that it was a gang initiation, all too common around here.

Same silence for the Indian immigrant taxi driver who was murdered around the same time and in the same area. The taxi driver was sitting in his cab between fares. Incidentally, the location of his cab was across the street from the police station.

In addition, an elderly Asian woman was taking her morning walk in the very same area, the El Cerrito/Richmond corridor, when she was raped, beaten unconscious, and dumped into a big pile of tires at a local tire store. She died about a year later. She never regained consciousness.

(3) A new-ish trend: illegals selling strawberries on street corners, sometimes right on people’s lawns. When police are summoned, they say they can’t (or won’t) do anything about it (despite the strict laws around here about selling food on the street). Apparently, many of the sellers are being brought in illegally and then become virtual slaves to the various cartels and others who will use them. Again, just another example of the chaos and mayhem that inevitably follow when laws are allowed to be broken.

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“Everywhere-You-Look Rage”

You can tell what’s important to a culture by the number of words it has for certain things. For instance, among the Eskimos, there are a multitude of words for “snow.” Obviously, snow is quite vital to Eskimos. What’s important in the United States? Apparently, “rage” since we have a whole lot of words for it.

There is “road rage,” which, everyone knows by now, describes those screaming, cursing, tail-gaiting loonie tunes behind wheels (which we call around here “Bay Area drivers”). Then there is “going postal,” coined after those mad postal workers who went berserk-o on the job.

New terms for rage are popping up on a regular basis: one is “sidewalk rage.” Apparently, this means an average citizen going insane not while driving, but while walking.

Then there is, “pet rage,” that is, when a law-abiding citizen goes ballistic on a pooch. This word has been applied recently to a sad case in the tony, East Bay town of Kensington, where a jogger apparently had a serious case of “pet rage.”

A woman was walking her dog (off leash, against the law) near a Kensington elementary school. The small pug apparently ran over to a jogger who kicked her away (the dog, not the owner). It was a powerful kick; the dog went flying, which led to the pug’s premature demise.

The story inflamed heart strings all over the country. Newspapers, from east to west, covered this purported case of “pet rage.” (By the way: I like dogs just as much as the next person, but I sure wish stories about people being horribly abused around here would capture the attention of the local and national news as well.)

The opinion from the cyber public on the “pet rage” story seems divided between those who, having had more than a few run-ins with unleashed dogs, side with the jogger. The rest feel he overreacted and that the dog walker was in the right.

As for me, I’m a bit divided on the subject, given that I live in an area where there isn’t just road rage, people going postal, sidewalk rage, and pet rage. Here we have “everywhere-you-look rage,” which basically means people losing their marbles about pretty much everything. That’s what happens to a population under continual stress from bumper-to-bumper traffic, sky-high housing costs, aggressive panhandlers, and an obscene amount of street crime.

Personally, I’ve been almost run over by many a runner, who won’t allow pedestrians, cars, little old ladies in wheelchairs, etc. to stop him or her. But while many joggers are a danger to the public, bicyclists and skateboarders take the cake. It amazes me to see little girls, with their mothers close by, racing down the sidewalk on skateboards, almost mowing down anyone who may be in their way. And then we have the truly maniacal bike riders, who never found a stop sign or red light worth slowing down for.

Of course, I’ve been accosted on many occasions by those off-leash dogs, for instance, on the sidewalks, parks, and even in banks and drug stores. You can be trying to relax with a cup of tea and a muffin at a sidewalk cafe, when all of a sudden Rover is jumping on your lap to procure your pastry.

The reason that we have “everywhere rage” around here is pretty simple: it’s because people do not follow the rules. When people don’t follow the rules, it creates chaos. Chaos makes one feel afraid and threatened, which can lead to acts of rage. Thus, people flaunting the law simply because they want to, and because the authorities let them, leads to an uncivilized, frenetic, and, yes, enraged populace.

To restore some emotional balance to all of us out here means restoring law and order. But what do you do when so many people feel that the rules shouldn’t apply to them?

Not much, I’m afraid. Road rage, sidewalk rage, pet rage, and everywhere-you-look rage will be the norm around here, not the exception. Sadly, human beings and little pugs will end upon the receiving end of all of this rage when grown adults and undersocialized children are unwilling to follow the rules.

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Prayers of the Faithful

If you know my back story, you understand that I’m one of the last people on the planet to become a Christian. Actually, maybe I am the last person on the planet to become a Christian.

So I often wonder why: why me? Why now? How in the world did this happen?

Of course, it’s all God, with me having (finally) the good sense to assent. But I also wonder about the impact of the prayers of others.

Today, I heard on the radio a beautiful story of a woman in Columbia, who sustained massive burns from an injury. A man, a total stranger, heard about the woman’s devastating injuries. Falling on his knees, the man begged God to save his “little sister,” this woman he didn’t even know.

The woman survived her injuries, renounced her selfish and materialistic ways, and found her way to Christ. She became a Christian by saying yes to Jesus, a truly courageous decision in this very anti-Christian world.

Moved by this grace-filled story, I think gratefully of the people over the years who have prayed for me. I think in particular of a young, male friend, who did some deep praying for me some time ago when my faith became shaky.

I think of those of you out there in cyberland who have prayed for me as well. I may not know you, but I will always have a special place in my heart for you. A while back, you read about me, and you prayed for me. . . helping to pray me into God’s welcoming arms. You cared, you believed; you knew that I craved something that you had, though I didn’t know what it was. Today, and all days, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

And now I pray for others out there, whom I know and do not know. Perhaps we can all be like the unknown man in Columbia, whose heartfelt prayers helped the severely injured woman survive and find her way to God. Maybe we can look around our world and ask God the same thing, “Please save my little sister,” or “Please save my little brother.” Ultimately, by doing this, we may save not just another’s life, but our own.

On a related note, today is a special day for Catholics all over the world. It is a Solemnity, the Annunciation of the Lord. It marks the day when Jesus was conceived. The Annunciation is when the angel, Gabriel, came to Mary, saying, “Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with You.” And she responded to this surprising news with great courage and meekness of spirit by saying yes. May all of us have the courage to say yes to God’s call.

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The Wild Turkeys of Berkeley

There are a whole lot of turkeys in Berkeley. No, I’m not being snarky.

We have real, live feral turkeys all over the place, in people’s yards, the streets, and public parks. Before you think, “Oh, how cute,” let me tell you that these creatures are problem children. They poop all over the place; they squawk at all hours of the day and night. And even worse, they have come to rule the roost by blocking traffic.

These wild turkeys cause near car accidents every day, as they obstruct traffic, refusing to back up even if cars come close by. With menacing looks, the turkeys will block in drivers, even attack cars. I’ve seen drivers try to back up, while turkeys move towards them, barricading the poor driver in his car.

Once I saw a female driver so locked in by turkeys outside of my house that I ran out to help her. Wielding a broomstick, I gestured and yelled at the turkeys. They eyed me aggressively before finally flying away. The woman, by then scared to death, thanked me profusely and added, “I’m from out of town. How do you live like this?” (Something, by the way, that I ask myself everyday.)

Now, the burning question is why are these “wild” turkeys no longer wild? Why is the only wild thing an older woman (me) hollering like a maniac outside of my house?

Why have these turkeys become so brazen in an urban area? Why have they lost their fear of humans?

The critters have obviously been coddled and protected for so long, that they are in charge, not the humans. In these parts, you’d be taking your life in your hands trying to get rid of these large, aggressive, and (in my opinion) nasty critters. While Berkeley-ites would never dare to touch the hair of a turkey, you’d be road kill should you dare lay a hand on one of them.

Now, my story of the Wild Turkeys of Berkeley is not only a true tale, but a metaphor. Because the turkey example applies not just to animals, but to many humans around here — and most everywhere — who have lost their natural, inborn fears. People, just like creatures, act in anti-social ways partly because they are allowed to.

Since anything goes around here, teens will curse and act unruly in public even if grown-ups are nearby. Since Berkeley (and the nearby cities) promote Question Authority, some of the kids, like the turkeys, think they are top dog. Calling one’s mom or teacher the “b” word makes perfect sense in an area (and a culture, via the sick and twisted media and music) that promotes disrespect for those in charge.

But I don’t just want to blame the children. There are plenty of manchilds and womanchilds who do their own thing, regardless of whether the behavior is legal or appropriate. Laws are flaunted; police are screamed at; people unabashedly walk Fido into stores, defying the conspicuous signs that read, “No Pets Allowed.”

And it’s certainly not just Berkeley. We can see people doing their own thing all over the US — as well as beyond. Like the Wild Turkeys of Berkeley, scores of people have lost their inborn fear.

On a deeper level, what has happened, I think, is not just that so many youth don’t respect parents, and workers don’t respect bosses, but that people have lost a healthy fear of God. When the Ten Commandments were removed from schools and prayer banned, there was a sea change in youth, as well as the adults. Along with this came the epidemic of atheism and the bizarre belief that we are simply animals, not Divine souls in human form.

So if people now think that they are just wild beasts, why not act like one? If there is no meaning to life, then anything goes. And most importantly, if there is no God, then there are no consequences, both in this life and beyond.

When we were a country steeped in faith, most citizens had a healthy fear of sin, and Judgment Day, with the very real possibility of hell. It would be hard to beat up a little old lady or start a riot if ultimately it means eternity tortured by the fires of hell. But with a good chunk of the populace not believing in anything outside of themselves and this one life, anti-social behavior and mayhem are out-of-control, particularly around here.

Scripture says, “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.” Healthy fear of God is what tames and civilizes a person and a nation. Without it, well, we have what we have today, rampant crime and unrest especially in the most un-churched (1) area of the country, the San Francisco Bay Area.

Fear of the Lord subdues and controls the natural predilection of humans towards selfish behavior. But it goes further: it creates a profound reverence, awe, and love towards God that makes a person truly human. When one loves God, we want to please Him. We don’t want to wound or, worse yet, severe our relationship with the Beloved. This means trying our best to be a good person, and, when we fail, experiencing some healthy guilt and shame.

But words like guilt and shame are as frowned upon these days as those other forbidden words: heaven, hell, sin, and Judgment. Life has become a free-for-all in a culture in free fall.

Tragically, the world resembles those pre-Christian, pagan times, with its barbarism. From what I behold every day, it’s hard to know anymore who are the humans and who are the wild beasts.


(1) I heard of a survey that the SF Bay Area has the fewest people in the country who go to church. And yet there is widespread anti-social behavior, riots, hellish schools, and astronomical crime. Hm. . .could there be a connection?

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Berkeley Traumatic Stress Disorder

You’ve no doubt heard of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. People may suffer from PTSD after an assault or from living in a war zone. In Berkeley, we have our own version of PTSD: I call it Berkeley Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Most people know that PTSD exists. If a loved one returns from the military or leaves an abusive partner, we understand that they may suffer from the legacy of trauma. But in Berkeley, BTSD is a hidden disease — though the signs of it are everywhere.

BTSD isn’t a new disorder; it has existed since the 60s. Then the radical groups, such as the Black Panthers, the Weather Underground, and the Symbionese Liberation Army (kidnappers and rapists of then Berkeley resident, Patty Hearst) unleashed a reign of terror all around the area.

I wasn’t here then, thank God. But apparently, there were bombings and frequent evacuation of buildings and death threats. The National Guard was called in, and curfews were enforced.

BTSD circa 2015 may actually be worse than in olden times. (1) For one, the Guard isn’t being brought in. Consequently, our local, overworked police have to deal with the unpredictable riots, while being cursed and screamed at and victimized themselves with thrown bottles and worse. Further, the only ones on curfew are law-abiding citizens, firmly ensconced behind locked doors in the evening and sometimes during the day.

And with current day BTSD, there is widespread, isolating denial. I imagine back in the 60s, having the National Guard on the corner reminded the residents that it wasn’t business as usual.

But it’s a rare person here who will admit that we live in a madhouse, a war zone, a region that defies normalcy or common sense. People are just oblivious, like those Seattle folks jogging, playing tennis, and hiking in the frigid, pouring rain. In Seattle, the oblivious hikers just get drenched. Here we get preyed upon.

I spoke to a friend the other day who has a serious case of BTSD, although she never would admit it. The poor woman has to take buses to get around, an often harrowing experience. She sits on the bus with headphones on, trying to block out the bloody fights and explosive rage that take place on a regular basis.

Not surprisingly, the woman has nightmares, feels deadened, and spaces out much of the time. She concedes that even after decades in other cities, the East Bay is the most violent and aggressive place she’s ever lived. But she tries to put on a happy face when reciting the perennial Berkeley mantra: “But we’re so lucky to live here!!! It’s beautiful, and the weather is great!”

And then there was the acquaintance I caught up with the other day, who told me that her highly coveted North Berkeley house has been broken into yet again. This is the third time in a year, not counting her car break-in. And yet if she tried to sell her house tomorrow, there’d be a bidding war for it, with offers well over a million dollars, even if the frequent burglaries were disclosed. When I asked my acquaintance whether she’d consider moving, she protested, “But I love living around here!”

Another sign of a traumatized population: the insane road rage, as agitated drivers speed like their lives depended on it (maybe their lives do depend upon it). I was tailgated by a bus yesterday, and the day before that, by a mad mail truck. . . not to mention the average, incensed driver.

Tragically, BTSD takes its tolls on everyone, man, woman, young and old. You can see it in the hardened faces and averted eyes and the hair trigger tempers because everything is always so hard and futile (parking spaces; decent, affordable housing; jobs). Life can feel like one arduous, frustrating, uphill climb, a fight for survival that can break one’s spirit.

Having no personal power decimates courage, and kindness, and hope; it erodes everything that makes a human being, human. Powerlessness is discouraging in the true sense of the word; it decimates courage.

Maybe saddest of all is the abject loneliness around here, the distrust, the every-man-for-himself mentality. Yet, we humans are social creatures; we need to connect, even on a random social level. Without this, the alienation around Berkeley feels as thick as the hot, stagnant air.

As for me, I fight against BTSD every day, trying to ward off that life-crushing alienation and hard heartedness. Some days I do better than others.

I often wonder: is it possible to reside around here and not lose parts of one’s humanity, one’s soul? I do my best; I ask God for help with this on a regular basis.

Because there is no way to fight PTSD, or BTSD, or any other human malady, all on our own. And from all the sad and embittered countenances around here, it’s no coincidence that Berkeley is a community that has rejected the Almighty God like nowhere else.


(1) From where I sit, life in Berkeley, Oakland, SF, et al. has gotten much much worse since the election of 2008. More people are hunkering down and shutting down. And since the elections, and the covert and subliminal messages since that time, the racial tension is as high and as threatening as I’ve ever experienced before.

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Lawlessness and Disorder

I just received a link from a friend about a 62 year old man who died because rioters in Berkeley blocked traffic a few weeks ago. What would have been a few minute ride for paramedics to come and save his life turned into a half hour. Although I can’t prove it, from the name of the man who died, it sure sounds like he was African American.

Which makes me wonder, Do Black Lives Matter to groups like Black Lives Matter? You see, this is a very diverse area, with a huge black, Latino, Asian, etc. etc. population. So with all of this rioting and blocking freeways and general mayhem interrupting emergency personnel from doing their jobs, many of the victims are and will be people of color.

Of course, it doesn’t matter what the color is of those terribly impacted by the lawlessness and disorder. Black lives matter — but so do white lives, and every color under the rainbow. But causing widespread chaos, death, injuries, etc. apparently doesn’t matter to those who believe they are perpetual victims of injustice at the hands of the “system.” They know better than all of the juries of one’s peers combined.

As I write this, I have heard four emergency vehicles go by, with sirens blaring. I have no idea why, except that the rumor predicts anarchy galore to protest Ferguson. The only rule around here seems to be mob rule. The only lives who appear to matter at the moment are the enraged and out-of-control mobs, and their puppeteers and

And isn’t is ironic that scores of the victims of these riots, like the older, possibly black deceased gentlemen, are the very people the leftist groups purport to care about?




Again, these so-called “spontaneous” riots since Ferguson (and before that, the Occupations) have the fingerprints of the Left all over them. From what I hear, Berkeley and Oakland were engulfed by this type of lawlessness during the 60s. However, then there was the major difference that the National Guard was called in. Not going to happen these days given those in charge state-wide and nationally.

I think that much of the chaos is designed and orchestrated by those very same affluent, well connected radicals who create chaos wherever they go, without getting their hands dirty. And of course it’s all engineered by the biggest radical of all, Saul Alinsky’s much admired Lucifer.

A while back, I read an old book by former leftists who had had a l80 degree change of heart. I still recall a chilling comment that one of the authors made. He said that he is terrified of the leftists he used to know working their way into positions of power in the government, academia, and the like. Of course, this has all happened, and here’s the fallout: the whipping up of all of the darkest, basest emotions — hatred, envy, resentment — in Berkeley and beyond.

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“Don’t Dry Those Hands”

My best friend has been stricken with a catastrophic disease. She has lost so much: her soulmate, her career, her memory. She is slowly losing her life. It’s a tragedy beyond anything I could ever imagine for her and her devoted family.

I woke up today tearfully thinking about her. I had a recollection of when we were young and the world was our oyster. We lived together after college, in our own tightly knit world replete with insider stories and jokes. She had a cute expression that she used whenever I would wash the dishes. She would say, “Don’t dry those hands.”

It was when I was almost finished washing; she’d bring a few stragglers to the sink, perhaps some cups she had left in her bedroom. She’d smile impishly as I was about to finish and say her trademark phrase: “Don’t Dry Those Hands.” It was an inside joke that she would never remember now; but I remember this for her, this and more; that’s what loved ones do for each other. We hold onto each other’s memories, like a firm embrace; we cling tightly to each other’s secrets, ones that we will take with us to the graves. Happy memories, sad ones, all of the images culled from a long life, now etched into our mind’s eye.

Before my best friend lost her memory completely, I would send her cards. The cards would show two women together and say things like: Best Friends Forever. Now each year on her birthday, I send her a card, although her adult daughter receives it. They still say: Best Friends Forever. My friend’s daughter needs to know; she needs to know that her mother isn’t forgotten and that some things endure forever.

* *

One thing about best friends is that they accept you the way you are. It doesn’t mean that there aren’t arguments or occasional cross words. But on a basic level, you feel seen and heard and accepted. The friendship reminds you that even though you have a multitude of flaws, you are worthy of love. That type of acceptance is so precious and so rare.

I didn’t find that type of acceptance much in my family, me being so different from everyone else. But toward the end of my parents’ lives, we all came to appreciate and respect each other more. My mother thanked me for helping to organize her health care. I wrote my parents a detailed letter expressing appreciation for the many things they did for me throughout my life. The letter must have meant a lot. Even though my parents were not sentimental and kept very few keepsakes, I found the letter in their belongings after they passed away.

They loved me, I loved them. We did the best we could. In the end, that is all that matters. In the end, love is all that remains.

* *

During this last year, there have been so many twists and turns in my spiritual life that have taken my breath away. I’ve been going to a church where I have felt God’s Presence like never before. But, as with my family, it’s a place where I don’t quite fit in. The parishioners are more reserved, while I am gregarious. As much as I’ve tried, it’s been hard to find women to connect with.

And yet God knows what we need better than we do. Instead of sending women my age to befriend, I’ve become pals with a couple of young males. They have sat with me at church; they have listened to me for hours and supported and guided me when I’ve been spiritually confused.

They are fine young men, obviously well-raised; they love and respect their mothers and it shows. The kindnesses of these two males have changed my life. They bring a fresh and clear-eyed view of things, one not yet obscured or tarnished by the wreckage of age.

Maybe the best thing about them is that they accept me as I am. They accept my big personality and don’t try to make me smaller. That type of acceptance is a lot like what my best friend did for me, so precious and so rare.

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Strangely enough, a newcomer showed up at church last Sunday, someone who reminded me a lot of me a few years ago, at the beginning of my faith journey. The woman was nervous, overwhelmed. She hungered for something, though she didn’t know what it was.

Gregarious too, she found her way to me and I took her under my wing. I sat with her at Mass, introduced her to people, and offered encouragement and support. She was so grateful; but I was even more grateful for the privilege to be used by God in this way. I pray to offer her the same type of kindness and acceptance that I’ve received from my young male friends at church and from my best friend.

None of us can rest on our laurels; we are all connected in ways that we can never fully understand. It doesn’t matter our life circumstances. “Don’t Dry Those Hands.”

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It’s the season of Lent, my second year observing it. Last year, it was all so exciting: getting my ash for Ash Wednesday, giving something up, which I’d never done before in any concerted way. I loved trying to reform some of my bad habits; I was successful in one of them, that is, stopping using obscenities.

This year, I have to admit, my Lent has gotten off to a pretty rotten start. I cursed at a driver who drove too closely to me when I was walking in a crosswalk. I’ve been catty in several conversations. I’ve been generally cranky and complain-y.

After praying about it last night, it occurred to me that I’ve been walking around hard hearted, angry about the state of the world and particularly life in Berkeley. I told God that I didn’t want to be this way, and I asked Him for help. As always, He is faithful.

That’s when I woke up tearfully thinking of my beloved friend; and I saw that underneath the anger that I have, that maybe we all have, is a deep and profound sadness about the human condition: our finiteness, our vulnerability, and a hidden-from-sight awareness that everything around us will someday die, us included.

And then I realized one of the messages of Lent; that even though none of us is worthy, God is always there for us, with us, always by our side. That He will never leave us or forsake us, even when everything else turns to dust.

And this: our lives are valuable; my best friend’s life, though severely impaired, is valuable. She reminds me of the paramount importance of love and friendship. And her situation makes me want to shout from the rooftops: right now, at this very moment, work out your relationship with God. Love Him, need Him, don’t turn your back on Him. Now, before it is too late.

Let your loved ones know that you care; and make contact with someone you’ve been out of touch with for a while. Look around your small corner of the world and offer a smile or an encouraging word to someone who needs it.

We are all in this mysterious thing we call “life” together. “Don’t Dry Those Hands.” You are needed in this world in countless ways. But don’t delay. Like the ashes of Ash Wednesday remind us, we are all living on borrowed time.

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Everyone’s Life Matters

A friend sent me a couple of news links. One was that the Home Depot in Emeryville was shut down yesterday by an enraged mob. They were angry that a black woman was killed by the police there a couple of weeks ago.

Apparently, she had taken over the Home Depot, robbed people, put guns to people’s heads, and then ran outside and attempted to carjack a few cars. As I understand it, police ordered her to put down her gun, she refused, and they shot her. The Home Depot later erupted in protests, and the store was robbed and looted.

And then this one: On Valentine’s Day, in a lovely suburb of the SF Bay Area, Walnut Creek, people mobbed a restaurant, verbally abusing and terrifying people who were peacefully dining in a restaurant. The diners apparently were doing something forbidden: dining while white. The children there were terrified.

There hadn’t been a police shooting in Walnut Creek. The protestors simply didn’t like that Walnut Creek is a quite, peaceful small city with few black people (though Walnut Creek has a huge number of Chinese, Indian, and other Asians – and a ton of ethnic restaurants. It is known as a safe and lively alternative to the filth and crime of SF). Similar protests, by the way, have happened in restaurants in Oakland, where groups of angry people shouted at diners and disrupted people’s meals.

Now, I’d like you to imagine this scenario. You and your family are peacefully relaxing after a long week. You’re enjoying a meal out together, and discussing the happenings of the week. Suddenly, a very loud and angry mob takes over the place, creating chaos, yelling at you and your children. You don’t know how this is going to end: violence? robbery? sexual assault?

How would you feel?

Or this situation: you and friend are visiting the Home Depot to get some supplies. Out of nowhere, you hear shouting, screaming, rage, people running, hiding, terrified. People are blocking the exit, trying to shut down the store.

Again, how would you feel?

There’s so much I want to say here. . and there’s so little to say. Clearly all of these so-called protests are the tried and true tactics of the Left: crash and overwhelm the system, create widespread mayhem and chaos. Sadly, alarmingly, they are being tolerated all over the place in ways that they weren’t in earlier times because of the political power the Left now wields.

Saul Alinsky, and many others, have promoted this type of terrorizing, destroying, and controlling. And since the 60s, tenured professors have brainwashed gullible young people into their version of reality: oppression, unfairness, and everything terrible. These professors have darkened our young people’s world view, robbed them of their innocence, and made them into foot soldiers for their causes.

And like most people in history who orchestrate madness, they never get their hands dirty. They instead prefer their ivory towers and their pristine suburban homes, which, by the way, resemble that bucolic city, Walnut Creek, the one that they are terrorizing.

And then there are the professors of education, the Bill Ayers of the world, who have taught their education students well, The public school teachers since the 60s are very well versed in the horrors that are the US; they teach that the world is divided up into forever perpetuators and forever victims.

As I said, there’s so much to say and so little. I’ll state the obvious: all of this is wrong. Horrible and horrifying. Terrorism. It’s fascistic, that is, some people have voice, others are supposed to shut up. It’s about social control and power and brutality.

This is the world system that we live in. This is what the world looks like when God has been shut up and shut out. This is what happens when few people understand anymore about the difference between love and hate. Love heals. Love brings people together. Love is the only true Force of power in the entire universe. And all love must come from God.

Love says that everyone’s life matters: black and white and male and female and every color under the sun. Christ loved us so much that He died for us: not just some of us, but all of us.

Hate is derived from the netherworld; it is ugly, brutal, and violent. It is a form of madness; it can drive people crazy. (1) Hate agitates the darkest and basest of emotions: envy, resentment, bitterness, selfishness. Hate resembles what we are seeing now, all over this nation. And with the rejection of God by so many, this force of hatred has been unleashed upon our God-forsaken world.

(1) As in the out of control madness of the French and Russian Revolutions and countless other examples.

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I’m Just Sitting Here Watching the Wheels Go Round and Round

If you’ve been reading me for a while, you might be shaking your head wondering why I keep writing about Berkeley. “Berkeley, Schmerkeley,” you might wonder in frustration. “Enough, already!”

Perhaps you go on: “We get it: it’s a crazy place filled with brainwashed people and the thugs and street hustlers who prey on them. No one in their right mind would want to live there and, with all due respect, we sometimes wonder about the rightness of your mind given that you do. You have convinced us: we will not move there or allow anyone we even slightly care about to go near the place. So can’t you write about something else??

“What about Obama, Obamacare, and everything else happening on the national scene. Can’t you remove yourself from the madness that is Berkeley and write about something else?”

The sad truth is that no, I cannot. This is because I have no almost idea what is going on.

For the last few years, I have kept myself pretty clueless about anything beyond my corner of the world. I don’t read political websites or newspaper or magazines. I haven’t listened to talk radio in so long that I wouldn’t even remember the AM or FM dial numbers. I not only don’t watch television, I don’t own one. To quote an old, obscure song by Jackson Browne, I’ve become a “happy idiot.”

OK, yes, I do know a teeny bit about what’s going on out there. But that is only because people keep telling me stuff, stuff I don’t want to know. People eat, breath, and drink politics out here, so it’s hard to escape some of the happenings.

Apparently, Obama and Biden remain in office, and Hilary might run for the top spot next year. There is some controversy about Hilary’s emails, though I haven’t the foggiest idea what. I think that DOJ chief Holder is gone, or leaving, and might be replaced by a woman with the last name, Lynch (brilliant strategy, by the way; keep much of the country in a perpetual state of white guilt every time the lady’s name is quoted in the news).

The Middle East is still a mess. Scores of Christians are being massacred in Iraq and throughout the Mid East and Africa, which most of the world’s leaders are mum about. Almost everyone is angry at the police. The Republicans are in charge of both Houses of Congress; in my mind, hopefully the government will be so hopelessly paralyzed, that nothing will done.

Have I missed anything? To sum up, the world is going to hell in a hand basket, with a good proportion of the populace going down with it. All terrible, tragic, though not surprising in a secular world that has turned its back on God and tried to play god themselves.

I realize that many of you would want to argue me out of my political ignorance. I should apprise myself of what is going on; I’m doing a disservice to myself and to the reading public by having little idea what is going on. But the truth is that I can’t. I just can’t.

It is too depressing, upsetting, and angering. I used to be a news junkie, but I’ve had to go cold turkey; I just don’t have the stomach to stomach it anymore.

Plus, I have become one of those people who are skeptical about it all. How do I know that what is being reported is accurate? Aren’t we all being manipulated and controlled like rats in a cage, told what they want us to know, and prevented from learning what we should know? I mean, isn’t much of the news just propaganda to get everybody yelling and fighting each other? (1)

So I try to keep my blood pressure down by not knowing much of anything. I’m not boasting here; just what I need to do to survive, given that I live in an area where a bodyguard is needed to make it safely to and from the dry cleaners. (2)

For me, I have a limited to-do list, one that doesn’t include CNN, Fox News, or anything else. I’ll share my current list with you:

To Do List, for Tuesday:

1. Try not to get killed.

2. Try not to get mugged.

3. Try not to get robbed, carjacked, etc.

4. Try to serve God by being a bright, cheerful light among the unhappy people in Berkeley (good luck with that one).

I’ll end here with some lines from a John Lennon song. Lennon wrote it after he left the music industry to take care of his young son, Sean. The lyrics reflect my current sentiments.

I’m just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the merry-go-round,
I just had to let it go,

People asking questions lost in confusion,
Well I tell them there’s no problem,
Only solutions,
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I’ve lost my mind,
I tell them there’s no hurry…
I’m just sitting here doing time,

I’m just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the merry-go-round,
I just had to let it go.

–Watching the Wheels


(1) I glanced at the banner headline in today’s newspaper: “80 Million Reasons to Worry.” I have no idea what it is referring to and I don’t want to know. Again it all feels so manipulative to me. A stressed and freaked out citizenry is easier to manage and control, isn’t it? I recall reading a quote from the Marquis de Sade, who was a revolutionary as well as a sadist. He commented that a happy and devout populace was too stable and joyful to control, and that it was necessary to remove faith, love, family, etc. An agitated population is receptive to revolution, but not a calm and happy one. Since the 60s, many leaders and shakers have taken note of this truism.

(2) True story: I was harassed by street transients just the other day around noon while walking down the street towards the dry cleaners. Two separate incidents: She was demanding money and he was eying my purse. I made it safely into the cleaners, but I had to ask the man working there to walk me to my car. As I have written, just Another Day in Paradise.

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The New Weird Order

When I was growing up, I was the black sheep of the family. My parents never failed to remind me of this. “How could I have a child like you?” my mother would wonder out loud. Even my parents’ friends would get into the act: “I don’t know how you can be the daughter of [name of my mother]. You’re nothing like her.”

My brother used my stranger-in-a-strange-land status to torment me; he swore that I was left on our doorstep one day and adopted. While my parents and my brother were like peas in a pod, not me. No one, including me, had any idea where I came from.

I was highly sensitive in a family that abhorred sensitivity; emotional, where emotions were viewed as weakness; serious when everyone else was always joking around. I was dreamy and pensive where thinking too much was ridiculed. With no one in my family like me, I was the odd man out.

So it’s not surprising that I ended up in my 20s in Berkeley, an area populated by a lot of people who also don’t fit in from where they came. And as soon as I got here, I felt at home for the first time. Berkeley, SF, etc. are strange areas inhabited by even stranger people. Being different is embraced and celebrated. A popular bumper sticker says it all, “Why Be Normal?” (1)

In fact, if a person is conventional, “vanilla,” normal, they may be regarded contemptuously. Around here, people often compete to be the most outrageous. For years, there was even a parade down University Avenue called, “How Berkeley Can You Get?” where residents showed off their weirdest float or outfit.

Now, as you can imagine, it creates a vast array of problems to live where people have fled (or been forced out of) their childhood homes. It certainly is an odd dynamic to live among so many residents who did not fit in from whence they came.

Not surprisingly, you see a lot of asocial, if not outright antisocial, behavior. Perhaps it is frowned upon where you live for you and your children to race down the sidewalk on your bikes or skateboards, thereby endangering the public. But out here? If it feels good, do it.

Berkeley’s reputation as Berzerkeley is going to attract some people and repel others. Let’s face it, Berkeley doesn’t attract graduates from West Point and Notre Dame. If someone just finished a tour of duty in Afghanistan, Berkeley is not their number 1 destination post-Army. But there are going to be a lot of folks just released from prison or rehab or who are gender confused or simply dazed and confused.

Therefore, this area has a disproportionate number of misfits, high functioning autistics, personality disorders, and disordered and disorderly people. Not everyone, of course. There are nice, helpful people too among the under-socialized. But the strangeness sucks the life out of the place. Even those sweet people can grow cold and callous after repeated harassment, rejections, and insults.

What’s particularly challenging about living here is trying to establish committed, loyal, and trusting relationships. A common complaint is that people can be superficially friendly but MIA when need arises. The distress call put out to friends during serious illness can lead to few comers. Having a birthday party could end up with fewer than expected guests, as friends cancel because they need their own personal space.

It’s no wonder: if so many people are escaping from family commitments, you’ve got a lot of people who don’t know how to be in relationship — or don’t value deep ones. The gals complain about the dearth of loyal men. And the guys complain about the lack of devoted females. People who have moved hundreds or even thousands of miles from loved ones may be ambivalent about creating new ones.

Ironically enough, my life journey has come full circle in some unexpected ways. I started life as a misfit until I made my way to Berkeley, where I finally fit in. But fast forward several decades, and look at me now: a conventional, vanilla person in an area that detests normalcy. I started out the black sheep, and here I am again, many years later, the same. My life hasn’t just done a l80, but a 360 degrees. And how weird is that?


1. One thing I’ve noticed over the years is that there’s a lot less outrageousness and a lot more creepiness. There was a good deal of both in the past. But much of the weirdness has taken a dark, disturbing tone, from what I have observed.

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Another Day in Paradise

I did something last week that I rarely do: I went out after dark. I don’t like to do this. This area is too creepy crawly during the day, much less at night. But supplies were low, and I wasn’t sure when I’d get another chance to go food shopping.

And I thought to myself, “Maybe you’re exaggerating all of this: the crime, the filth, the general insanity. Maybe it’s not as bad as you think.” So, like a small child testing the waters, I thought I’d stick my toe in the after-hours scene.

It was about 7:30 pm when I made the trek over to a local food store. I arrived there, exited the car — all in one piece! I entered, shopped, and even returned to my car intact. I felt elated, triumphant, like one of those Olympic athletes who just won a gold medal. I had actually escaped aggressive panhandlers, criminals, and the certifiable insane to secure my milk and eggs!

Emboldened and giddy, I thought, “Maybe I can take this one step further. Maybe I can successfully make it in and out of the Walgreen’s! Maybe — gasp — I can even have a life!” Flush with the joy of my Olympic-style victory, I headed down the block to the pharmacy chain store.

And that’s when it happened.

All was well while I picked up some moisturizer and soap and headed over to the check-out line. I stood confidentially on the queue, euphoric about being able to do something so normal, something people do all over this great nation.

Suddenly, right outside the glass windows, someone started screaming at the top of his lungs, while someone else screamed back. Then there was cursing and throwing things, with several men looking maniacal and out of control.

Frightened, I looked at the cashier. He paused, took in the scene, looked back at me and shrugged his shoulders. Then he continued processing my order.

I stared at the chaotic happenings. Things quieted down for a minute or so, and I finally took a deep breath. And then the yelling started up again. Frozen now in fear, I stared outside the glass window, trying to discern what was happening and, even more pressing, what was going to happen.

There was that familiar, disturbing uncertainty, something that I’ve experienced many times before. What is going to happen next? Are they going to come in? Are they going to rob us, attack us, create store-wide pandemonium — or worse? And how am I going to get back safely to my car?

I suggested to the cashier that he call the police. He gave me that bored and I’ve-seen-it-all look, and said, “If it keeps up, I’ll do that.” The commotion died down and the cashier and I completed the money exchange. Then I told him that I was afraid to walk to my car alone and needed someone to come with me.

He paged the supervisor and a few minutes later, a tough-looking dude came out to escort me. We walked outside and there were several vagrants out there, though it was hard to tell whether they were part of the street fighting or just housing themselves on the sidewalk. I kept my eyes firmly on my surroundings, as I got in my car quickly and drove away.

Just at that moment, a police car with its sirens blaring sped through the parking lot looking for whatever was going on, which I’ll never know. Obviously, the miscreants took their mayhem elsewhere, triggering someone to call the police. As I drove out of the parking lot, I said out loud to God, “Just for the record, I hate it here. Just so you know.”

Now let me clarify this: what I’ve described — the social unrest, violence, terror — happens around here all the time, on a practically minute-to-minute basis. And this is an area where people brag incessantly about how fortunate they are to live here: how lucky they are to pay 3 grand a month to rent a tiny cottage in a marginal area, where cars are broken in to on a regular basis, and children attend some of the worst schools in the United States. Gentle readers: I appeal to you; can you understand why it is like living among programmed Stepford people to reside around here?

For me, my never-to-be-repeated late night sojourn only reinforces what I knew to begin with: that this is a terrible — I repeat — a terrible area in which to live. But for the multitudes, the danger of my late night outing was no big deal, simply Another Day in Paradise, we being the luckiest people on earth.

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California’s Culture of Death

The California legislature has introduced a bill to legalize assisted suicide in California. I find the prospect of this horrifying.

Of course, legal euthanasia is the natural consequence of a culture that devalues life; that ridicules Sarah Palin’s Down Syndrome baby and aborts babies conceived at the wrong time or medically impaired. It’s no wonder that people talk casually about death panels, rationing health care, and even killing one’s grandma or grandpa.

We live in a culture that supposedly loves humanity, but seems to detest human beings. Like the Communists in the Soviet Union, humans beings in the post-modern US are considered a drain on the system unless they can work. And yet the same citizens so cavalier about human life are quick to wax rhapsodic about lofty concepts, such as “social justice.”

For many people, I think, the callousness towards human life camouflages a deep terror about death that is hidden even from themselves. Ernest Becker wrote about it decades ago in his Pulitzer Prize winning book, The Denial of Death. He theorized that every action a human being takes underlies an intense fear, and thus denial, of mortality.

This disregard of human life is also a form of delusion: as though the healthy person today won’t someday be impaired. The young may regard the old with disgust, deluding themselves that they won’t get aged themselves and need the kindness of strangers. The able-bodied may see the disabled as parasites, again blind to the possibility of their own disability.

But I don’t think that fear of death is the only reason for the casual talk about abortions and assisted suicide. There are so many dark paths that have led to the hard heartedness: generations desensitized to violence by the media; youth growing up on mean urban streets with violence a daily reality. Agendas have been pushed in the schools, such as “values clarification,” that invite children to decide, in classroom exercises, who will live and who will die.

Consequently, our society has produced a feeling of grandiosity in many citizens. When people know that they can legally snuff out human life, they may become intoxicated with their own perceived sense of power. All of this delusion and grandiosity originates in the same place: in a culture that has tried to severe one’s natural tethering to God. Being anchored to God is humbling; we realize that we are helpless without Him.

The Light will continue to darken in this world as long as people worship self, and not God. When people try to control life and death, no matter how cleverly, they become mad scientists, evil geniuses.

They aid and abet the Enemy, who wants nothing more than the destruction of human souls. And this evil force is elated when States like California try to pass laws, such as assisted suicide, that will pave the way for more lives to be destroyed. It makes the Evil One’s job that much easier.

When people are ignorant about God’s love for them and the preciousness of this one life, they may have a hard time caring about others. They may not even care that much about themselves, their bodies, and their souls.

What people in this world desperately need is to feel valued — and to learn to value others. And if someone struggles with a terminal illness or depression or physical disability, he is still valuable and worthy of love and respect — and of life! People need to look at the world through God’s eyes, who loves all of us, the meek and the frail as well as the strong.

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About Abortion

Today, January 22, is the anniversary of Roe v. Wade, which legalized abortion across the country. There have been at least 56 million abortions since Roe. (1)

In Catholic churches, a special Mass is held for the unborn, called, “Day of Prayer for the Legal Protection of Unborn Children.” And this weekend, pro-life rallies will be held throughout the country.

Probably no issue has troubled me more than this one; no issue has made me do a l80 like this one: from fervent abortion activist and clinic worker in my young adulthood to pro-life.

And, yet, I still struggle with this one because I understand the intense emotions on both sides. I realize how incredibly threatened, frightened, and angry women become when they envision abortion rights being limited.

You see, we live in a hook-up culture; we live in a world that teaches girls from a very young age that they must be sexually active as soon as they can, with experimentation and multiple partners mandatory.

Girls (and boys, for that matter) learn that it is normal to be promiscuous from a young age. They are programmed to believe that the more sexual they are, the more empowered. Conversely, being chaste means something is seriously wrong with them. Out here, youth are told that they must try both genders as well to truly be normal.

And we all know how important it is for young people to feel like everyone else. . .how difficult it is for them to be perceived as different than the pack. Even though many of our young don’t want to have sex, don’t feel ready for it, and feel scared and uncomfortable, many, if not most, give in to pressure from peers and the sex-obsessed media.

In college, things get even worse. Without the oversight of parents, these young people, unsupervised and left to their own devices, can spiral quickly out of control. Of course, none of this promiscuity stops post-graduation, as perpetual adolescence may go on and on well into one’s 30s.

This is where the passion around legalized abortion comes in, especially for the girls. They are pushed and groomed to be practically nymphomaniacs; they put themselves in high-risk situations, where alcohol and drugs are present and nonconsensual sex a possibility. Of course females think that it is completely unacceptable for society to rob them of their one way out of an unwanted pregnancy. Because they can’t easily say no to casual sex, their only “no,” is having an abortion.

Here’s the formula: a promiscuous society with rape as a real possibility equals the demand for abortion. A culture of throw-away relationships and easy divorce often leaves women on their own to survive. While I have become pro-life myself (having finally recognized that the “pregnancy tissue” vacuumed out is indeed a life, God’s creation), still I understand the desperation of women in this culture. Their bodies, minds, and spirits have been stripped of any dignity by the steady drumbeat of this lurid, twisted culture that they give their bodies to whomever.

In women’s minds, their only recourse when a random encounter or a casual relationship or a rape turns into a human being is fleeing to their local Planned Parenthood. Sadly, tragically, this is not going to change anytime soon.

Unless this culture evolves from a pornographic one that practically turns our females into prostitutes, desperate women will demand abortions. They will refuse to see that they are terminating a human life; and for some, they will see but refuse to even care. The life they are saving, they think, is their own.



(1) In defiance of federal mandates, the State of California has always refused to keep statistics on the number of abortions. So there are millions more abortions than the reported number.

There are many casualties when it comes to the tragedy of abortion. Let’s please all pray today for the children, but also the mothers and father and even grandparents impacted by the heartache of abortion. Let’s also pray for the clinic workers, who are exposed to horrifying, traumatizing scenes. (I know this first-hand, and the images are forever burned into my memory.)

Anyone who needs healing from abortion can contact Rachel’s Vineyard, a faith-based program. And remember that our amazing God of healing and mercy is always ready to forgive us and to welcome us home, no matter what we have done.

I’d like to end here with some lyrics from a 1970s-era song by Graham Parker that has always deeply affected me, called, “You Can’t Be Too Strong.” I’d also suggest listening to the song on Youtube. The anger and pain in Graham Parker’s voice haunting. (Be forewarned: the lyrics are disturbing.)

Did they tear it out with talons of steel
And give you a shot, so that you wouldn’t feel?
And wash it away as if it wasn’t real?

It’s just a mistake I won’t have to face
Don’t give it a name, don’t give it a place
Don’t give it a chance, it’s lucky in a way

It must have felt strange to find me inside you
I hadn’t intended to stay
If you want to keep it right, put it to sleep at night
Squeeze it until it could say

You can’t be too strong
You can’t be too strong. . .
You decide what’s wrong

Well I ain’t gonna cry, I’m gonna rejoice
And shout myself dry and go see the boys
They’ll laugh when I say I left it overseas

Yeah babe, I know it gets dark, down by Luna Park
But everybody else is squeezing out a spark
That happened in the heat, somewhere in the dark, in the dark

The doctor gets nervous completing the service
He’s all rubber gloves and no head
Yes, he fumbles the light switch, it’s just another minor hitch
Wishes to God he was dead

But you can’t be too strong
You can’t be too strong. . .
You decide what’s wrong

Can’t be too hard
Too tough, too rough
Too right, too wrong
And you can’t be too strong. . .

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Women and Children Last

Some parents are hazardous to their kids’ health, for instance, drug addicts, alcoholics, and molesters. We may know parents like this and worry about the well-being of the children.

But there’s a subtle category of parents who can cause harm even though they don’t mean to and don’t engage in any extreme behaviors. In fact, these parents are well-meaning and do many of the right things. But there’s something missing deep inside of them. I call it “failure to protect.”

I know about this because I came from parents who had a failure to protect, even though, on the outside, they were fine parents. I went to doctors when I was sick, and had regular checkups at the dentist. My mother cooked delicious meals, and my father was a very hard worker. But while my parents were practically “mother and father of the year,” there was something seriously missing.

What was lacking was protecting me not just physically but emotionally. When it came to issues about my safety in the world, they were often missing in action.

Maybe the worst thing of all is that they stuck me in horrendous public schools, where violence was the norm and every day was a battle to survive. My parents never asked about what was going on there; they didn’t red flag how often I cut school, how drugged out I appeared, and how I never dared to attend a single after-school activity.

Looking back, I’m not sure why they were so un-curious and clueless. Part of it was a sign of the times; parents were much less involved with their children back then. Some of it was my particularly parents’ psychology, their extreme self-focus. But I think a lot of it was that they lacked something inside that a good parent must have.

This trait is a kind of sixth sense that can read their children and the situation. It is an ability to sense danger, and the courage to rescue the child from harm’s way. Without this inborn ability, children remain endangered, regardless of how much money the family has and whether the child is showered with opportunities.

I see this phenomenon of “failure to protect,” all over Berkeley and the nearby cities. It is widespread, even in the most educated and elite families. Even though the children are wanted and loved and given all kinds of enriching experiences, something essential and life-preserving is missing from the parenting.

For one, the children are allowed to walk the streets of Berkeley, where aggressive panhandlers, the paranoid, and street thugs rule. The kids play in parks with unsanitary conditions, e.g. transients sleeping, drug paraphernalia, human excrement. (1)

Even more damaging to kids, in my opinion, is that many local parents enroll them in the public schools. There they may face merciless bullying; robbery of their belongings; and being threatened and degraded on a regular basis. But because these children do not fit into some protected class, their suffering doesn’t count. Their daily insults are invisible, and would be summarily dismissed should the youth dare to complain. Eventually, the children may feel responsible for their own abuse because of the color of their skin.

And yet the parents I’m talking about are moneyed: they can afford private schools or moving to a safer public school system. They can, but they won’t. But they aren’t being mean-spirited.

They just have, I think, this missing piece in them, like my parents did. These parents are similarly bereft of the ability to see the danger to their children and to take swift, appropriate action.

Part of their denial is due to cognitive dissonance, a fancy way of saying that people don’t want to see what they don’t want to see. If they beheld the danger to their children, they would have to face the consequences of moving here. They’d have to realize that much of what they believe in is a lie.

So parents may ignore the warning signs: the children who don’t want to go to school; the emotional and/or behavioral problems. Parents might disregard the problems or defend it because of “privilege.” And this same failure in Berkeley to protect extends not just to the children, but to the entire population.

As for my parents, I’ll never quite understand why they neglected me in some essential ways. Perhaps it was immaturity, maybe psychological issues.

However, I have a good idea why so many people in Berkeley act as they do: brainwashing. A lot of folks who once had a natural instinct to protect have lost it over time.

Yet, this doesn’t explain it all; we have free will. There are undoubtably moments when reality breaks through the programming: when a parent sees the child’s distress, hears about the missing backpack, even perhaps views bruises.

What is lacking is something quite rare today: moral courage. Moral courage means a willingness to take a stand, even if it makes enemies, even if it is politically incorrect. It means the strong protecting the weak. Without courage, we have in Berkeley what exists today: ever present danger and over-the-top violence, both emotionally and physically.

In Berkeley, Oakland, et al. . . it is women and children last. . . with the illusion, the fantasy, the utopian dream coming first and foremost. And for many children, this dream is in reality a nightmare.



(1) I had a good laugh after I posted this and was driving in my car and realized that I put “human remains,” instead of “human excrement.” As insane as it is around here, there actually aren’t human remains in the parks, although there’s a whole lot of poop. I was laughing to myself at your stunned reaction reading that original line, “Really? There are even human remains out there in public places?” So, my mistake (at least I think that there aren’t any!)

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Berkeley’s Tipping Point

Every culture has its social mores. In yours, it may be saying hello to a neighbor during your morning walk. Perhaps it’s discussing the weather with the checker at the grocery store. Maybe in your neck of the woods, people spend Sundays mornings at church, and Sunday afternoons enjoying a meal with family. And perhaps you hold the door open for women and treat the elderly with deference.

Berkeley has its mores as well, but they are likely very different than yours. Here are two staples: 1. If it feels good, do it, and 2. Every man (or woman) for himself.

These are the cultural values that I see demonstrated everywhere I go: in the car, on the streets, in shops and in restaurants. There’s this strange free-for-all, where behavior and language never allowed in Kansas, is not just tolerated, but normal, with widespread acceptance.

Thus, someone walking across the street and not liking how a person is driving may, with no social restraint, scream obscenities at the other. If a driver feels like jutting into traffic, he shall.

Or a person who is frustrated with the shop keeper can utter something mean, again with the rest of the world silent. A stranger can say something casually cruel to another person that would never, ever be tolerated anywhere else.

What I’ve noticed over the decades I’ve been in Berkeley and the surrounding cities is a meaner, more callous vibe. The area has always had a primitive feeling to it, given the mentally ill street people and aggressive panhandling. There’s always been a menacing threat in the air: of the potential for a paranoid person exploding or a criminal preying.

But something has dramatically worsened in my time here: a darker and uglier vibe. I’m not exactly sure why this is. But I think, sadly, tragically, that a tipping point has been reached and crossed.

What created a sense of balance, however precariously, was that we used to have a fair number of decent people, along with the incendiary. There were the polite and the helpful to offset all the dark ones.

But something has shifted; some tipping point has been reached and now, I think, we’re at the point of no return. The mean and the malicious far outnumber the decent.

Maybe it has to do with the astonishing amount of money being poured into the area. Lots of wealth from tech and China and old money and the nouveau riche. But that can’t explain it all.

Some of it is the radicalism; it’s a hard-core leftist area. With the increasing numbers of riots and occupations around here, and the utter contempt for authority, some people feel they can get away with “murder,” literally or figuratively.

The thugs go for the violence part, mayhem that can be excused and justified by the brainwashed residents. But most residents are law-biding, though they can be violent in a different way, interpersonally, societally. That’s where you get the casual meanness, the startling coldness, the offhanded remark meant to eviscerate.

Maybe it springs from a feeling of omnipotence and grandiosity. If people out here can stop traffic or scream obscenities at the police and get away with it, they think that they can get away with anything.

There’s also been a significant change spiritually, When I first moved here in the 80s, the Bay Area was a spiritual hub. Everyone was into something, though much of it was dubious, even cult-y. However, people who focus their lives on faith — whether it’s a spurious one or the real thing — create different social mores, better, healthier ones. There were some good values promoted and shared in common, such as being nice to each other, being friendly, trying to be a beneficial person in the world.

But that’s all in the past. Now, there’s a hard core atheism, with any type of spirituality, even the previously idolized Eastern ones, viewed with hostility. I heard a pastor once report that the SF Bay Area is the most “unchurched” in the country; meaning, the fewest people go to church around here than anywhere else.

And it shows. It shows in the uber entitlement; in the every-man-for-himself free for all; it shows in the little things, the small cruelties and unkindnesses that make up a day in Berkeley and the environs. Yes, a few of the nice people are still out here, but many have fled to Oregon and parts unknown. And the average, decent working stiff is unable to survive financially, and so returns back to from where he came.

I once heard a quote attributed to an ancient Catholic saint: that a body without a head is a monster. Man without the moral compass of God can be a deadly and cruel thing. Man, unschooled and left to his own devices, is not human at all.

Berkeley is a cautionary tale. Yes, it’s a unique place, but it’s not an island that exists alone in the universe. Like a virulent plague, the same cold-heartedness is spreading throughout the country, as we see in the social fabric becoming increasingly unraveled. And this plague will continue to grow and spread as long as man has lost sight of his Compass, his God, the only guiding light that exists to show us how to live together as decent and moral human beings.

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Happy 2015

With 2015 just around the corner, I find myself reflecting on the year 2014. It was a roller coaster ride for me, filled with highs that I never knew in my life. These highs were also accompanied by deep lows spurred on, I believe, by spiritual warfare.

It was a transformative year, though in many ways, it broke me — in the good type of way. I heard a pastor once say that while Christians often talk about brokenness, none of us are actually broken, but instead full of ourselves: of our arrogance, our egos, our, “I know what’s best for me.” He said that the spiritual journey is about God breaking us down, challenging our well-crafted versions of ourselves.

Yet, our egos keep God out, the minister said, and we must learn that we can do absolutely nothing without Him. Faith is trusting in Him, even when our illusions about ourselves fall to pieces, like a house of cards.

This last year, when I was brought down on my knees so many times, I realized that humility and surrender are essential on this path, and that God is in control, not me. And when I surrender to His will, as hard as that can be, amazing grace happens.

Though there have been times of great testing and spiritual attack this past year, the blessings have been enormous. When I started going in the direction that God wanted for me, I felt bliss that I’ve never known before, alive with the joys and sorrows of this human life. Not the temporary happiness of buying stuff or accumulating money, but the genuine joy that can only come when we bend our will to God’s.

And at church, I have felt His Presence like never before, at times, so overwhelming that I cried endless tears. I’ve even had to flee the sanctuary, temporarily, to regain my composure.

Another great blessing for me this year: God sent me several of His kind and caring people to guide me and help me; to be strong for me when I felt weak; and to believe in me when belief in myself felt tenuous. They taught me new concepts, such as reconciliation, the Mystical Union, and the Body of Christ. Their many kindnesses revealed to me the true essence of friendship, family, and Christian love. They have been Christ’s presence on earth for me, and I am eternally grateful to them.

And I’m grateful to you too, dear reader, for reading my blogs and for being my virtual friends over the years, through good times and hard. I wouldn’t be where I am today if it weren’t for many of you. You helped reveal God to me. And you helped to give me the strength to respond to His call. I pray that all of us have the courage to do His will in the times ahead.

I’ll end here with a few lines from another Matt Maher song, Alive Again.

You called and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I’m breathing in and breathing out
I’m alive again

You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I’m breathing in and breathing out
I’m alive again

Late have I loved You
You waited for me
I searched for You
What took me so long?

I was looking outside
As if love would ever want to hide
I’m finding I was wrong. . ..

‘Cause I want You, yes, and I need You
And I’ll do whatever I have to just to get through
‘Cause I love You, yeah, I love You

You called and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I’m breathing in and breathing out
I’m alive again.

Many blessings to you and yours in 2015.

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Merry Christmas!

I love Christmas. It’s one of my very favorite holidays (the other being Easter). But it wasn’t always this way.

Truth be told, I detested Christmas for most of my life. I was a veritable Grinch. I started complaining bitterly around November about the incessant Christmas music blaring cheerfully in most stores and restaurants. How dare they impose their holiday on me? I’d fume. I’m embarrassed to admit that I once almost complained at a restaurant where I was dining with a friend, the day after Christmas. It was only because of my friend’s pleadings that I didn’t ask the manager to shut off those insufferable Christmas tunes.

But that’s all in the past. Now I am delighted by the first notes of a Christmas song played in my local supermarket or pharmacy. Everything changed for me a few years ago, my views on God and Christmas and everything else. Back then, I even went over to my local Barnes and Noble bookstore and sampled Christmas music and purchased a few CDs. I relish playing them this holiday season.

I love Christmas now for so many reasons. First and foremost, of course, is the birth of our Savior, the world’s Savior, Emmanuel among us. He came to rescue all of us lost sheep from sin and the Enemy and most of all from ourselves.

He came to heal the wounds of nations, to bring everyone together, so there was no longer a separation among people, “Greeks or Jews or men and women,” but all united in the Mystical Body. In this time of horrifying racial strife and increasing tribalism, we need this teaching more than ever before.

I also cherish Christmas now because I’m no longer an outsider. I realize that my enmity towards Christmas wasn’t so much the lights and the candles and the sounds of, Silent Night. It was feeling left out, alone, different. I understand now why people desperately seek an identity, whether it’s Japanese American or African American or an Adult Child of an Alcoholic, or any of the other countless groupings and categories. But, ultimately, it is only through God that we can feel connected to each other and to ourselves.

Although I am now delighted by the whole season, there is also a sadness there for me. It’s grief, I think, of being separated from God for so long, for almost my whole life, and the unbearable suffering and loneliness that comes from this. It makes my heart go out to the countless others who live, as I used to, at such a far distance from God.

But if I can change so dramatically, even in my older years, anyone can. Because God is ever present, faithful, and patient.

All along He was waiting for me, He was there, even if I didn’t know it, even in my darkest moments. To find Him, we simply need to overcome our stubborn pride, face the sorrow of lost years and lost time, and ask for His love and mercy.

I’d like to end here with some poignant lyrics of a song by Matt Maher, You Were on the Cross:

Pain, could you take away the pain?
If I find someone to blame, would it make my life seem easier?
Alone, all my friends are asleep
And I can’t find anyone to stay awake with me

Where were You when sin stole my innocence?
Where were You when I was ashamed?
Hiding in a life, I wish, I never made

You were on the cross, my God, my God, alone, alone
You were on the cross, You died for us, alone, alone
You were on the cross, victorious, alone, alone

You were there in all of my suffering
And You were there in doubt and in fear
I’m waiting on the dawn to reappear

Merry Christmas and love and blessings to you all.

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Berkeley’s Vast Anarchist Conspiracy?

If you’ve been watching the news lately, you’d think that Berkeley is the national hub for anarchism. You can see photos of ski-masked anarchists all over the place. Masked bandits are breaking windows, starting bonfires, and robbing and looting banks, stores, restaurants, and the like. (1)

But there is one problem with this narrative. There aren’t any anarchists in Berkeley.

OK, maybe there are a few UC Berkeley professors who call themselves anarchists. But while they talk the talk, they don’t walk the walk. This elite group only gets their hands dirty when they are in their leafy backyards, composting.

But after decades in Berkeley, I’ve never met a single, true blue anarchist. And my unscientific poll of other Berkeley-ites — young, old and in the middle — elicited the same reaction. No one knows any violent revolutionaries. Everyone is scratching his or head to figure out who are all of these people.

You see, over the years, Berkeley has become wealthier, more gentrified, and more bourgeois. Some of those two-bedroom shacks Berkeley-ites purchased in the 1960s for $20,000 are now worth a cool million. There are a ton of rich, young techies buying up the real estate. Despite its reputation, Berkeley is a moneyed community.

Current day locals may be progressives and liberals . . . but they are armchair radicals. They voice passionate political opinions. But they do so while enjoying a fine bottle of Cabernet from their wine club. They become most spurred into fierce political action when their neighbor uses a leaf blower.

So if the anarchists in our midst aren’t homegrown. . then who are they? And where did they come from? Here are some theories making the rounds.

Theory One:

Many people postulate that the sudden influx of anarchists is coming from San Francisco. Given that there’s this strange disconnect between the East Bay and SF (people on each side only cross the bridge when they absolutely have to and do so quite miserably), it’s easy to just assume that “it’s those people over there.” But this theory makes absolutely no sense.

First off, it’s even more expensive in the City; it costs about $4,000 a month to rent some modest digs. So unless the anarchists are Google executives by day and bandana-ed vandals at night, the anarchists aren’t crossing the bridge.

Theory Two:

Popularized by the MSM, some believe that the anarchist epidemic is due to Berkeley old-timers taking it to the streets for one last shot at revolution. Like aging rock stars taken out of moth balls for a final reunion concert, these 60s relics are making a trip down memory lane to plunder 7/11s. But this theory is totally absurd.

First of all, our senior citizens can barely locate their keys, much less their old machetes. Plus: our septuagenarians fall into two categories: 1. The well-heeled, who live prosperous, cushy lives, or 2. The burnout cases who save most of their moral outrage for when the local dispensary runs out of pot brownies.

Which brings us to Theory Three:

A couple of folks offered that maybe the anarchists are drawn from our homeless population. But this is laughable. Our homeless are a sluggish bunch; they sleep in; eventually they park themselves prostrate on some sidewalk for several hours to collect spare change, and then, after a hard day’s work, they return “home.” It’s hard to believe that they are pulling off an insurrection.

Theory Four:

Some people believe that the anarchists are being bused in from out of state. They are flocking here from compounds in Idaho; centers of radicalism, such as Ann Arbor; and various parts unknown. This theory is given credence by the fact that apparently the lion’s share of anarchists being arrested have out-of-state IDs.

However, there are problems with this theory as well. For one, there aren’t enough anarchists in the whole country to explain all the rioting and looting in Berkeley. And anarchists everywhere are suddenly dropping everything to bus into Berkeley?? And where are all of these visiting anarchists staying anyway — Courtyard by Marriot? Unless there is some sort of Vast Anarchist Conspiracy of massive proportions that nobody knows about, this theory doesn’t pass muster.

Now, there is one final theory: Theory Five. My friend, Patricia, the conspiracy theorist, swears by this one.

In this theory, the anarchists are getting paid. Most of them are out-of-work actors, transported in by shady characters connected to the New World Order. The idea is to create social unrest, paranoia, and racial anomosity all over the country. According to this theory, while some of the players are real (e.g. the Berkeley college students and the street thugs), the leaders and shakers creating most of the damage aren’t real anarchists.

This theory is offered some validity by some of the quotes by the anarchists. One female anarchist was quoted in the news as saying, “We are here to destroy capitalism, imperialism, patriarchy, racism, the police, and the military.” If these aren’t the rantings of some B list actress, I don’t know what is.

However, there’s a hole in this theory as well. Is this gig so well paying that the faux anarchists are willing to get tear gassed and arrested? Or are the police actors too? And, anyway, this theory is too creepy crawly to even contemplate.

So given all the possibilities, what do I think? I haven’t a clue. (2) I just wish that things would return to normal, or at least as close to normal as we get around here. I’d like to be able to go to Trader Joe’s without possibly ending up in lockdown.

And, even worse, the anarchists are corrupting the minds of all of those sweet, innocent university students who are joining in the pandemonium. The conversations of our cute young coeds have morphed from, “Why doesn’t Justin text me?” to “We are here to destroy capitalism, imperialism, patriarchy, racism, the police, and the military.”

Maybe some of us need to start a counterrevolution. Ours would be peaceful and lawful. And what would be our clarion call? Anarchists Go Home!


1. Blessedly, the rioting has cooled down, possibly because of the rain, and things at the moment have been restored to “normalcy.” Please pray that this continues.

2. What do I think is going on? Again, I don’t know. But the official story makes no sense. I don’t think that this “spontaneous” protest/rioting movement has been so spontaneous. Interesting, isn’t it, that the riots just so happened to coincide with the one week that the UC Berkeley students have off before finals? And though I’ve been here for decades, there’s never been anything like it — yes, a riot up on Telegraph every few years, but never in downtown, never involving thousands of people, and never a takeover of a freeway, Amtrak, etc. etc. This whole thing feels planned and engineered. But by who and where? That is the million dollar question.

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Stop Police Brutality!

You may be surprised that I’m saying this: but stop police brutality!!

I can’t take it any more. Day after day, from Berkeley to NYC, the police are being brutalized. The police — who by the way put their lives on the line for us everyday — are being spit at, cursed at, threatened, pummeled by bottles and rocks and bricks. Some are being injured and sent to the hospital.

Oh, by the way, all of this protesting is against violence.

You can tell that people are not operating in their right minds when none of this makes any sense. People are angry that people have been killed by the police. So they are rampaging banks, grocery stores, and Radio Shack (while picking up a few items for Christmas). Those enraged about the police are looting Whole Foods and imbibing champagne. To show their concern and love for humanity, they block freeways, major streets, the subway stations, and Amtrak, thereby causing massive traffic jams, and, in at least one incident, interfering with a woman’s ability to get to the hospital. (1)

Remember that they are protesting against violence.

To show outrage towards the treatment of the “little people,” the rioters shatter windows and trash the stores of big corporations, such as Trader Joe’s. (Earth to rioters: Do you think that Mr. Trader Joe is going to get on his knees to clean up the mess — or Carlos and Maria from the janitorial service?)

Of course, the major source of their rage is the police in Ferguson. And therefore they are assaulting the police in Berkeley, Oakland, Emeryville, etc. See the logic here?

I guess their viewpoint is that every police officer is a big, racist bully. But isn’t generalizing and stereotyping all police officers a form of discrimination?

Plus, when the ordinary resident around here criticizes the police, it’s usually because they are too nice. The police have taken so many sensitivity classes, some of us wonder if they know how to catch the bad guys.

Even by Berkeley standards, the behavior of the mobs is insane and criminal ( FYI: just assembling en mass without a permit is illegal). It feels like inhabitants have ingested some Kool-Aid, turning them into mad Stepford Wives. (Even though most people aren’t taking part in the bedlam, too many still support or excuse it, thus enabling the situation to be out of control.)

Blessedly, I must have missed the hypnotic trance that day. To me, it’s all a frightening, disturbing, and absurd spectacle, one that is wasting millions of dollars, causing massive disruption in services, redirecting the police force from actually policing (2), and injuring scores of people.

And it’s a completely unacceptable form of police brutality — one that our police force, every police force, and, in fact, every single human being on this planet — does not deserve. (3)


(1) A woman in labor wasn’t able to get to the hospital because rioters blocked the freeway. A couple of those big, bad police officers had to drive against opposing traffic on the other side of the freeway (putting their lives at risk) to rescue her and to get her to the hospital in time. Thanks to them, baby and mother are doing fine.

(2) From what I’ve heard, while all of this is going on, there’s more street crime, while police from all over the Bay Area are being diverted to mob control.

(3) If people want to peacefully and lawfully demonstrate, then they should absolutely be allowed to do so. But rioting has no place in a civilized society — though do we have one anymore?

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The Most Radical Act of All

Last Monday evening, I did something truly radical. No, it didn’t involve smashing windows, setting fires, or yelling obscenities at the police.

I went to church, a Catholic one, for the Holy Day of Obligation. It was for the Solemnity of the Immaculate Conception, for Mother Mary.

I didn’t have to go. There were a million reasons not to go.

First, I was tired and worn out after a long day. Plus, I’m not a Catholic, although I do love Catholic Masses, so my presence wasn’t required. And, finally, the church is a campus ministry and close to UC Berkeley and the scene of riots. But off I went anyway.

There were a good number of people there for the evening Mass, including many university students who regularly attend the large and spirit-filled church. And in time, even more people streamed in after work or classes. Many of the parishioners looked as sleepy as me, and there were a number of yawns during the service. And yet, we all showed up.

The Mass wasn’t particularly moving. The homily was a bit stiff. And yet something stirred deep inside of me during the service.

It was something about all of these people coming out on a chilly Monday evening, in the midst of riots and unrest. Here we were all gathered together, just a few miles from all hell breaking loose; and we were doing so for God, for Mother Mary, and for each other. . . and also because of an obligation to do so. And we were doing so on our knees, prayfully, peacefully, and humbly, in sharp contrast to the destruction nearby.

You see, Catholics have obligatory Masses they must attend, including feast days and Sundays. Several years ago, when I first heard that Catholics had Holy Days of Obligation, I was frankly appalled. “Obligation?” I thought. “I don’t think so,” which is partly what sent me running for cover to the more laid-back Protestants. Truth be told, I have never liked feeling obligated to do anything.

And yet over time, as I’ve attended more Masses, I have seen the absolute beauty of this type of obligation, the holiness involved in simply showing up when we are tired, when there are many other things we’d rather do. It makes me realize that we are all together in this experience called “life,” we are all part of this Mystical Body. And when one person is missing, the Body isn’t complete.

It’s like being part of a family, something else that I have struggled with. I’m not proud to admit this, but I’ve avoided more family gatherings over the years than I have attended.

But what I learned from going to that obligatory Mass on Monday is that we are all part of a family, even if we are strangers to each other. And families stick together, during hard times and good. We support each other; we tolerate each other’s flaws and idiocyncracies. And we show up, even when we don’t want to.

And then it hit me that Catholics all over the world were attending church on that very same day and doing the same thing; and that some people were putting themselves at even greater risk than us in Berkeley.

It all leaves me breathless thinking about what we are involved in, what we are a part of; something so big and powerful that no one can truly understand it. We are the true radicals, not the anarchists looting stores and blocking traffic.

What we did, what we do every Sunday, is perhaps the most daring action of all: showing up, for each other, for God. And somehow doing this in a Berkeley church, just miles away from the mayhem, brought this all home to me.

And if people from Berkeley to Missouri to Timbuktu took the same radical step, we could finally end the madness and mayhem. Because only through God, loving Him, and serving Him will there ever be any possibility of peace and unity on earth.

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When Crime Pays

When I was in my 20s, I was heavily involved in feminism. My main issue was violence against women.

I recall going to a Take Back the Night March in Manhattan in the l970s, when the city was a snake pit of porn palaces and sexual assaults. There were hundreds of thousands of men and women at the event. The march organizer received permits to block off the street (1), and we all chanted and held signs, lawfully. At the end of the march, we went home, hopeful that perhaps our efforts helped to combat sexual violence.

We were “protesters,” and “demonstrators.” We did our work peacefully and caused no problems for the police. It would have been really dumb, unthinkable, to protest violence with more violence.

And then we have the riots of 2014.

Now we live in a culture where the terms protester and demonstrator have taken on new meaning. With the rioting and mayhem in Missouri, Berkeley, Oakland, etc. the words are now used for out-of-control anarchy.

Apparently, many who are unhappy with the Ferguson decision are voicing their displeasure by destroying stores, overturning cars, burning property, doing widespread looting, trashing subway stations, taking over the freeways, and injuring people, including the police. They are supposedly protesting violence. . and yet doing so by being violent.

When I read about their actions, the media keeps calling them protesters and demonstrators. Aren’t there other words that are more apt, such as lawless mobs, criminals, rioters, terrorists, anarchists?

What’s happening in Oakland, etc. is a repeat of what has occurred since the 60s, that is, a small group of people being given carte blanche to rape and pillage. (Significantly, many rapes have occurred at Occupy events — so much for our march in the 70s trying to restore the dignity of womanhood.) The hard-core Left (2) seized control over Berkeley/Oakland in the 60s and 70s, creating a reign of terror for the innocent. Not much has changed since then, except the mayhem has spread all over the country to racially-motivated flash mobs and knock ’em down assaults.

Back in the 60s, there were some voices of sanity who condemned random violence towards the innocent, who assailed the destruction of other’s hard-earned property. We had Presidents condemn the mayhem. But no longer.

Now, most voices are silent. Either some people still buy into the adolescent idea that those who put their lives on the line every day for us are “pigs.” Then there are those people too terrified to open their mouths. It’s no wonder; they’ll be called truly vicious and defamatory names for doing so. And, given that so many in this country have lost their common sense, those who are victims of all of this destruction may feel that they are somehow to blame.

Of course, there’s the Left’s constant refrain: Police brutality; it’s all the police’s fault; they made us do it; they started it. Like a weak child unwilling to take responsibility for his action, the hard-core Left blames everyone else for absolutely everything. (Of course, should those same radicals need the police due to the astronomical amount of crime around here, they’d be the first to call upon them, and then complain bitterly when the police take too long to come. And, yet, maybe the long delays for 911 have something to do with decimated police budgets from all the rioting and Occupying.)

As I conclude this piece, I hear the sirens of an emergency vehicle blaring. It makes me wonder why. Is it the mobs continuing to riot? Will they come around where I am? One doesn’t know. And it’s that ability to cause terror throughout a population that is the Left’s piece de resistance.

But let’s tell the truth here. No, the people taking it to the streets aren’t protestors. No, they aren’t demonstrators. They are bullies, cowards, thugs, and opportunists: lost, angry, destructive people with no self-control, who are allowing themselves to be manipulated and controlled by the biggest radical of all. (3)

And, no, most of the people who start this mayhem aren’t even participating in the riots. They are the old Left, the Bill Ayers of the world, behind the scenes in their million dollar mansions engineering the destruction; and the young Left, instigating trouble through Facebook; and many faceless people and organizations kept secret. As in so many wars, the people who create it don’t usually get their hands dirty.

A young Juan Williams assailed this practice decades ago: that is, the Left’s using young black males as their foot soldiers. Williams demanded, in a fiery article back in the 80s, that white leftists stop using young blacks as their cannon fodder.

As I said, not much has changed since then.


(1) All of these so-called protests are unlawful. It is against the law to have huge crowds of people assemble without a permit, a rather salient point being ignored.

(2) Most residents around here consider themselves liberals or progressives, not Leftists. The radical Left is a small minority around here, and everywhere, for that matter. And most liberals and progressives do not believe in violence or engage in it. However, too many of them will excuse it for reasons that I’ve written about many times before: brainwashing, guilt, fear, still buying into the dream, etc. In my view, when we don’t condemn violence, however, we have some culpability in it.

(3) The Left’s darling, Saul Alinsky, dedicated his book, Rules for Radicals, to the biggest radical of all, as he called him, Lucifer.

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A Crime You Won’t Hear about

A high school teacher was shot and murdered the Tuesday before Thanksgiving at 3:30 p.m., while hiking in a popular park in the Oakland Hills, in a wealthy part of town. Articles describe him as an “upstanding citizen.”

But you won’t hear about it on the news. You won’t read about it in your daily newspaper.

The President won’t be scolding certain members of the populace about it.

The Attorney General won’t be investigating it.

No new laws will be passed to guard against this happening again.

Are the lives of some victims more valuable than others?

And the madness continues.

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Freedom and Slavery

In these post-modern times, people regard themselves as truly liberated. Because they can engage in wild and extreme behavior, they think they are free men and women. But the truth is that they are enslaved.

I’m talking about slavery to sin.

Now this may sound as Neanderthal as it gets. I probably sound like the silly Church Lady from Saturday Night Live. Our “post-Christian” culture tries to erase what is as obvious as the nose on our face: that humans are prone to sin. Every culture throughout time has known this and has tried to protect people from themselves.

Actually, Americans still believe in sin, although sin now means something completely different from the past. What is now considered sinful behavior is being “racist,” “intolerant,” a “hater,” (whatever those words now mean).

But what about real sin, true sin, the kind that destroys the spirit and weakens the body? These are no longer considered misdeeds. In fact, in our Orwellian world, soul-destroying behavior is viewed as good. It’s good to hook up with a stranger and have random sex in a random park. It’s liberating for a girl to pull up her top in a bar. Having anonymous sex, lots of sex, group sex, sex that involves bruises and welts, these are all signs of freedom.

And where does all of this “freedom” lead? HPV virus, herpes, trichinosis, chlamydia, AIDS, genital warts, unintended pregnancies, syphilis, and gonorrhea.

Are we having fun yet?

There’s not only a physical fallout but profound emotional and spiritual ones. Meaningless hook-ups produce an abject loneliness that pierces the soul and can lead to hopelessness and despair. At our core, we are meant for relationships, not drug-infused intercourse with a stranger or a casual friend. Human beings are only happy when we feel loved and valued and respected. And this doesn’t happen in the parking lot of the local pub.

What we have today — what is called freedom or fun or sexual liberation — is actually a form of slavery. It’s sexual slavery, although much of it is voluntary. (One, however, wonders how voluntary it is for our youth, who are subjected to relentless social conditioning by the media and deluged with naked pictures from their phones and computers. And young adults and teens don’t want to be accused of the cardinal sin for their age group — being uncool.)

And yet there is another way.

If a person is truly interested in freedom, there is only one choice, and that is God. But God is now mocked as was the Church Lady; He is viewed as a big spoil sport, when girls and boys just want to have fun. But the only true road to liberation is through God, by God, by serving Him. . .. and pleasing Him. And we all know in our heart of hearts what behavior pleases and offends Him.

God offers us everything that our ravenous souls need. He is the only source of life and joy. Everything else leads to death. There is no freedom apart from God, and no peace. He is the source of all hope, of everything that opens the heart and transforms mind. What we have hungered for is waiting for us right this minute with open arms if we only had the courage to look.

Ask yourself these questions: Are you enslaved? Are you free? If, for you, empty hook-ups are the road to liberation, God gives you the freedom to choose this path. But God also offers each and every one of us a radically different way.


Note to Readers: I know what I’m writing about. I’m a victim of the social conditioning of the 60s and 70s, and, only through the grace of God, am I alive to tell the tale. As a survivor of those out-of-control times, I will tell you that none of it was worth it. I have the physical and emotional scars to prove it.

God is always ready to welcome us back into the fold and to make us whole again. But for your health and your well-being, I’m here to warn you: don’t wait too long.

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It’s Been Lovely But I Have to Scream Now

If you spend any time around Berkeley, you can’t help noticing how noisy the place is. There’s a constant cacophony of sound. Earlier in the week, I saw a white guy yelling at the top of his lungs, scattering a gaggle of young boys who were standing near him. Yesterday I heard a black man going ballistic, frightening a couple of elderly ladies. (Which just proves that Berkeley offers equal opportunity lunacy to people of all races, creeds, and colors.)

But it’s not just the certifiably insane who shriek around here at the top of their lungs. People can start hollering for no good reason.

Road rage is a big one. If someone does something to offend another, he will be treated to the F bomb and other socially inappropriate gestures. If the aggrieved one has had a particularly bad day, he may storm out of his car and go postal on the other person, acting as though the driver had just massacred his entire family (or, even worse, voted for a Republican). If a pedestrian walks too slowly in a crosswalk, a driver may explode for being delayed another 15 seconds.

Aside from road rage, there is always the possibility of a stormy, mob protest for any random reason: an unpopular jury verdict; tuition increases at the university; if the local medical marijuana dispensary raises its prices.

The BART trains rumble; Amtrak blares its horns day and night; music is played at eardrum-destroying decibel in stores and restaurants. . . the noise pollution never stops. Sometimes it gets to me so much that I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, “SHUT UP!” (but then, of course, I would be hollering like a lunatic as well.)

Many of the citizens fight back by creating their own, virtual noise: talking on cell phones and cranking up their IPODS. It’s no wonder; why wouldn’t a populace under constant siege want to tune it all out and reside in one’s own Private Idaho?

Although this pandemonium is business as usual around here, none of it is normal. Continual, overstimulating, and, at times, menacing sounds keep a population on edge. No wonder people around here need a never ending stream of massage therapists, Reiki practitioners, aromatherapists, and acupuncturists to try, in vain, to calm the system down.

What is actually normal and healthy for human beings is some quiet time to restore feelings of well-being and safety: to allow the jaw to unclench and the neck muscles to soften. This might mean some time unwired to tech to smell the roses and admire a new baby. Only through having some peace and quiet can we engage with ourselves and other people.

But, more importantly, we can only hear God when we silence the mind. When we are constantly assaulted by noise, how can we hear the gentle whisper of God? How can we discern who God is and what He wants for our lives? And, yet, our culture tries every which way to distract us and keep us estranged from God.

Maybe there’s a reason for this constant noise, after all.

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If You Don’t Have a Sense of Humor, It’s Not Funny

There are so many things that get under my skin around Berkeley: the crime, filth, and trash; the road rage; and the naked people. But one of the most irksome is that so few people have a sense of humor.

Imagine living in an area where you have to screen every potential comment for racial, gender, and transgender sensitivity. And every time you dare to open your mouth, there’s a pretty good chance that someone will shut you up.

For instance, I was at the bank last fall when we were having a string of lovely, warm days. Amiably, I said to the teller, “It seems like we’re having an Indian summer.” To which the well trained, young white male responded, “Hm. I wonder if the term, ‘Indian summer,’ is racist.” To which I swiftly reacted, “Oh, please. I am so sick of political correctness. It’s a nice day out, okay?”

None of it was funny.

Now if you’ve been paying any kind of attention the last few years, you’ve probably noticed the same thing: that those on the left are generally humorless. And when they joke, the humor is often vicious, such as making rape jokes about Sarah Palin and trashing her Down Syndrome child. Then there was Newsweek’s light hearted romp entitled, “Killing Granny.” But real, refreshing, clever humor? Hard to find.

And that gives you a hint of what it’s like living around Berkeley. You can walk the town, have a mocha expresso at a Peet’s coffee house, attend a lecture at UC Berkeley. You’ll see plenty of people adorned with Che t-shirts, solemnly reading about Trotsky. But you’ll rarely see a smiling, laughing face among them.

The young males out here aren’t laughing. How can they laugh when the young women berate them for being “gender insensitive” every time they open their mouths. The young women aren’t laughing . . . they’re too busy scrutinizing others’ speech for possible gender insensitivity. The older folks are too busy glaring at those who dare to throw out a plastic container.

It’s not the fault of all Berkeley-ites. Some of them, I’m sure, were laugh-out-loud hilarious when they lived elsewhere. But there’s just something about this place: a dark cloud of doom and gloom hovering over everyone, even on a bright and sunny day. Maybe it’s the unbearable urban stress, with its astronomical housing costs and bumper-to-bumper traffic sure to erase any hint of a good mood. Then there’s the radicalization of the population, where previously upbeat people turn dour as they are continually reminded of all of the injustice in the word.

For me, it’s been a struggle to maintain my sense of humor. Fortunately, I grew up in a family where my parents were always laughing, “kibbitzing,” as they called it. My father, especially, was a natural born entertainer. Mom was more the “straight man,” acting wacky and thus providing ample material for dad’s jokes. While my father’s constant joking with everyone was wearisome when I was young, now I savor recalling his joie de vivre.

The vibe in Berkeley wasn’t as bad when I first got to here in the 80s. There was a modicum of humor until critical theory and critical feminism and critical everything swallowed up any possibility of fun.

I still recall going to see a lesbian comic 20 years ago or so, with the room packed with lesbians. The crowd was howling with laughter as the comic gently teased them about their lifestyle and relationships. (It’s probably not a coincidence that I haven’t seen that comic perform around here for a good many years.)

And then there was “Pat” on Saturday Night Live, from the l990s, who was a popular, recurring character. Played by Julia Sweeney, Pat was a gender ambiguous man/woman who kept the audience guessing about whether he/she was a man or a woman. Do you really think that in these gender-paranoid times, Pat would be allowed anywhere near SNL?

But life is dry and lifeless without a sense of humor. It’s why every culture has had its share of jokes, including ethnic ones. I recently read about a comedienne bemoaning the intolerance now towards any ethnic jokes. Didn’t we all hear and make Italian/Irish/Polish/Jewish etc. etc. jokes growing up and didn’t we all somehow survive?

As Wavy Gravy once said, “If you don’t have a sense of humor, it’s not funny.” Wavy Gravy was the clown at Woodstock. Ironically, he once lived in Berkeley, and I used to see him parading around town in his clown suit from time to time, laughing and waving at people.

But I haven’t seen him anywhere around here for a very long time.

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The Cost of Doing Business in Berkeley

Today is a sad and painful anniversary for me. Twenty years ago, I was mugged in broad daylight after leaving a restaurant on a bright, sunny autumn day. I was injured and left for dead in the middle of street. It is only by the grace of God that I am alive to tell the tale, for He gave me the superhuman strength to get up off the concrete, and He sent me two of his lovely people to help me.

Of course, there wasn’t even a teeny tiny mention in the local newspaper about what happened. Being a victim of crime around here is as commonplace as the ubiquitous scam artists and the madmen screaming at the top of their lungs at the demons in their heads.

In the world of business, there is an expression, that unnecessary expenses are just “the cost of doing business.” When it comes Berkeley, the black eyes and broken noses, and much much worse, are simply the cost of living in or anywhere near Berkeley.

All of this carnage is a well kept secret. You won’t read about it in the San Francisco Chronicle or in the glossy SF Magazine. You won’t hear about it from the locals, or learn about it if you and your offspring take a UC Berkeley college tour. If a resident dares to mention it, there is immediate denial, obfuscation, and words designed to silence, blame, and shame the victim, e.g., privilege, social justice, imperialism, and the like.

There are no Occupy movements around here protesting the obscene amount of violence; no citizen uprisings, even when victims are women; children; gays viewed as easy targets; college students who come here hoping to become part of the dream; Asian immigrants, who escaped brutal regimes only to find more brutality in Berkeley.

There are no shout outs, no righteous indignation, no tears and no grieving when people are robbed not just of their belongings but of basic dignity. Of course, those same deluded victims will oftentimes excuse the act and defend the perpetuators as victims themselves, thus enabling this vicious cycle to continue.

Silence can be both a beautiful and a deadly thing: silence is beautiful when beholding a sunset, or a new baby; or when worshipping God and feeling His Presence. But silence can be repugnant and deadly, too, such as when the truth is suppressed through bully and fear tactics. Dare to speak out about an obvious fact — the astronomical black on white/Asian crime — and you’ll be called a. . . well, need I say more here? We all know how the game works, the thugs more than anyone else.

Instead of speaking the truth, new versions of reality are constructed; for instance, that no one in the whole wide world is luckier than those of us in Berkeley; and, that we are special, set apart from the unenlightened heathens, with their big families and noisy children and their churchgoing and all of those ridiculous flags displayed on the 4th of July.

Although the amount of mental illness, depression, drug use, muggings, rapes, and general heartache around here far surpasses anything seen in flyover country, still the myths are promoted and embraced. In place of the child never birthed or the love of one’s life never found, these myths keep people in Berkeley warm and secure in the dead of the night.

The suppression of truth in the Bay Area, supposedly the most open-minded place on earth, reminds one of larger suppressions, for instance, in Communist China. There the state runs the news outlets, which are carefully monitored. And then there’s the old Soviet Union, and how, even today, dissidents beg the US to have their papers published or housed in libraries, only to be rebuffed over and over again. Some secrets, I suppose, are too hot to touch.

Berkeley, Oakland, SF are a lot like that: full of secrets, mythology, and outright lies. For instance, no one dare tell the real story behind those fabled anti-war and civil rights movements of the 60s, for instance, the misogyny and the brutality towards women, much of which spawned the angry feminist movements of the 70s.

But the truth about Berkeley, both then and now, is like a third rail; no one wants to touch it, not even with a ten foot pole. In most residents’ minds, the mayhem and madness are no big deal; they are simply the cost of doing business and living around Berkeley. But for some of us, there is an untold cost, one that we can never get over, not even after 20 years.

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Wild Nights are Calling

And all the girls walk by
Dressed up for each other
And the boys do the boogie-woogie
On the corner of the street

And the people, passing by
Stare in wild wonder
And the inside juke-box
Roars out just like thunder

And everything looks so complete
When you walk out on the street
And the wind catches your feet
And sends you flying, crying

Wild night is calling

–Wild Night, Van Morrison

Like most of us, I have sweet memories of my childhood Halloweens. I still have photographs of my various girlie outfits, such as dressing as a princess or a fairy. But come adolescence, my peers and I were over Halloween. We saw ourselves as too grown up and cool to adorn ourselves in silly costumes. Same with college. . .as well as onward into adult years. Halloween was child’s play, a time for kids to just be kids.

Fast forward a few decades. Now Halloween is no longer a day focused on the children. The teens and the adults have gotten into the act. At some point, Halloween became a Wild Night for adults of all ages to let their primitive impulses run wild. College girls unleash their inner hookers, as do some of the boys as well. Playboy bunnies, strippers, French maids. . . nothing is off limits as Halloween becomes about pure, decadent fun.

Of course, it’s also okay nowadays to mock political and authority figures on Halloween; nothing is too mean-spirited as to be off limits. Growing up, it would have been unheard of to scorn those in authority with a contemptuous costume. But the 60’s ended all of this, with its animosity towards police, the military, and anyone else who takes on a grown-up role.

Robert Bly, in his insightful book called the Sibling Society, says that we’ve become a society of siblings, with very few people willing to step up as true men and women. I imagine that in your neck of the woods, there are many grown-ups; perhaps you are one of them. But out here, it’s perpetual adolescence, and a holiday like Halloween magnifies this. Throughout society, it has become harder and harder to find true blue adults. And those who take their places as society’s elders open themselves up to humiliation and scorn.

Why has all of this happened? Why such a drastic change from what was the norm for centuries, that is, appropriate boundaries between the young and the old? There are so many possible reasons why. Of course, the 60s unleashed a genie in the bottle of primitive impulses, most of which are not healthy for self or others. The music, media, and schools have all programmed people to believe that anything associated with the older generation is bad.

But along with the social engineering, there are, I think, other, deeper reasons for the forever Peter Pans. It has to do with un-anchoring people from the parts of life that offer meaning and hope: God, faith, family, love of country. With people left to fend for themselves without any belief system aside from their own, they are untethered, lost. Deep inside, they remain terrified about life and maybe even more than that. . about death.

For so many people this one, precious life means only the now, pleasure, fun. Halloween personifies what we have become as a culture and a people: stunted, shallow, self-indulgent.

Halloween is no longer about children having a sweet, little holiday all of their own. On this day, many lost and lonely souls will create a different persona than their own. . a mask to hide behind, and an outfit to crawl into because this life, and feeling so alone in it, evokes the scariest of emotions. And those emotions are far far, scarier than any Haunted House on Halloween.

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Who Are You?

Every day I get a bunch more people registering for my blog. Even though I’ve gone through long periods without writing, even though my blog is as bare bones as you can get, still I keep getting new registrants. It makes me wonder, “Who are all of you?”

Of course, I could find out more if I posted comments. But been there, done that. The problem with the back and forth dialogue, as wonderful as it can be, is that for a minority of folks it’s a hate-a-logue, with language that would have gotten the mouth washed out with soap in the olden days. So discussion is not on the table for the moment. As Carly Simon sang, “I haven’t got time for the pain.”

So I’ll just have to wonder. I see that you all have usernames and email addresses, which tells me that you’re real, not some computer glitch. It’s kind of amazing to think that you’re out there, and have somehow found your way to my blog. You even took the time to register. It makes me feel a bit like Sally Field in her famous Oscar speech, when she gushed, “You like me, you really like me.” [except, in my case, for the people who hate me, you really hate me.]

I wonder if you have been keeping an eye on me since I wrote in the past. Or maybe you did a google search, “Most horrible place to live in the USA,” and somehow my modest blog about Berkeley et. al, popped up.

So I’m thinking about you all today, feeling grateful, and a bit humble, that you’ve taken the time to sign on. Again, it makes me wonder: who are you? How do you spend your days? What and who do you love? What gives your life meaning and purpose deep in the darkest night, when hope can feel so distant and life, overwhelming?

Having you with me, reading my rambling thoughts about this, that, and the other thing makes me marvel at the connection among all of us. Even if we exist on opposite sides of the political fence, or on opposite sides of the country, we’re all together in this strange and magical thing we call life. We’re all in the Body together. You might be the hands; I might be the voice; someone else might be the feet; with God being the connective tissue that keeps us all nicely stitched together, as much as we sometimes try to bolt.

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Real Men Don’t Yelp

Everyone is Yelping these days, that is, using the website, Yelp, to play critic. But in my opinion, the name “Yelp,” is a misnomer. Instead, it should be called “Whine.”

Because that’s what most people do on Yelp, complaining about this restaurant or that physician’s office. As a bumper sticker I saw aptly put it, “Yelp. Ruining small businesses since 2004.”

Take “Becky from Oakland.” She ordered her burger from the local bistro medium rare, but it came well done. Did she politely speak to the waiter? Complain to the manager? Try to work things out like, I don’t know. . . a grown up?

No, Becky typed out an incendiary attack against the restaurant and posted it on Yelp. In that moment, as Becky seeks revenge for her disappointing dinner, the restaurant owner isn’t a person like her, someone with dreams and feelings. He is just a vehicle for her to unload frustration and bitterness.

Yelp plays to basest instincts for vengeance, imparting a false sense of power and bravado. In that online moment, Becky becomes a mini, online Rambo.

Then there’s Jim. He didn’t like the attitude of the person at the local dry cleaners so decided not to use them. Rather than simply bringing his garments to another shop, he gave the place (which, by the way, he never actually used) a nasty review and one star. In the age of Yelp, business owners can’t be in a bad mood because of a troubled marriage or a sickly child. Every potential customer is now a Secret Shopper, scrutinizing all possible wrong moves.

I suppose Yelp isn’t all that different from many sites on online, with the trolls and the hostile, sometimes obscene, comments. Virtually, people can brandish words like knives to attack anyone who dares to disagree. It’s all anonymous, of course; one can say things that would never be allowed in polite conversation. And the recipient of the abuse isn’t a quite a person, but an objectified, disembodied thing, someone different than oneself.

Maybe I’m touchier about the subject than others. My father owned a very small store post-WWII, when leases were easy to get and red tape nil. I can still recall the worried dinner conversations between my parents when business was slow. My dad fretted not just about our family, but the families of his employees. It hurts to imagine how many lives could have been ruined if Revenge of the Yelpers had existed back then.

Because ultimately, it’s not about burgers and fries or dry cleaners; it’s about something deeper and more essential: dignity, and a culture bereft of it. No longer do we treat each other with basic dignity. The business owner isn’t someone’s father or mother, not a person trying to carve out his little piece of the American dream. No, the other is an obstacle in our way, a barrier to our achieving our own perceived rights and privileges.

I propose something radically different, something that harks back to a bygone era, that is, the one prior to the creation of the World Wide Web. How about if someone has a problem with someone else, that he speaks to them? If Becky doesn’t like her burger, she should send it back. Speak to the manager, if necessary. Worst comes to worst, she can order something else from the menu.

How about if everyone stops Yelping and Whining, and returns to talking to each other with basic respect. We’re all in this human soup together.

In my opinion, real men (and women) don’t Yelp. And real human beings don’t seek revenge on each other, by trying to destroy reputations and businesses on impulse. Real people see that we are all connected in some mystical way that none of us can really understand. And when we operate out of anger and a thirst for revenge, ultimately the person we destroy is ourself.

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Check Out Time at Berkeley’s Hotel California

There she stood in the doorway
I heard the mission bell
I was thinking to myself
This could be Heaven or this could be Hell
Then she lit up a candle
And she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor
I thought I heard them say
Welcome to the Hotel California.. .

This is the sad tale of a friend of mine. I’ll call her “Jane.”

Jane came out to Berkeley from a small town in Iowa. She was raised with home grown values: church, school, wholesome activities, and respect for others. An excellent student, Jane chose a prestigious university, Cal Berkeley, for her doctorate in education.

It was hard at first for Jane to get used to what is commonly dubbed, Berzerkely. Jane was surprised by the roughness and the toughness and the whole urban vibe. The road rage scared her, as did the psych patients who torment residents on the street. Eventually, she got used to it all, and what once seemed abnormal was now the new normal.

A year after moving here, Jane met Brian, a native of the area. The two of them started dating and within a year they were living together. Brian was very different than the boys at home: he loved to party late into the night at SF clubs. He also abused drugs. Soon the two of them were using ecstasy and coke. Jane’s grad school studies suffered as she existed under a continual haze of substances.

When Brian wasn’t around, Jane hung out with other boys. She had a few random hook-ups, something that she never did in her small town. Some of the casual encounters ended badly, for instance, the guy who stalked for her for weeks afterwards.

With Jane’s grades plummeting, her advisors spoke to her and told her that she would be expelled from her program unless she cleaned up her act. Unfortunately, Jane was too far gone at this point. She was advised to leave school, and Jane left Berkeley and returned home.

Jane’s story may seem far fetched, unbelievable. How can someone come to the SF Bay Area a relatively stable human being and end up in the drug and hook-up culture? Well, I am here to tell you that I’ve seen many Jane’s (and John’s), a few with even worse stories. For some, the temptation may not be drug and booze but the very dark underground sex scene, with its whips and chains and leather. Then there are those hook-ups with random strangers, as well as the ever present polyamorous and/or gay scenes. Some people don’t get involved in high-risk behavior, but become depressed, even suicidal, from the nihilistic spirit around them.

Such a lovely place
Such a lovely face

It’s not just the females who can go spiraling downhill. Plenty of males get into behavior they’d never even consider at home. The problem with Berkeley is that behavior unacceptable in Kentucky or Utah is not only tolerated here, but promoted — with no accountability.

No activity is too extreme. . . and there’s no reason to feel any shame about living like some sort of baboon in the wild. And if a previously stable person like Jane could spiral downward, can you imagine what happens to the more vulnerable? They, of course, find unlimited ways to feed destructive tendencies.

Mirrors on the ceiling
The pink champagne on ice
She said, “We are all just prisoners here, of our own device.”
And in the master’s chambers
They gathered for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives
But they just can’t kill the beast
Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
“Relax,” said the night man
We are programmed to receive
You can checkout any time you like
But you can never leave.

Luckily, Jane’s story has a happy ending,

When she left Berkeley and returned home, her sanity was soon restored. Before too long, she snapped her out of her hypnotic trance altogether. She found a great job, friends, and a man who treated her right. Now married with three children, Jane looks back on her time in Berkeley, as in, “What on earth was I thinking?”

Not thinking is Berkeley and SF in a nutshell: people can become so intoxicated by all of this so-called “freedom,” that they are no longer rational human beings. Even though troubles keep mounting, they continue to indulge every primitive impulse and twisted passion. They just can’t stop themselves.

Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year
Any time of year
You can find it here

But the happy ending to Jane’s story is proof positive that one can snap out of the delusion that is Berkeley. The key is to check out of the Hotel California before it’s too late. Given the severe housing shortage around here, this Hotel may appear like the only affordable digs in town. But it comes with a gigantic price. For some people, it is their soul.

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How Berkeley Has Made Me a Worse Person

It was a classic case of road rage that I engaged in not that long ago. It happened when I was running late and en route to a doctor’s appointment at a nearby suburb.

I was in a rush; I was wrong. . and I was lucky. Had I been in Berkeley or Oakland, I may not be alive to tell the tale.

Details aren’t important (and way too embarrassing to recount). Let’s just say it involved lots of road rage on my part, such as, leaning on the horn and making various gestures. (Proof positive that you can take the woman out of Berkeley — but not the Berkeley out of the woman.)

After I arrived at my destiny and my tantrum dissipated, I found a parking space in the medical pavilion. Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you look at it), the driver of the car in front of me was also going to the same address and parked a close distance from me.

Legitimately angry, the suburbanite headed over to me. He chastised me and asked why I kept honking at him. I immediately said that I was sorry. Luckily, he accepted the apology and walked away. I felt appropriately embarrassed and contrite.

Many inspiring stories have been written by survivors of catastrophic diseases and other near-death experiences about how the event made them a better human being. I take my hat off to all of them. But from what I witnessed from me that day in civilized suburbia, Berkeley has made me a worse person.

Now it would be very unfair to blame my bad behavior completely on Berkeley. No one forced me to lean on the horn. But there is something contagious about all the anger and negativity a person is subjected to on an almost minute-by-minute basis.

It’s probably not a coincidence that before heading off to the civilized suburb, some crazed driver swore and honked at me — for no good reason. So I started out my trek in a bad mood. And not a day goes by that someone isn’t shouting and gesticulating madly at each other.

It’s not just driving that inflames the temper around here. People can become unhinged for the slightest reason. A line that takes too long; an appointment that isn’t at the desired time; someone (horrors!) trashing a plastic bottle; anything or anyone can make someone go off the deep end.

To me, Berkeley isn’t just one of the most dangerous areas of the country — it’s one of the saddest. While all of this insanity is taking place right before our very eyes, residents maintain that they live in a sane and safe. . no – a superior part of the world. At least the residents who have the misfortune to live in downtown Detroit are under no illusions that they are “lucky.”

It’s like the story of the Emperor with no clothes. Somehow most Berkeley-ites can look beyond the trash-filled streets, the continual street harassment, the sky-high crime rates, and the hellish schools to boast about their great fortune in living around here. I suppose the alternative is to have to accept that one’s utopian dreams and aspirations are all a figment of one’s imagination.

That day in the suburbs, I had a glimpse of how the other half lives — and a reminder that what is considered normal in Berkeley is not. It was startling and humbling to spend time in an area so different than Berkeley and its surroundings. People were polite — and even smiled. No one looked so tense and frustrated that they were seconds away from blowing a gasket.

On the line at the lab, in fact, several people even joked with each other and laughed. This was a complete culture clash for someone who has spent decades operating Berkeley-style: avoiding all eye contact and assuming the worst about the next stranger.

I realized that while negativity is contagious, so is positivity. From my time in the ‘burbs, I felt more relaxed for the rest of the day. I found myself smiling at people, and being a more considerate driver — even when I got home.

The good news about my bad behavior is that I had the sense to apologize to the other driver. And I experienced quite a bit of healthy guilt afterwards about my immature outburst. I’ve also made it a point since then to try not to be another enraged Berkeley resident. I’ve had my ups and downs on the way. . but I’m trying.

So maybe Berkeley hasn’t made me such a bad person after all.

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Parents, Don’t Let Your Children Grow Up to Be Berkeleyites

There once was a popular Indian teacher named Papa G, who drew students from far and wide. People flocked to see him and hear his words of wisdom. One lucky man who was able to attend one of his retreats spoke to Papa G, with camera in hand. The visitor asked the guru what he’d like to say to the multitudes all around the world vying to come to India to see him. Papa G smiled an impish grin and said, “Stay home.”

Papa G’s words remind me a bit of Dorothy, who journeyed all around Oz, only to find that the best place of all was home. This isn’t to say that relocation isn’t sometimes in order. It may be better, at times, to move somewhere different, to see the world, if only to return, as Dorothy did, with a fresh set of eyes. But the point I want to make here is don’t, and I mean DON’T, come to Berkeley.

OK, if you want to do so for a day or two, maybe a week, come on by. Walk the mean, lean streets of Telegraph, Shattuck, and University Avenues. . hang out in SF (our “open psychiatric ward”). . .check out the drug-addled folks at People’s Park. . . and then you can judge for yourself. If you agree with me, don’t, I repeat, DON’T, let your kids or anyone else you care about move here.

I say this even if you have to practice the toughest love imaginable with your beloved progeny. If your son or daughter insists that they want to go to UC Berkeley or SF State, do a Nancy Reagan: Just Say No. I realize that, if they are over l8, they are free agents. But you still have power over the purse strings. If you won’t contribute a dime to their education, they may reconsider.

I don’t say this to be harsh; but to give you advice that may be some of the best you’ve ever heard. It comes from someone in the trenches, who came here and has since regretted it as one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I suppose I should have gotten a clue when the first moment I landed here, a straggly, homeless guy was clearly eyeing my backpack. It was only my New York City street smarts that prevented him from obtaining it.

Now, in my ripe older years, I may not be able to get out of here so easily, unless I win the lottery (which I suppose I’d have to actually play to win). But at least my time here wouldn’t have been wasted if I can warn a few people.

And if you are already here, go home! If you have a parent somewhere else, a distant cousin twice removed, it doesn’t matter, go live with them for a while until you get situated. This is not a good place to settle down. In fact, it is one of the darkest places around.

Stay here long enough, and you may be mugged, maybe worse. Certainly you’ll have a close friend who will be. Rampant street crime is an ever present reality here, like the much heralded fog.

Or, if not outright bloodied, your car will be stolen or burglarized along with your phone and/or computer. (A recent study showed that the Bay Area boasted most of the cities with the highest car thefts; just another reason for the ordinary citizen to feel proud!) Perhaps even worse, you may become so psychically numb that when you see an old man with a black eye, or hear of a friend with a concussion, you’ll just pass that off as part and parcel of living in such a “wondrous” place.

There isn’t just street crime around here, as bad as that is: there’s violence so sinister that it’s pure, unadulterated evil. A teacher beat up by students in her own classroom. A high school girl gang raped and beaten unconscious by a gauntlet of boys. An elderly woman raped, beaten unconscious, and dumped amidst the pile of old tires at a car repair station (she died after being in a coma for a year).

All this crime has been covered up, by the way, by people who don’t want to see what they don’t want to see, and, therefore, have their balloon busted or (God forbid!) witness their real estate values plummet. This is nasty, vicious stuff that can only be explained by a dark force so powerful that it’s controlling much of the place.

It’s not a coincidence, I think, that the Church of Satan opened in SF in the 1960s (the “Hotel California,” was purportedly written about the “church.”). And Patty Hearst was kidnapped in Berkeley, around the same time that the city of Oakland was held hostage by the mayhem of the Black Panthers and other radicals. This area has a long history of extreme violence, much of it excused and tolerated. Not much has changed.

I don’t get the allure of this God-forsaken place. . .oh, wait, yes, I do! It drew me here decades ago. But one of the saddest sightings is a teenage, hippie couple sitting on the streets of the filthy downtown or Telegraph Avenue. They came here from a decent place like Minneapolis with high hopes of peace and love and flowers in one’s hair. Their haunted faces show what they found instead.

Your son or daughter or your beloved nephew may have heard the same hype, that the Bay Area is a truly happening place to be. As I said, reality is suppressed and reconstructed. But if your loved ones are California Dreaming, there are far saner locales. Check out the private colleges down south, as well as nicer public ones: UC Davis, Santa Cruz, Santa Barbara, San Diego, UCLA.

But there’s something menacing in the air around Berkeley, and it contaminates the whole place. Mark my words: if you child comes out here, he will change. Even if he doesn’t become part of the darkness, something inside of him will die. Perhaps it’s his spirit or his innocence; but the light inside of him will dim. It may revive if he has the wherewithal to get out of here before it’s too late. But he may never be the same.

So I say this, not simply as someone coveting all the nonexistent parking spaces. I speak out as a veteran of a war that no one seems to know is going on. Parents, don’t let your children grow up to be Berkeleyites. Remember the immortal words of Papa G, “Stay home.”

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Sounds of Silence

Unless you’re a rich cat living high up in the Bay Area hills, most people around these parts hear the BART trains day and night. The sound may be background noise if you’re far from the tracks. If you’re close by, the noise can stop conversation and interrupt sleep. The sound of BART is just one of the many indignities that Bay Area residents face in their extraordinarily overpriced dwellings.

Yet, the other night, as I was quietly thinking and meditating before bed, I noticed that the air was thick with silence, and yet the reason escaped me. I am surrounded by very noisy neighbors. Had the whole crew of them gone away on a 4th of July sojourn? And then the realization hit me: the BART trains are on strike.

It was a strange feeling to realize this. .. an unsettling mixture of relief (finally, some blessed quiet!) and also fear, foreboding, a strange, almost apocalyptic, feeling. It was like the silence bellowed, “This is what it will be like at the end of the world.”

That type of penetrating silence can make a person wonder: How will this world end and when? No human being has any idea when, though some have tried (unsuccessfully) to predict it. I have no inside knowledge. However, things are so bad in this country, so insane and out of control, that one has to wonder when that final tipping point will be crossed.

I wonder what the sound will be like when this world system ends: will it be noisy, as in mass hysteria and chaos; or it will be like the eery and unsettling silence that I experienced the other night? So many people feel unsettled these days. I hear it from people all the time — something just doesn’t feel right, though they don’t know what it is; and then there are others with a pasted smile on their faces or a blank look, who would never admit it, but somewhere inside, in a place they only travel in their dreams, they know it too.

And, perhaps I’ve heard too many conspiracy theories, but I have to wonder if the whole thing is rigged, BART and everything else; if this subway strike, rather than being about money and pensions and other nickle-and-dime issues, is really about social control. Are we in the Bay Area, home to so many social experiments, being manipulated, like puppets on a string, to see just how much pummeling we can take? Are the endless traffic jams and the daily indignities of life in a major metropolis a daily way to remind us how insignificant we are and how significant they are?

And I think of the national push for public transportation; how people are cajoled to get out of their cars and hop on trains and buses. And yet ironically, tragically, those same obedient people who try to save the environment by enduring BART and our bus systems (with their unpredictable eruptions of the deranged; or the more routine leering and touching by the indecent) are being punished by not being able to get where they need to go.

And I envy people in other parts of the country, those saner locales, where people don’t depend on public transit — or insane highways — to get to where they need to go. Amazing to think of people simply getting into their cars, driving on clean, pothole-less roads and — voila! — in less than a 1/2 hour, they are at work, without getting into verbal or sometimes physical altercations with their fellow drivers.

Yet, here, it’s a full-time job to actually get to work, a form of twice-daily Mortal Combat, with Bay Area warriors battling traffic and other angry drivers, all suspended together in space in a kind of Kafkaesque nightmare. It’s one of the many assaults on the spirit of dwelling in the Bay Area (A tax on paper bags? Really?) which most people cover over with a smiley, “But we’re so lucky to live here!”

This mindset has been called by many names before (“Groupthink,” “mass delusion,” “Stockholm Syndrome”), where people come to accept, even love, their oppressors. Perhaps it’s simply denial. Human beings are simple creatures; we don’t like to see what we don’t like to see.

Meanwhile, what I sense deep down in my bones is this: something doesn’t feel right, it isn’t right, both in the SF Bay Area and all over this country. I’m not saying that it’s Apocalypse Now. I have no special knowledge or insight about such things. All I know is that a creepy silence has descended on this particular area, but not a comforting one as some silences may be. In fact, this one feels downright deadly.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

“Fools”, said I, “You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you.”
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls”
And whispered in the sounds of silence

(From the song, Sounds of Silence)


I hope this piece finds you well.

You may be wondering about my own sound of silence. I’m okay: stressed, but blessed. I’ve felt moved to write many times but. . .ultimately, what is there to say? Those who have ears will hear; those with eyes that can see, will see.

Unfortunately, I’m unable to post comments at this time.

Best to you and yours.

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Old Friends

My best friend has been stricken with a catastrophic illness. If the doctors are right (and I keep praying they are not), she will be gone within a few, short years. In the meantime, she will lose all her faculties, including her mental ones.

My friend, “Teri,” is not just my closest friend, but one of my oldest ones. We met the first day of college, and were joined at the hip from that moment on. Other people knew that if they invited Teri to a party, I would be coming as well. Guys wouldn’t be dated unless they passed muster with the other of us.

We told each other all of our secrets, which were many back in the day. Having been raised on sex, drugs, and rock and roll, we did all sorts of things we shouldn’t have, took all kinds of ridiculous chances. And we confided all of the details to each other.

After college, we grew up and moved away from each other. But that didn’t stop the intimacies, and the sharing. We’d speak by phone each week, even as life became more difficult and complicated.

I dealt with various medical issues, as well as a mugging on the mean streets of Berkeley. She had the trauma of nursing her husband through a fast-growing cancer, which left her alone to raise their young son. Fortunately, Teri had her inner resilience and a close extended family to help her through.

Her son grew up to be a happy and confident young man, now starting graduate school. Teri managed to put the pieces together of her life, finding another soulmate. They made each other incredibly happy, having found love again in their later years. And then came the diagnosis, a year ago this last fall.

Her love still comes by, though her foggy brain is having trouble placing him. Teri is losing so much so quickly, but the hardest one is that she’s losing her will to live. I pray for her every night, that she knows that God hasn’t abandoned her. I pray that somehow there’s a miracle, and Teri gets better. I pray for her family, for her son, that they get through this ordeal intact. Mostly, I pray that Teri, a nonbeliever, finds her way to God before the end is near.

A few months ago, I saw an article in a magazine on how to relate to people whose minds are being ravaged by a disease. The author suggested using photographs to help the person to remember.

Towards that goal, I assembled a bunch of pictures of Teri and me throughout the decades. I put them together in a photo book, and wrote next to each picture. I’d write, “Here’s you and me and that hot guy, Jeff, that you dated.” Or, “Here we are looking all young and happy, the world being our oyster.”

I can’t ever imagine losing Teri, not just her but someone carrying our memories. I need someone else to hold with me the remembrances of when we were young, when we were carefree and naive, of all of our adventures and misadventures. I suppose I will one day be the one to hold the memories myself, which I will carry as close to my heart as I possibly can.

I recall reading a poignant book by a man who was suffering from ALS, another devastating disease. He talked about being at a party once and looking around the room, and realizing that in time, every one of these people will be gone, including himself. Even though this realization is common sense, it shocked me at the time, startled me back into reality from the sense of denial that most of us live in.

I have to wonder what the world would be like if we all contemplated this fact every day: that everyone will some day be gone. I wonder if small things would bother us as much; if people would be at each other’s throats politically, rather than realizing that we’re all in this world together?

Would there be such random violence, the flash mobs, the “knock ‘em downs,” the domestic terrorists, if people understood how precious this life is; and that one day it will all be gone and our actions will be judged? Would we overlook an opportunity to be kind and loving if we understood the true nature of this existence?

Sadly, it often takes disaster to snap us out of denial; it generally takes a loss or a potential loss to make us realize what life is really about: love and truth and strengthening our relationship with God every single day. And that true love never dies; that it remains alive in our hearts even when bodies turn to dust.

These days, my conversations with Teri have radically changed. I end every conversation with Teri by saying, “I love you.” And, when she is able to, she says the same thing back to me. When she feels so despairing that she doesn’t know if she can go on, I remind her, “You’re my best friend; I need you. Remember, we never went anywhere without each other.”

I’ll end here with the words of an old Simon and Garfinkel song that keep ringing in my ears:

Time it was,
oh what a time it was,
It was.
A time of innocence,
A time of confidences.
Long ago,
It must be,
I have a photograph.
Preserve your memories,
They’re all that’s left you.

“Bookends,” Simon and Garfinkel

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“Watch for the Man in the Boat”

I was asked recently what advice I would give to someone who was curious about religious faith. I responded that the person should go to a church, any church; that the experience would be different than he thinks. I related my positive encounters at church — how warm and welcoming were the congregants.

Afterwards, I thought of another piece of advice I would give to the inquisitive person. I’d say, “Watch for the man in the boat.”

This advice comes from a teaching story I once heard, years ago, on a Buddhist retreat. Here is the tale:

There is a major storm coming to a town, and the residents are advised to evacuate. A car drives by a neighbor’s house, and the driver yells out to the neighbor. “Do you need a ride?” The man declines, saying, “God will save me.”

The rain becomes fierce, and now the town is flooded. A neighbor paddles by in a boat. He asks the man if he wants to get onboard. The man answers, “No, God will save me.”

The man’s house becomes so flooded, that he seeks safety up on his roof. A helicopter flies by, with the pilot yelling out, “We’ll lower our ladder so you can get on the copter.” Again, the man declines.

Eventually, the man drowns, and goes before God. The man angrily asks God why He let him die. “I’ve always been a righteous man. I never missed church. Why didn’t you save me?”

God answered, “I sent you a man in a car, and a man in a boat, and a man in a helicopter.”

This story always touches my heart. It reminds me of all the times when we expect God to announce His presence through some grand gesture. In the meantime, we may fail to see Him in everyday life — and in everyday people.

It’s also so easy to feel abandoned by God when life becomes difficult. If things don’t go our way, our faith can waver. And yet one thing I am certain of, with every fiber of my being: God is always there, always with us; we just have to open our eyes to the magic of this world.

Personally, I have so much to be grateful for this holiday season. I am particularly grateful to readers like you. You have helped to save me. You have been the men (and women) in boats.

I’m grateful to you for sharing your insights and knowledge. But most of all, I’m thankful for your kindness. My life has been infinitely changed from knowing you.

On the surface, of course, my life isn’t any easier. If anything, I have greatly complicated it.

But, as I grow each day in my incipient faith, I try to remember that with God, everything is possible. When I’m weak, He will send me a man in a boat. I just need to notice when he comes.

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The Real Revolution

I was driving through a rough and tough part of Oakland this morning. I don’t generally travel there but was en route to a doctor’s appointment.

It was a part of Oakland under siege: with no businesses to speak of; where drive-by shootings are common, and drugs, gangs, and thugs rule the streets. As I drove down the busy avenue, I (as well as everyone around me) shut my windows tightly, locked the doors, and made no eye contact with absolutely anyone.

But when I stopped at a red light, I saw an unusual sight: a black man on the corner, bellowing something at the top of his lungs. Actually, this isn’t all that strange a sighting since the crazed and drug-addled will often start yelling, both in Oakland and Berkeley.

But this man was well-dressed, and he also had something rarely seen around here: a light in his eyes. Curious, I took the risk to lower my windows and listen to what he was saying.

Standing amidst the druggies and the passersby averting their eyes, he yelled, “I am different than you. I have God in me. I am a changed person, and you can be too. You can have all your sins washed away right now, just like that.”

Excited, I looked at him and smiled. Though there were hordes of people and cars around, we locked eyes. Although we were strangers, I recognized him, and he recognized me.

Speaking even more forcefully he shouted, “Don’t you want to be forgiven? Don’t you want the love and the hope that can only come from God? Come to God right now. Let Him deliver you.”

We locked eyes again, and I gave him a big thumbs up. Looking pleased, he returned with his own thumb’s up, and continued his message even stronger and louder.

When the red light changed to green, I slowly made my way up next to him. Now I had both my side windows wide open. I waved and he waved back; and he shouted to me with great warmth, “I love you!” My eyes filled with tears.

Where in the world could you see such a sight, of a black and a white stranger communing in a dark, foreboding part of town? And where else would you hear a black man tell an unknown, white woman that he loves her?

There’s only one place — and that’s in God’s grace. There’s only one avenue for true unity and love, and that is God’s mercy. No other vehicle or channel exists.

The left’s philosophy of racial unity via billy clubs is criminal. The true revolution will not come from flash mobs, or Facebook insurrections, no matter how many people lie bleeding.

Force is easy; it’s the tool of cowards. But real power? True power only comes from God.

And that is why my brief encounter with the street preacher moved me so: because I saw in full technicolor, the power of God to change lives and to move mountains.

When God shines His light on us, He brightens the darkest part of town. Black and white and yellow and brown can unite as one, but only if the great conciliator is God.

Because, as the wise street minister preached: it is only God who can heal. It is God alone who can wash away our shame, guilt, grief, and brokenness, and make us whole again.

So I say this directly to you: If anything I have written resonates, even a teeny bit, don’t ignore it. Don’t push what I’m saying under the rug. Don’t wait for a rainy day.

Because one thing is for sure: everyone on this planet will one day breathe his last breath. And we haven’t a clue when that moment will arrive.

We don’t have a minute to lose to restore ourselves before God.

And this: our world desperately needs as many bright lights as possible to illuminate the way during these dark times.

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The One We’ve Been Looking for All Along

I just became a statistic: one of the thousands (millions?) of people whose email address get hijacked by spammers. I discovered this by getting some rejected mail from some of those spammers.

What a creepy world we live in; we not only can fall victim to a random street crime (always a risk in broad daylight around Berkeley); there are knock ‘em down “games” by hoodlums. And now we can fall prey to online criminals, who want to steal our passwords or even our identities.

As for the latter, I’ve had that happen a few times too. It’s another disturbing experience to get a phone call from, say, Bank of America, telling you that someone applied for a credit card in Las Vegas in your name. While, in the past, there were only limited ways a criminal could abuse you, now the possibilities are infinite.

If you’ve read my articles before, you know that I have decidedly mixed feelings about all technology. On the one hand, the computer is wonderful, for instance finding information censored by the MSM. It’s also a way to reach out and touch people all over the world, such as I’m doing right now by writing this.

But just as there are good people on the streets of Berkeley and New York, there are a lot of bad people as well. And this is true about the Internet; there are those using the new technology to help humankind. And then there are those dirty, rotten scoundrels who have no qualms about ripping people off, virtually.

The older I get, the more I become one of those people nostalgic for the “old days.” Of course, those days had their problems as well (though, at this moment, I’m hard pressed to think of anything).

I always shock young ‘uns when I tell them what it was like back in the day: For instance, telephones were landlines, with no answering machines. Either you answered the phone or not. And if the person got a busy signal, you know what? Everyone lived.

I still recall when I first moved to Berkeley thirty years ago and got my first telephone here. Those were the days before toll free numbers and customer service assistants from India.

I went over to the Pacific Bell store in North Berkeley, and patiently sat down and waited my turn. When the salesman assisted me, I had my choice of phones (they were free back then), as well as my pick of phone numbers.

It was the same scenario when I set up my utilities: I went to storefronts, met with live people, and made a human-to-human connection.

I can still remember when things changed: when corporations started gobbling each other up, and 800 numbers became the norm. Rather than interacting with a warm body, you called some phantom person somewhere in the United States. Of course, this has morphed into calling cheap labor oversees. How bizarre and unsettling that people all over the world have your personal information — social security number, mother’s maiden name — at their fingertips.

Most young people these days are fine with all of the virtual people in their lives. And some prefer as little contact with human beings as possible; face-to-face interactions are becoming more foreign and uncomfortable.

There’s a wonderfully wise and witty book on the subject, Talk to the Hand. It’s written by an older woman, who also grouses about how alienating is this Brave New World. She thinks that this dependency on computers has made millions of people functionally autistic. They can message people all over the world, but they don’t know how to look into another’s eyes.

I was talking to a new 50-something friend about this subject the other day, about how strange is the world we live in. We have two worlds to contend with: the real one and the virtual one, and it’s getting harder and harder to tell the two apart.

My insightful friend responded, “There are only two things that I know to be true. One is what is happening right before my eyes. And the other is God.”

So what is real? What is worthy of our constant attention? Is it World of Warcraft, X Box, CNN, or MSNBC?

I think it’s as my wise friend said: only this precious moment is real. . .and God. God is steadfast and unchanging; He is the only anchor in life’s turbulent storms.

And He is here, right now, just waiting for us to awaken from our lifelong slumber. All we need to do is take a moment and look. He –not Obama, not Biden, nor any human being — is the One we have been looking for all along.

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Are We Living in a Post-Christian World?

A friend’s daughter startled me the other day. It was when I asked her if she’s chosen a name for her baby yet.

The woman, whom I’ll call Traci, is due to deliver her first baby any day now. She answered that she wasn’t sure about the name yet but, “One thing we do know is that it won’t be a name from the BIble.”

I asked her why and she shrugged, as if it were a no-brainer. “Because, of course, we’re living in a post-Christian world.”

I’d never heard that term before and it stunned me. I thought about it afterwards. A post-Christian world? What does that mean? And what are the implications here?

I suppose Traci means that she’s a postmodern girl, and has grown beyond any rules or definitions. She and other Post-Christians (PC’s) don’t need gender or anything else, like capitalism; they have no use for the traditional family. They don’t need God and His repressive morality. They don’t need anything but. . .well, what do they rely on actually?

Now this is where I got stuck. If the post-Christian generation doesn’t need anything, not even God, what do they need? What do they rely on; what comforts and nurtures them. . who do they turn to; who do they cry out to, when life becomes all too much?

I suppose they’d say that they rely on “science,” but Darwin and Stephen Hawkings provide limited solace when tragedy strikes. Perhaps they’ll point to social justice missions as their reason for being. However, they’d have to turn a blind’s eye to what happens when humans play God, as in the old Soviet Union, the “People’s Republic” of China; and North Korea.

Perhaps the Post-Christians rely on their bodies, on pleasure. They bow to the god of the Kama Sutra, an Eastern spiritual guide to great sex. But again doesn’t this only go so far? And the unbridled pursuit of pleasure leads to unforeseen consequences: diseases that injure and even kill; one-night stands that hurt body and soul

Maybe the PC’ers would say that they rely solely on themselves. However, how would this work? There would be times they’d be vulnerable, such being blindsided by the news of cancer. And if they choose to just depend on human beings, all of us will age and become ill and die someday, them included.

Perhaps the PC’s have constructed their own religion; they worship the Kabbalah, or the goddess, or Eastern deities, like Shiva or Krishna. Maybe their devotional practice is pagan; they bow to animals, nature.

But aren’t all of these false gods just a weak substitute, a way to fill what St. Augustine called the hole inside one’s heart without the one true God. I suppose it’s hard for the young ‘uns to look into the future. But eventually they’ll become older, hungrier, wondering what this mysterious existence has all been about.

While the PC’s think they’re creating a newer, better world, I have to wonder whether they’re doing something completely different: whether they are, in fact, dragging us backwards in time, to a pre-Christian world. They are forcing us back to a time before Christ came.

They may idealize the pagan years, but there were countless of child sacrifices to the gods. There were many thousands of animals killed, which the eco-freakos and the animal rights advocates among us would not have liked one bit.

Women, and others, were routinely stoned back then for such infractions such as adultery. It was Christ who intervened and uttered his famous words about those without sin casting the first stone. He saved the woman’s life and he did so, significantly, without laying a hand on the persecutors.

The PC’ers are operating under a delusion: that the world was superior before Christ. That people were happier, merrily loving each other, in a utopian existence. It’s a similar myth that progressives of all ages embrace about the 60’s. The old timers look bad fondly at the “good old days.” The young ones erroneously believe that the hippie and radical movements were times of liberation and magic.

Conspicuously missing from the stories is how the Black Panthers created a reign of terror over the SF Bay Area; how innocent people were murdered in bombings; how women were raped in radical movements.

It’s an immature view of the world; one that is frozen in time, like one of those sci fi movie where people never age. Now everything is about immediate gratification, whether it’s checking Facebook yet again, or procuring another bong hit, with an anomymous partner, or some Internet porn.

The PC’s are like thirsting people, standing knee-deep in a free water stream, with all kinds of succulent berries nearby. They need only bend down and drink.

The succor is God, not the pagan one, not the god of nature nor the god of sex. There is only one God who satisfies, who fills the hunger, who offers solace when the worst of life happens and you find yourself devastatingly, frighteningly, alone.

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America’s Baby

March 25, 2011

I don’t like horror flicks and avoid seeing them. However, I recently made an exception and rented the 1960’s classic, Rosemary’s Baby. (Reader Alert: Movie Spoiler)

I saw the movie sometime after it came out, though I was only a teenager.  I can’t imagine how shocked I must have been.  I grew up secular, with no education about God and evil. The movie confused and horrified me.

And yet, the movie wasn’t graphic at all, not the way horror flicks are today. The 60’s was a completely different time, film-wise, before blood and gore were flung in your face — in 3 D. The horror movies back then were understated, subtle, which allowed the imagination to run wild. And, in many ways, this made the films even creepier.

I’m in a time in my life where I’m reading everything I can about spiritual warfare and good and evil. So I wanted to give Rosemary’s Baby a second look. It has got to be one of the most powerful — and spot on — movies about evil ever made.

There were so many touches that would have been lost on me even a year ago.  For instance, Rosemary was raised a Catholic, but her faith had wavered. It would have been a different movie had she been a devout Catholic, rather than a vulnerable young woman, without the protection of God. If she had been Catholic, the film would have been about the desecration of the church. But with Rosemary as a lapsed believer, the message was about how easily people can be violated and duped when they are spiritually unarmed.

I also noticed some fascinating moments, such as when Rosemary’s husband hides the book she received on witchcraft. The camera lingers over other books on their shelves. There are two books by Kinsey, both on male sexuality. I wonder whether the writer of the film, Ira Levin, knew that Kinsey was a pervert, or whether Levin was making inferences about the danger of unfettered male sexuality.

The movie is even more disturbing in retrospect, since we know the evil that befell some of the main players. Only a year after the film was released, Director Roman Polanski’s wife, Sharon Tate, their unborn child, and several other people were victims of the most demonic mayhem and mutilation possible at the hands of Charles Manson’s “family.” How strange that Polanski made a movie about the Devil, and then endured the agony of having his wife and unborn child brutally savaged in a manner that could only have been inspired, if not engineered, by Satan himself.

Polanski himself was no angel; years later he fled the country after purportedly drugging and raping a l3-year-old girl. Also, in his early 40’s, Polanski had a sexual relationship with an actress from one of his movies, who was about l5 years old.

Rosemary was played by Mia Farrow, who cohabitated with Woody Allen, a grade A slimeball himself. Farrow discovered nude pictures Allen had taken with the daughter that they were both raising, Farrow’s adopted child, Soon-Yi.

And finally, for another macabre fact about Rosemary’s Baby, it was filmed in and around the Dakota, the apartment building where John Lennon and Yoko Ono lived. Tragically, Lennon was murdered right outside of the Dakota by crazed gunman, Mark David Chapman.

Rosemary’s Baby author, Ira Levin, was inspired to write his book upon hearing about the creation of the Church of Satan. (Which I’m proud (not) to say was started in San Francisco.) Levin accurately foresaw what would happen if Satanic forces were unleashed, while “God is Dead.” This phrase is from the infamous cover of Time Magazine, an issue that Rosemary peruses in her doctor’s office. It’s also the statement bellowed by one of Satan’s followers during the jaw-dropping, climactic ending of the film.

While the film twists and turns in complicated ways, the message of the movie is quite simple. Without God, we are all vulnerable, not just a young woman like Rosemary, but every one of us. And not simply people, but this country and our entire world.

It’s not a coincidence that Rosemary is chosen to be violated and used in the most demonic manner imaginable. Rosemary is unsealed; she lacks the armor of God. Consequently, she is utterly unprotected.

There are no humans that can protect her. Her husband has such a lust for fame that he offers her up for this ultimate desecration. Even the doctor to whom she turns in utter desperation, and with whom she finally feels safe. . .he delivers her into the Devil’s hands. Without God, Rosemary is completely exposed to evil.

Several decades have passed since the release of Rosemary’s Baby — and Time Magazine’s proclamation that God is Dead. Many atheists celebrate the untethering of people from the grip of God. But what have been the results? Wickedness and depravity that no one would have believed even in the l960’s.

Back then, we would have been incredulous to learn that girls would be gang raped, and their assailants would upload the footage on Facebook. Or that child and violent pornography would be available in seconds with the click of a mouse.

It would have been inconceivable that female conservative politicians would be verbally raped and threatened (it didn’t happen back then) — or that people could pen rape jokes and obscenities and other vileness and then simply load it onto the computer or text or sext it.

Rosemary’s Baby was a cautionary tale of what transpires when people abandon God. When people are left to their own devices, they create a hell on earth, just like Rosemary’s next door neighbors. We don’t have to look any further than the evening news to see what has happened to America’s Baby.

But the good news is that things have gone so far south that many people are turning back to God. I hear it all the time: people returning to church, or those, like me, attending for the first time. Even Rosemary cried out for God, though it was too late.

She pleads, “God help me!” at the end of the movie. One of the demonic people shuts her up, telling her that God can’t help her now. And that turned out to be true for Rosemary, as the movie closes with the implication that she was joining with the forces of darkness.

But that doesn’t need to be the case for the rest of us, for America’s Baby. Not if we have the courage and the wisdom to wake up and seek safe shelter — the only iron-clad protection in this universe — before it’s too late.

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Faith Versus the Evil Eye

In many cultures, there is the concept of the Evil Eye. Unfortunately for me, Judaism is one of them.

Not every Jew grows up believing in the Evil Eye. However, many of us do, especially those with immigrant parents or grandparents from Eastern Europe.

I actually never heard the term, the Evil Eye, until adulthood, when I met another Jewish friend, Barb, in my 20’s. I casually mentioned to Barb that she was lucky not to have caught a nasty flu virus that was going around. Barb responded reflexively by shushing me. When Barb saw my puzzlement, she explained that I must not say such things because of the “Evil Eye.”

Barb explained to me the meaning of the Evil Eye: as Jews, we cannot say something positive or we will tempt fate. The Evil Eye will react by making our worst fears come true. Thus, if I assert that Barb is fortunate flu-wise, the next day she’ll be as sick as a dog.

Barb helped crystallize for me what I experienced growing up, though I didn’t have a term for it. The concept of the Evil Eye explained so many of my family’s odd rituals and belief systems.

While my family never used the term, the Evil Eye, we lived our lives in fear of it. Like Barb, we were discouraged from being optimistic. I had always thought my parents were pessimists; but I realized they were just being superstitious. My family was engaging in an ancient folk ritual to ward off evil spirits.

I do recall my mother frequently talking about a “Kana Hara,” which is another Jewish superstition, a kissing cousin of the Evil Eye. Kana Hara is a Yiddish word for a jinx. By saying or doing something, one may bring on a Kana Hara, that is, a curse.

So, for instance, if my father mentioned that a friend needed surgery, my mother would exclaim, “Kana Hara,” and then spit over her shoulder. (Some Jews throw salt over their shoulder instead.) Whenever we drove past a cemetery, my mother would utter, “Kana Hara,” and then spit. She was attempting to mitigate the bad omen of driving past a gravesite.

Now in some ways this would simply be fascinating to me, grist for the psychotherapeutic mill. The problem, however, that in the past year, I am cultivating a spirit of faith. And everything I learned from my family runs counter clockwise to a life of faith.

For instance: Trust the Lord Your God with all Your Heart and all Your Soul. The ritual of the Evil Eye proscribes doing such a thing. In fact, as the superstition goes, if I dare to express such a desire and wish, the Evil Eye may punish me.

Or if I articulate my gratitude for all of God’s blessings, well that pesky Evil Eye may pay me a visit: “You think you’re so happy. Well, I’ll show you who’s in charge!”

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. That kind of devotion could invite all sorts of trouble. Expressing gratitude each day for the blessings of my life? Uh, oh; the Evil Eye may teach me a lesson.

On the one hand, I understand how absurd is this way of thinking. It assumes that human beings have more control than we do. Interestingly, though, the power doesn’t come from thinking good thoughts or from our relationship with God. Our supposed power arises from repelling evil forces by assuming the worst.

However, the good news is that I’ve already started on the road of faith. I’ve done all kinds of things I’m not supposed to: praying to God, and asking Him for help; praising the Lord with all my heart. And somehow, someway, I’m still alive to tell the tale.

What I realize is this: my family turned to superstitions like the Evil Eye and Kana Hara because they lost their faith in God. Sadly, so many Jews abandoned their religion amidst the atrocities in Europe. Having no Higher Power to protect them, they turned to rituals that offered an illusion of safety.

But I don’t have to live my life this way; in fact, I’ve already left much of this mindset behind.

I can make a radically different choice: to embrace God; and to remember that He is the supreme Force over evil, not humans beings, no matter what words we say or how we say them.

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Faith Like Potatoes

As a new believer, I’m starting to pick up on the language and the concepts; and I’m even, to my surprise, beginning to quote Scripture. But what is the hardest for me is cultivating faith.

This comes, I imagine, from growing up with parents who were serious control freaks. It’s no wonder given their harsh upbringing. Both of my parents were raised by Jewish immigrant parents from Poland who trusted no one. I received that message loud and clear: only rely on myself and don’t make mistakes. In essence, be my own Higher Power.

Of course, perfection is impossible and has led me to become a bit of a control freak myself (okay. . . a big control freak!). However, trying to be perfect has been an exercise in futility. No one is without flaws; we aren’t meant to be.

I’ve been thinking a lot about control and surrender, and the struggle to let go and let God, as the expression goes. And I’ve been especially pondering this after seeing an exquisite movie, Faith Like Potatoes.

I found the film in, of all places, the remainder section at Staples. I assumed it would be sweet, though a bit saccharine. I was wrong; it’s actually one of the most stirring and beautiful movies I’ve ever seen.

Faith Like Potatoes is the the true story of a white farmer, Angus Buchan, who, against all odds, successfully grows potatoes, and other crops, in South Africa. He and his wife and their gaggle of kids flee Zambia after a number of racially motivated murders. They arrive in South Africa to find the same dangers there.

Frustrated, angry, and drinking to excess, Angus is at the end of his rope. Though a staunch atheist, he agrees to attend a church service, where he responds to God’s Word.

Not only does Angus’ newfound faith transform his outlook, but he becomes a fervent evangelist. He travels around Africa, Europe and the U.S. to bring people to God, but also to try to heal the racial divide. (Incidentally, there’s a fascinating documentary about the real family in the Special Features section, which shows footage of a huge, healing event Angus conducted for South African whites and blacks.)

To me, what is most evocative about the film is how Angus’ conversion made him place his trust unconditionally in God. Consequently, he takes all kinds of risks because he believes that God is guiding him. One such risk is growing potatoes during a severe drought, where farmers are even losing their hardier crops.

Angus grew the potatoes not just for food, but also to demonstrate the power of faith. When farmers mock him for trying something so foolhardy, Angus explains that potatoes, like God, requires belief; since potatoes are well hidden in the soil, one must trust that the elements are working their magic.

I would love to experience this unwavering faith, though it feels alien to my life story. I wonder: Is it possibly to cultivate the steadfast faith of a person like Angus Buchan? I suppose that even asking the question is a display of emerging faith. Because, deep down inside, in a place that I’m just finding access to, I realize that God has been leading me and carrying me all along.

I will say of the Lord, ”He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Psalm 91:2

Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, “Move from here to there,” and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20


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My First Christmas

As a Jewish child, I never celebrated Christmas. I found out what I was missing on Christmas Eve, 1973.

My high school boyfriend, Brian, invited me to join his family for their celebration. The event floored me. It wasn’t just the illuminated tree, the music, and the pleasure of opening gifts. It was the power of the holiday to transform Brian’s ordinary family.

Laughing, singing hymns, praying — they were absolutely radiant. I had never seen them so joyful. And in their presence, I felt joyful, too.

That was my one and only Christmas experience, and it never occurred to me to have another one. But this year’s Christmas felt different. This year, I purchased my first Bible. And I’m now blessed with having friends, both virtually and in real time, who are believers. Given that God has taken center stage in my life, I decided it was time to celebrate another Christmas.

I searched the Internet and found a large Catholic church the next town over. My plan: come early and sit inconspicuously in the back row. I didn’t want to make a fool of myself. I’d never been to church before, and I had no idea what to do.

With my plan firmly in place, I was as excited as a little kid about attending the 5:00 pm Family Mass. I couldn’t wait to see the Nativity play, both for the adorable children and because I was a bit fuzzy on the plot.

I arrived, parked, found my way into the chapel (is that what it’s called?), and sat down in the last pew. As I watched the immaculately dressed families pouring in, I noticed my first faux pas — a fashion one. I had dressed all in black, while the other women looked resplendent in festive colors, especially red.

I wear a lot of black. It befits not only my salt-and-pepper hair, but also my somewhat edgy New York Jewish vibe. But here, I looked positively funereal. Luckily, the only witness to my gaffe was a very shy five-year-old girl sitting next to me, who looked pretty in pink.

Needing to use the bathroom, I planned to slip discreetly in and out of the room. I walked outside, and had no idea where was the bathroom. After I wandered around aimlessly, the priest himself escorted me to the restroom. I’m sure we were a sight: me in black; him adorned in crisp white robes.

In the bathroom, a woman smiled and introduced herself as Cathy (everyone was so nice and friendly, a radical departure from typical Berkeley life). She asked me whether the other priest was feeling better. The following conversation ensued:

Me: I don’t know. I’ve never been to this church before.

Cathy: Oh, really? Where do you usually worship?

Me (stammering) Well. Actually. I’ve never been to a church before.

Cathy: (puzzled) Oh. Are you here to see one of the children perform?

Me: No. (I want to give her a clear explanation, but given that I don’t know why I’m here, my mind goes blank.)

Cathy: (thinking deeply) So, you’ve never been in a church but decided to come here on Christmas Eve.

Me: Yes. (Her explanation was simpler than the one I would have given: “I’m a cultural Jew who’s never been to a synagogue and then I practiced Buddhism for twenty years, but that left out the God part. And then I became a conservative and now I have all these beautiful Christians in my life, so I decided to attend a mass.”)

Cathy looked at me strangely, but finally uttered an enthusiastic, “Good!”

Given that my plan to blend in wasn’t working, I headed back to the shelter of my pew. I buried my head in the — whatever they call it — the book of songs that’s in the wooden cabinet. (Catholics have a name for everything, and I know none of them.)

I was jolted by a tap on my shoulder. A stressed-out woman who looked to be in charge asked, “Will you hand these out?”

Incredulous, I could not speak. She repeated, slowly now, as though addressing a child: “Will you stand in the aisle and hand these out when people come in?” As if in a dream, I rose from my fortress and took the hundred or so pink brochures while she sped away. I opened the booklets and saw that they contained lyrics to the hymns.

Trying not to panic, I thought, “I can do this. I’ll just imitate the other ushers.” I looked around to observe the others in action. But there were no other ushers. I was the only usher.

Given that I had never been in a church, I was clueless about my role. Should I act like a perky WalMart greeter: “Welcome to St. Luke’s!”? But how could I, who basically wandered in off the street, welcome parishioners to their own church?

Okay, I thought, don’t freak out. I can do this. As a family walked in, I started to say, “Hello, would you like a…?” and then paused. What were these things called, anyway?

I racked my brains for words used by my new Catholic friends: Eucharist, Communion, Homily. So, what do they call the music?

Finally I just said, “Hi, would you like the music for today’s mass?” which was a mouthful and caused some confused looks, but it was the best I could do.

The next thing I knew, I was the go-to person. People started asking me questions: how long would the mass last? Was that row reserved? Are photographs allowed? Of course, I couldn’t answer any of them.

Suddenly, I started laughing at the absurdity of my plight. I realized that God had a playful sense of humor…and that he seemed to be nudging me right into the fold.

I then saw Cathy, from the bathroom, standing in the back watching me with amusement. Wearing some type of robe herself, she clearly was a lay leader in the church. She appeared to find my transformation from clueless visitor to usher quite the mystery.

Just as my gig was winding down, the coordinator returned. With most of the congregation seated, she asked me to encircle the entire church, ensuring that everyone had a brochure.

When she saw my look of raw panic, she took the brochures out of my hands and did the job herself.

I decided to go out into the vestibule for a few minutes to get my bearings back. After taking a few deep breaths with my eyes closed, I was already feeling better.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that a crowd had formed in front of me. Someone politely asked me to move. I had no idea what I was doing wrong. I was simply standing in front of a pretty fountain.

I moved away, and observed that the congregants touched the water in the fountain and crossed themselves. Note to self: Blocking the holy water is another church no-no.

The service was about to begin, so I sat down and watched. It was a magical night, as enchanting as Christmas Eve with Brian’s family. I especially loved observing the children, adorned in their holiday finest. Rather than squirming and fussing, they were riveted. They, like me, knew that this night was special.

To my amazement, the painfully shy child sitting next to me came out of her shell. She started singing her heart out. She was even praying like a pro.

Beyond the music and pageantry, what moved me the most was being with hundreds of people who loved God. Maybe some were questioning His presence or feeling abandoned. But they showed up, and that’s half of life.

It was a stirring night for this wandering Jew who has traveled from east to west, from Left to Right. As the Sufi poet Hafiz wrote, “This moment in time God has carved a place for you,” and sitting in the sanctuary, I felt that place.

Even though I didn’t know the right words, or the hymns, or how to pray, it didn’t matter. All the differences among people — race, class, politics, even religion — vanished. God, I realized, is the ultimate uniter.

And in a heartbeat, I understood why leaders from Marx to Mao try to keep people away from God, and why they always fail. I flashed to an image of those mothers who somehow find the superhuman strength to lift up a car and free their children.

On Christmas Eve, I learned that this same unstoppable power exists inside all of us, even someone like me. As Jesus himself taught, faith the size of a mustard seed can move a mountain.

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The Sociopathic Epidemic

I’m amazed by the soothsayers: Ayn Rand, for instance, who warned us fifty years ago of the risk of dictatorship or civil war if collectivism persisted. Or economist Friedrich Hayek, who wrote in the 1940s that we’ll become serfs if we move toward big government.

However, what feels most prophetic lately is an obscure movie from the l970s called Little Murders. The writer, Pulitzer-Prize-winning cartoonist Jules Feiffer, predicted that the ’60s would unleash a feral, primitive society.

The movie has a checkered history. It started out as a play on Broadway in the mid-’60s that was such a bomb, it closed after seven performances.

Audiences were shocked and horrified by the apocalyptic world presented. At the time, New York’s elite were celebrating the sexual revolution and the loosening of social mores. In contrast, Feiffer envisioned an eventual train wreck — a nihilistic world of little and big murders of the soul.

The failed play was relocated to England, where it became a big hit. It was produced for the big screen in 1971, starring some fledgling young actors, such as Elliot Gould, Donald Sutherland, and Alan Arkin. A dark comedy, Little Murders depicts a society gone mad, replete with frequent homicides and crushing insults to the spirit. The film’s moral compass is Patsy, a young woman who still bubbles over with optimism and love amidst the madness.

(Warning: I’m going to spoil the ending.)

By the end of the film, when Patsy is killed, her family finally cracks. They, like so many others, degenerate into a violent, ape-like state.

I’ve been thinking about the movie this week and the nightmare-world Feiffer forecast after learning of a horrendous crime near me in Richmond, CA.

There’s so much crime out here that most of the time, the residents are numb. We have waves of takeover restaurant robberies and you barely hear a peep.

And when a teacher was beaten and stoned a few months ago during her class at Portola Middle School in El Cerrito (minutes from Berkeley) a small article was buried in the local paper. Many in the leftist community defended the youths as victims of white privilege, and some even blamed the teacher.

But then, last weekend, there was a crime so evil that no one could brush it off.

At a homecoming dance at Richmond High School (in the same district as the middle school stoning), a fifteen-year-old girl was beaten and gang-raped for over two hours while a crowd from the dance watched, laughed, and photographed the scene. No one called the cops.

The girl was left unconscious, dumped under a bench. She had to be airlifted to a specialty hospital.

The so-called experts fault the usual suspects: absentee parents, indigence, drug-infested schools, and herd behavior. One teacher indicts the media’s sexual exploitation of women.  A parent of one of the arrested youths blames racism. But there was hardship, alcoholism, bad parents, sexism, and teenagers fifty years ago without such mayhem.

And many other countries have worse poverty, but lower crime rates. It’s easier to blame society than face the deep, dark truth: we’ve created a nation filled to the brim with sociopaths (also known as antisocial personalities).

I recently read a book called The Narcissism Epidemic. It reports the high number of narcissists among the young and contends that their condition is aided and abetted by self-esteem training.

True, but the theory feels a bit dated. The biggest danger now is a sociopathic epidemic.

While narcissists are selfish, annoying people, their humanity is still in place. They possess a conscience and can feel guilt and shame. Many people in power have some degree of narcissism.

Sociopaths are a different breed entirely. Here are some common features: callous disregard for others, superficial charm, pathological self-centeredness, lying and manipulation,  irritability and aggression, lack of remorse or guilt, cruelty, ingratitude, and antisocial behavior.

How did this happen, the metastasizing of an antisocial tumor?

Feiffer’s Little Murders offered some clues over forty years ago, such as self-worshiping, moral relativism, and rejecting God and religion.

The movie also sounded an alarm about the resurgence of the Left. The film’s most prescient moment is when Patsy’s husband, played by Elliot Gould, recalls being a college radical who has a change of heart.

In a darkened room, he gravely says to Patsy, “You shouldn’t destroy institutions until you know what will take their place. You might find that you will miss them when they’re gone.” Seconds later, Patsy is shot.

The Left has destroyed the structures uniting this country since its founding. Now, the rules of morality that kept people’s base impulses in check have gone AWOL. Cruelty is the new normal, while the sacred is mocked.

What has been unleashed? A quasi-autocracy where dissidents are silenced and the Constitution is trashed. A government that loves animals, the earth, and endangered birds, but not humans.

Everywhere we look, from the ghettos to the corporations to the pristine halls of the government, we can see people whose hearts and souls are empty. Their antisocial behavior is enabled by a codependent society that gives aggrieved groups the green light to pillage and plunder.

Sociopathy will not wane unless we create a nation of grown-ups. A country where people are expected to take responsibility for their actions. No exceptions.

As long as sociopaths have carte blanche, the U.S. will no longer be a beacon of hope to the world. We won’t regain our standing until our lawmakers start following the law and our teachers can teach without being pummeled…

…and a fifteen-year-old girl can attend her big homecoming dance and not have her life destroyed in the process.

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My Search for Intelligent Life in Berkeley

When I was growing up, my parents forbade me from ever opening up the curtains. It had something to do with their fear that the sun would bleach the furnishings.

If I even sneaked a peek outside, I’d find myself on the receiving end of my parents’ wrath. Just as children become acclimated to all kinds of environments, I learned to live in the dark.  

This habit caused problems with roommates. They’d walk into the house on a sunlit day to find me with the curtains drawn and every light on. They’d groan and deliver a stern lecture about wasting electricity.

It took me years to learn to live in natural light. I remember the day; it was when a friend asked if she could open up my venetian blinds. I had been in my apartment for a few years, always with the blinds tightly shut. My rationale was that the bright California rays would irritate our eyes. But given that the blinding sun fades in the afternoon, there really was no good reason to cloister myself.

My friend having requested it, I lifted up the blinds. A nature-lover replenished by the world, she drank in the sight of foliage as though taking in vital substances.

As it turns out, I have a lovely view out my window of all kinds of trees and, if you lean over and crook your neck, the Bay Bridge. She pointed all this out, as well as the games the light was playing on the rooftops.

Since that day, I open my blinds during the day. That friend quite literally taught me to start living in light.

I now see my years in the dark as a metaphor for my childhood, where I spent way too much time alone in my hermetically sealed room. It is also an analogy for what my life was like before God.

As a child, I received no religious exposure that I remember. We never attended a synagogue or hosted a Seder.  

Now that I have found my way to the Sacred, I look for Him everywhere. But in Berkeley, He’s usually nowhere to be found. Yes, there is the guru of the month and Joy Classes and the latest spiritual craze.  

But the true blue kind — with God front and center? Few and far between.

In these dark times, I spend my days searching for God. Sometimes I glimpse Him in a starry-eyed baby or an exuberant puppy.

Occasionally I see Him in someone around Berkeley, though the person doesn’t notice that He’s there. I’ll recognize a gentle spirit, a tender heart, and a hunger and longing for something, though he or she hasn’t the slightest idea what it is.

And once in a blue moon, the Real Thing appears.

The other day, I went into the biggest and baddest grocery store around. I usually avoid it like the plague, since the place has an excess of attitude.

But I needed something for dinner, so I proceeded cautiously to the chilly deli section. There I found a woman who appeared totally out of place. An attractive, middle-aged black woman, she just glowed. She called everyone “sweetie,” and she smiled ebulliently.

Being third in line, I watched her imbue each customer with her warmth.  To a woman who looked down-in-the-mouth, she asked softly, “Is everything OK, sweetie?”

When it was my turn, I received the same kindness. After she handed me my sandwich, I did something I’d never done in my life.

I said to her the following: “I just want you to know that you have a beautiful spirit.”

Taken aback, she looked at me and then said, “Oh, sweetie, I try, but things are so hard. I was laid off of work and now I’m just working here part time. But I pray and try to have faith.”

I responded, “I’m so sorry to hear about your troubles. But I want you to know that your spirit is still so strong, and that you affect people like me.”

And then I did something that surprised us both. I extended my hand. She took off her plastic glove, and she gently held my hand in hers. We stood looking at each other and holding hands for several seconds.

As I turned to leave, she called out to me, “Sweetie, you have a beautiful spirit, too. But I’m sure you know this.”

I answered, “Thanks. I don’t always remember this.”

I left the store, soaring, lifted up by the power of this woman so infused with God.

But it wasn’t just my encounter with this beatific spirit that fueled my joy.  It was knowing that the Light has not gone out in Berkeley, no matter how hard the Enemy tries to extinguish it.

It was a reminder that Divine Love is alive and well and taking in breath, even in the most unlikely of places.   

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